Hey, I'm in here. Please, can't someone understand that
I haven't gone anywhere. I know that the words that come out of my
mouth don't make sense anymore, I'm not sure why. I try to make them
understandable but, something it gets all mixed up.
God, this is so scary. You know, sometimes I don't even know where I
am or who is with me. I'm pretty sure, most of the time, that I am
living with my daughter. I think that it is her, oh it must be. Why
can't I get things straight?
I get so confused sometimes. People look at me like I'm crazy or
something. Don't they understand that I am just sick. I think. I want
to be my old self again, I just don't know what to do. This is so
frustrating. I try to do things for myself and I get all messed up.
I know I used to be able to wash dishes the right way, now I seem to
forget what I am doing. I've got so many thoughts going around in
my head, I just wish that I could express them.
Oh God, please help me. I want to able to hug my family, to let them
know that I am o.k., to recognize them when I see them, to do for myself
instead of depending on others and be able to help out instead of
being helped, I want to be able to laugh again and know why, I want
to be able to walk without help and give myself a shower and cook dinner
for the family again. I don't want to be a burden on anyone, please help me.
I feel so alone in here, so afraid.
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