j.o.u.r.n.a.l

Saturday 10th July: I'm turning.. SIXTEEN tomorrow! I'm soo pumped up for it, it's gonna great - I hope! I've added soo many pages this week, I really want people to be interested in my homepage! What else shall I add?? Ahh..lotsa stuff! I'll think of something. Well, what's there to say? Work's going Ok.. I'm having trouble hearing lately and it's really bugging me b'cos my whole work is based around being able to hear! My toher gossips all about my birthday.... oh - my brothers gone to a Piggery for 10 days for University. He's doing Vet Science. Anyhow, catch yer lata! Hugz.

Saturday 3rd July: Holidays, although only for two weeks, have started and what's better.. there's only eight days 'til my Birthday! My birthday always seem to bring on fights in this house - right now there is one involving not only my Mum & I, but my brother, Dad, Step-Mom & Grandma! Why does turning 16 - or any age for that matter - automatically bring on fights? It doesn't happen for my brothers birthday, but then again, his is the following week after mine so all the fightings died down by then..! So far these holidays I've had fun.. even though soccer got cancelled last night and probably will tomorrow as well.. but instead of soccer Amy, Brielle, BJ, Ben & I all saw Never Been Kissed and dinner at Maccas then came back to my place.. then the girls spent the night and the guys went home about midnight. Brielle stole my bed and during the night fell down on top of Amy..! It was hilarious, but what's better was that she started yapping in her sleep about who knows what.. she's hilarious! ..My Mum just told Ben I couldn't speak to him on the fone b'cos I was being rude to her and hung up - how lame can she be?! That's what inspired the Sweet & Innocent Page.. Enjoy!

Thursday 23rd June: I'm really excited right now with my life! Why? Everythings just working out how I want it to -except skool ofcourse but that can't be helped.. I hope things stay like this forever.. and ever.. and ever!! Oh gollygoshkins I'm HaPpY! Take Care, I'm gonna start updating this EVERY day - no matter what. Jacob & I made a deal.. I want my site as popular as his and I'm gonna prove him it can be done! The End.

Wednesday 19th April: What can I saY? I haven't updated in atleast a couple of weeks, and I'm beggining to wonder if I ever will!? Since the day I saw what Jake did on his homepage about me *Made a 'Do Not Date Rachel' Page* I've lost all respect for both him and myself. I shouldn't have to feel low for something I didn't do, but I do. I've given up my Net life.. I think it's finally time to change. The past months, infact over a year, I've spent glued to this machine but in the past weeks I think I've changed. I Love going out, I love having things to do on the weekend, I Love feeling wanted in real life, and I Love being social! Me..social??!!! I guess that's how life goes, one day you're headed down a one way, million mile Rd. and the next day you're stuck at a sixway intersection with 20 other cars and a bus parked up your rear-end! Ok, maybe not quite so graphic but that's how I feel! Change, I'm enjoying it while it lasts.

Friday 30th April: As soon as my fathead brother gets his lard-ass home and enevitably kicks me off the computer, I've decided what I'm gonna do! I'm gonna set myself a schedule. I'm sick of not having time to do what I want, and then when I finally have some time-I don't know what to do with myself!! I reckon Friday night is HomePage Night cos' obviosuly it's the only time I actually get around to doing much! Hmmmmm.. what else?? Oh.. I didn't get to go boxing again this week! :P Lyndall has a stuffed knee *Aww* so I sat at home and wrote my darned History assignment instead! *Joy*

Friday 23rd April: Ya know English teachers always love to ask sily questions like 'What are your ambitions and goals'.. or 'What is your veiw on the Ozone' .. and this is to 12 Year Olds!!!! Well, I'm 15 and I have trouble voicing an opinion on either of those.. but, next time a teacher asks who my Idol is.. I'll know the answer. She isn't famous and I doubt anyone out of my small shire would know her name.. but I've just decided in the weirdest way, I Idolise her! Ok, so it sounds odd but... I'm gonna have to leave her name annonomous b'cos heck, I don't want people thinking I'm kinky or anything!! I just really admire how she acts, talks, has everything in control even when it isn't..! Just..everything. *sniff* Why can't my life be like hers? Even when things are shit ...she doesn't let it get her down.. has tonns of friends.. always someone to care about her..a great social life.. great work..she's good at every sport she plays.. and ahh-it's killing me! Maybe I'm just jelous? But usually when I'm jelous I hate the person, and I don't hate her at all! She's never done anything to me that's made me feel let down ..and even my best-friends done that! Ahh, enuff already-SHUTUP

Sunday 18th April: Ahh whatta drag it was to loose soccer..again! *Sniff* Atleast I can say I played the last 5 minutes O-K, scrambling around on the ground resulting in some nasty cuts and bruises!! Tomorrow's the last day of skool holidays for me..*sniff* What shall I do?!?! Umm..vege out infront of the TV most likely..! I've been saving up alotta little pages for this site and stuck 'em up today, this one encluded, but now I'm starting to wonder if I should have bothered? No one really sees any of these pages but me.. but Oh well, I like it that way :) Hugz.

Friday 16th April: Well, it's 1.33pm right now, I have soccer training soon!! *Gulp* But what's worse, I have work tonight! At 6.00pm.. ugh.. and from what I hear, the boss is in a bad mood this week, partly..with me!!! Soo wish me luck with her! I'm soo depressed about this homepage, I want it to load quick and be good but I just can't do it Capt'n! I made the That Thing You Do Page last night and today so I'll add that maybe later tonight or tomorrow!! Wonderland was awesssssssssome!! Then, after that my friends came back to my place and we got Dominoes Pizza and watched Scream 2! I'm sooo loving these holidays-I don't ever want them to end..*sigh*! Well, It's getting late and I'm still in my PJ's!!! So I'd better go n' have a shower etc!! Hugz!

Wednesday 14th April: It's 8.33am, I can't believe I'm up this early! I'm off to Wonderland with friends in less than 20 minutes!! Remember being five and our parents let you breath in the gas of your Brithday hot air balloons and you were just soo bubbly afterwards you forgot about the headspins?? Well, that's how I feel now!! I Love WonderLand! For any Americans, it's a semi-Knotts Berry Farm? But.. Knotts is alot better! Anyway, my cameras coming along for the journey so I'll be sure to scan the pics asap. Ya know what, for just one moment I wish I could feel blissfully HaPpY, not b'cos I'm blocking out all the bad things in my mind, but b'cos they aren't there! I'm HaPpY right now, sure, but.. deep down is a whole nother story! I wonder if anyone is truly HaPpY? Are You? Hugz!

-Gwennie