When I think of the way it could be
If this dream is so close then why does it seems so far?
As each day I see you further and further and away from me
I can smell the word "GOOD BYE" on yer lip
I will not say again why I love you,
Why I waste my time
Why I go to sleep crying
Why I made my self rhyme
But I won't live my life this way in repeating lie
I have deleted 'you' from my file named Heart. I have erased you and throw you to recycle bin. But why still 'you' bugging me around. I still have about 2k a memory of you in my 'damn' brain. I must erase it immediately or my work will slow ruin the other files. You sort of a virus, but surely a marvelous one…
As I sit here and cry again, I can't help it but I realize what I've done? What I've done? I gave you my heart and soul but you put them aside. I know so many people come before me in your life, as I wish I were the first.
Darn it!
I thought we were meant to be. I thought you would fulfil my need. I thought you'd enter my life for good. I thought nothing and other matters but you and me. I thought you swore that promise in the name of God. As you did! Well, all I can say right now is that all of my thoughts on you were wrong. As my feeling to you are strong, but now as you put me aside, and smack me like shit bee. Now with a proud of a Rose that I can live without you in my life today! J
*touch the rose*
09-28-2000
~love is mental illness~