Wow, lets see.. tomorrow is New Year's Eve.. the end of the Millenium.. what a time to get all sentimental right? No.. Not at all..ive given up looking at the past.. over thinking, analyzing.. freaking.. ive given it up.. what a resollution ey? Personally, im going to try to loosen up too.. go with the flow.. be a little more uninhibited.. that should make a few people happy (you know who you are :P) ok, December.. it was okay, a hell of a lot less stressfull than last year, i didnt freak out or have a panic attack or anything!!! :P The beginning of Dec. was very nice, because guess what?!? That big annoying situation with the guy actually worked out.. hell has finally frozen over.. eheh. and who says pecimism never pays off?? you know.. i was just in a good mood but then i started talking to my siblings.. they really know how to bring you down.. gotta love them for that.. ah anyways, so the guy thing worked out, we're going out.. well.. as much as two people, one with a lisence-but not a night lisence, can. It is slow goings though.. but what can you expect from something new right? I do like him a lot, and its seems like everytime we talk i end up smiling uncontrollabley.. and i tell what everyone is thinking when they read this.. so just shut up! I know people at my school are like, ''ewww..'' either directing that comment towards me, or him, but i dont give a shit..ide say at the bare minimum-85%-of the people in my school are self-centred, judgemental, ignorant people who would rather publicly denounce another rather than taking the time understand or, god forbid, accept someone.. its really disgusting and disgraceful when you think about it. anyways.. aren't I nice??
So flip forward a week (1/6/01)--i didnt finish before.. things still good.. actually working out.. I do have an awful load of school work to et done though.. i dont want to do it but yet i dont not want to do it, a neccessary evil you know? OH ok, i do have something to ask.. does it mean something when everytime you see a person you feel like you might throw up? Are they considered ''butterflies''? Is it a nervous thing? I mean, its driving me crazy, it could just be that my digestive system is fucked up, but i need SOME explaination.. who knows.. In all honesty, i dont have much to gripe about.. no insanely strong opinions at the moment, and i dont feel like bickering..so.. ill just cut this one short.. untill next time..
''its been such hell, i wish you well..''-Dido
-lisa |
