uhh.. pretty occupied right now.
OMG! its been some time since i last updated this blogger!

anyway, just busy at school, work and something more....
just bored in general

ciao people!!!!

>>>05-03-04

Moral Dilemma

Power struggle. Phsycoanalyst explained it as the common test for one's authority. Throughout history, we ever always search for power; whether it is political, economic, or metaphysical. It is one of the unachievable of the achievables. However, man still results asserting some kind of power of his own. That's the reasons why do slaves exists in the past [some are still]. One's authority and power over one's life. Where did it came from? Why do we seek power and authority? and why do we create scenarios that we take the responsibility of the damned power?

I asked my dad [who is a pastor] the other day, "What is one thing that God doesn't have power over us?" The answer is pretty simple. It is the God-given freedom of choice, Free Will, or whatever you want to call it. I say, it is the FREEDOM. God can't assert his divine and all supernatural power over that one thing. He can make you crippled, plague with disease or even make you live for the next millenia. But once God takes over man's free will or freedom using His power. It is no longer called freedom. That's why God created man instead of a robot.

What's the point then? Honestly, I really dont know. Only one impression came into my mind. Instead of seeking power and authority. Let Him control, though it wont be absolute because of our Free will. We become mere volunteers for Him, It would be out of our own Free will to do His will. Which I think is one of the hardest decision of man to make. To choose between his FREEDOM or God.

I quote this "that there are some good still left in this world, and it's worth fighting for" from TLTR-Two Towers.

I don't hold on to hope so much, and faith is too holy for me, despairing will drag me down. What is left for man?--> Act and Live.

I live with sorrow but sorrow is not in me

>>>04-26-04

Absolution

Im at school doing this blog.
I've been quite lazy busy for some time. Had my birthday last friday. Funny cuz I myself forgot about it. Thankful for those who greet me on the email and stuff that I remembered it [aahihihi]

Anyway, nothing really interesting happened that day. And nothing really new or interesting happens now. Except that semestral finals are coming within a week or two, then I would have a week break before the summer classes.

>>>04-13-04

The Summer Breeze

Spring would be over soon...
I can nearly smell the summer breeze
Kissing my lips and swinging my hair
hey!... just excited about this summer for no reason at all.

Well, study momentum is goin down though, so with my grades. It happens all the time. Am I loosing my focus and concentration? When I never had one in the first place...
At least I was alarmed of it before something really bad happens. It's just few weeks from the finals. Paperworks are flooding in and tests are haunting me...
OOhhhh boy...
everytime, all the time...

anyway, Happy Birthday to Joyce!

>>>03-25-04

Do I Sound Crazy???

Realizing that God has given man the ultimate free will. We faces the dilemma of that certain freedom in which so confuses us in many ways. Knowing that we posses such freedom given by God, some results into us being burdened with the entire responsibility of man to himself and to the rest of humanity and creation. Our life and everything that goes in it, is so much for us to handle. That's when I realize the theo- paradoxical logic of such God-given freedom to man, to give our lives back to Him is the only way to resolve the dilemma. Some denies the God idea, and went into their own (as to what they thought) control of their lives. And started searching for meaning and reason for things.A dead end road that leads you back in the beginning where the answer is obvious.

It's our nature to explore, ask questions and get adventures. As a matter of fact, we learn. What we learn in our experiences engraves into our heart and our mind.

>>>03-24-04

sigh...

Yeah... that's really not good. I've had all the spring break to unload myself of many school stuff. But then again, i am too lazy to start on anything.

I just had a test this morning at my first class. Never studied when I should've. Really shaky and I have to answer this essay which is worth 50 points of the exam. Then, as I expected. I wasn't able to organize my thoughts and just went blank! I don't even remember what have I put in it!!! I just hope that God will work His wonders though I don't deserve such. That's just what is left.HOPE. :(

>>>03-22-04

BITIN!

Spring Break's over! Bitin pa rin, parang gusto ko eh bakasyon na! la me syado ginawa kundi work lang the whole week. Dami ko dapat tapusin na papers sa school, review, notes etc. ni isa la me naumpisahan... delikado, kapa-kapa na naman ako nito. subsuban na naman ako sa pagma-makaawa na makapasa...

till next time...

>>>03-03-04

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>>>03-01-04

The Passion of the CHRIST
Directed by: Mel Gibson
Level of Violence: Brutally Awesome
Genre: Religious Film
Opening Date: Feb. 25, 2004

Critique:
Few words only came into my thought after I watched the Film. Disturbing, Powerful, Piercing, and Painful. The film depicts the last eight hours of Christ on earth. One of the highly anticipated movie of the millenia. The film is highly violent in nature, after all, it is the portrayal of the death of Christ. I've never seen someone so brutally beaten in my entire life (even in films) like this one. There is a portion of truth that it could have been that bad.

However, if you are expecting some obvious presentation of the whole gospel, it is not as emphasized as I'd thought. The taste is totally of hollywood. Very interesting and so compelling seeing someone endure such torment of thorns, whips of nails slashing through his every flesh. The flashbacks will take you to the more powerful scenes that is connected magnificently to what is happening.

Overall, this is the film that will pierce your heart till it bleeds. Controversial even before the release, but the silent message is so sounding, powerful, controversial, and quite compelling. I didn't drop a tear though, but the whole movie, my eyes were popping out every time they beat Christ with their hands and their weapons. To my recollection, I can't remember any man that had lived and endured such torture and get crucified. Forget all the crap about humanity and religion, one thing is clear: the LOVE, the SACRIFICE, and the TRIUMPH.

For more reviews click HERE

>>>02-23-04

Get a Laugh!!!!

Since Light travels faster than sounds, is that why some people appear bright until you speak to them?

Steven Martin.Readers Digest.Feb. 2004.p146

>>>02-10-04

Some things are bogus

I was walking on my way to this place during vacant hours when this little creature suddenly popped out and poses.

>>>02-09-04

Great Song!!!!

Dance With My Father.
First I've heard this great song sung by Tamyra Gray on one of the episodes of Boston Public. Then made it all the way to some radio stations and weddings and debut's.

Composed by Luther Vandross and won four Grammy's including the Song of the Year.

Check it out. Its really Great!!!

Download Courtesy by: Kazaa.com

>>>01-30-04

around and round

Its friday... went to school.attend one class.met with a friend. then went to dynasty with jerome. thinking of eating.watching movie. i dont know.gotta work tomorrow.still not finish with my readings. still haven't study for the test on monday and wed.its a mess. impossible. uncomprehensible. thoughts of mine. change. unusual. i dont know anymore. deep and troubling. darkness, i dont think so. too complicated, that's it.

>>>01-26-04

Some things are bogus

Just living a typical day in my life. It never occured to me before that this can be really boring sometimes. Just that nothing excites me and inspiring around. Just day after another day, same ol' things. Mostly I just stare into distance in blank mind, nothing absolutely nothing.

I always cram up at school, well that's how I am with my studies.Mmmm, I am thinking of ice cream right now. I guess I know what stress means now.
ciao.

>>>01-20-04

Nutsy life around

Things couldn't be better, not that something extraordinary happens. Just that I'm sailing smooth. Got a new job, hope it would be quite permanent.

School's fine, oh... and I'm having so much fun with my keyring. Amazes me. Next target is a camcorder. It's busy at school, lots of stuff to read and write. Too bad cause im not that reading type of person. I can hardly sit on hour of reading. Anyways, and bytheways If you wanna read a book, may I suggest The Art of Loving by Erich Fromm.

>>>01-16-04

2004

I just quit my job at the chin-restau

it sort of a conflicts with my sked @ skul... but good thing is i got another job...
tell ya later about it

>>>01-07-04

2004

Spring Classe starts!!!

>>>12-19-03

THE LORD OF THE RINGS [My Review]
by Ian Pangga

Life,love,peace,hope,war,sacrifice,hate,betrayal,friendship,loyalty, deceit,power,and death. Name it and they have it. The Lord of The Rings had done it again. It might even be the best movie of our time. Peter Jackson's adaption of Tolkien's work is not just a phenomenon, but for some, it is a life changing experience. They follow Frodo in his journey through Middle Earth and its last days with the mission to destroy The Ring of Power. The Ring, which is once owned by the the evil Sauron, has the power to corrupt, change, and turn its evil to those whose heart is not strong to resist it. From the moment it was released few years back, it was history making, the movie that all creatures were anticipating. They created first the Fellowship of the Ring, followed by the Two Towers (2002) which is quite timely, and finishes with the Return of the King just few days ago. If you missed one, you're done. This movie is off the charts, it tops the box office, and even collects golden academy awards. This is a journey of the creatures of MIDDLE EARTH to its end. [more...]

>>>12-16-03

^^Beau^^
"There's still good left in this world, and it's worth fighting for," says Sam Gamgee on the movie The Lord of the Rings:Two Towers.

The Return of the King is the last of its trilogy so expect that after I watch that movie, I will post a full review about it.

Nothing interesting going around here. Just any typical seasonal rush and stuff. I'm totally glad that I was able to come up with enough finances to pay for the TF this coming spring sem. PTL for that! and for those who also faithfully prayed.

Right now, I'm a little bit tired from a whole day work (its holiday vacation time).

>>>12-09-03

^^in TAGALOG^^
Check out the new song I posted... i cant remember what album of Ginny Owens pero maganda yung song.

OK. Finally tapos na rin ang mga exam kaso lang hassle sa isang class kasi kailangan ko pang mag-submit ng maraming paperworks na di ko natapos. Malay ko ba, di nya naman binigay yung clear instructions eh!!! Di bale, masaya ako kasi ala na pasok, magpapasko na tapos may work pa ko

>>>12-05-03

^^AAAAA!!!^^
Done with final exam of microbio... got a sweet A for the whole course!!! Praise God for that and thanks for your prayers!!!...

See... even if i didn't study but ask for prayers and also pray myself, God hears and answers you know!!! isn't He amazing!!!!!!!!
I think i should treat myself and watch The Last Samurai!!! hehehe sweet samurai!!!! sweet A. oh by the way, A is like 4.0 in DLSU.

>>>12-04-03

^^Wheeww!!!^^
Finally, this sem will be over in just few weeks. i cant wait for the vacation time. got some pretty gud part time job this season... things are just falling into the right places at the right time. Got enough to pay for next sem's fee...

Right now, i still work at that chinese resto on fris and sats. during the weekdays i'm also working part time at the mailing center that i worked at last year's. and the catering one is quite calling us for parties to cater for. i hope that'll be a nice holiday.

Guys, do remember my finals ok. just a little behind on some papers

It's a little cooler now here, temps are dropping and it really give me some chills every morning.

>>>11-19-03

^^i suck, prayer works^^
Just done with the exams... i sucked pretty much cuz i didnt even study at all. But thank God for his "mercy" and for your prayers i did totally great. unimaginable how God worked it out.

Last monday was the most crappiest day ever i got at work...
i dropped a tea glass and broke it, i dropped a tray of glass(good thing its plastic glass), imagine how much disaster that would be if it were glass???

I dont think i would get any deduction though... i was glad we get to be off early.

>>>11-13-03

^^demolish^^
Hey! PJ! CONGRATS for making it to the exam...
So how was it now being a legitimate engineer??? pretty cool huh! guess it all paid off... any plans or goals?

I'm a little off myself this week though, got exams and still procrastinating about everything. Just submitted my essays, didnt know that my use of prepositions were that bad! hard to be a second language learner... im thinking of taking some courses to work it out.

got new cards [dark necrofear and yata garasu] of yugioh...man!!! hope this would bring about some chaos once i get back to the tourney...

still workin at the chinese resto... im fine though, it'll help me pay off for the tuition next sem.

May i request you guys to pray for my studies and for whatever God's plan in me. I'm still in search of it though, but i guess i dont have to search for it'll come along just at the right time.Just pray that I'll be mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually OK.

Thanks

>>>11-10-03

^^???^^
Wheeww!!! just thinking some stuff...

Thank Him! just finished my research essay. still up for editing and revision though. but im glad its done.

Not so much goin' on lately, except for the new p-time job i got. im having a hell of a good time though.

I got exams again this thu and fri. Ahh.. these sick exams makes up my grades and nothing else.... i should get a good grade though to pull up my bad grades from my old transcript at La Salle. Anyways, i never cease to be amazed on how God works it all out (yung tamang-tama lang sa atin).Perfectly in tuned.

Thanksgiving is near the corner... turkeys are everywhere.

>>>11-04-03

^^Hollow-ween^^
Got really lazy to update stuff here guys.
Nothing much, just busy thinking and thinking for my research essay due on the third week of the month and still i dont have enough ideas.
What happened this holloween was really quite nothing. Just went out to watch a walk in drama (boring) trying to avoid trick-or-treater. I got school that day, and just spent the whole class chatting with the girl beside me cuz we're both bored and sleepy, so to just keep awake, we chatted.

Oh i got a new ptime job at a chinese resto. And i also got a chinese name my tita gave [Xiao Pan Yan Li or Xiao Pan for short]...

>>>10-21-03

^^Procrastination vs. Mercy^^
One of the worst attitude I have along with stubborness (which is like everybody) is procrastination. I'm not bragging nor proud of it. It's the typical upto the last minute run. But somehow,God used that in some extraordinary ways.

Exam week came close (midterms), and I should get going on study. I am not satisfied with the last exam for not meeting my goal but I did deserve what I got because of being lazy to study. So, I guess I am that desparate to get an even grarde this time. I do pray before the exams but nothing like this one...
two weeks I prayed from time to time before the exam. Knowing me being to lazy to get on my notes and really study (sumtyms i jst luk @ it)-I really need a prayer. SO I did.

^^Bad Habit^^
Then here's my study habits. I've notes from my other class so I thought that I'd study it last in line since I have to make reviewer for the other class for the chapters that we did. It took time before i got finished with it and at the same time I'm focusing on my research essay on the other class I have.
That until I dont have time left and the exam's tomorrow and I havn't studied anything yet. So, i started reading, memorizing and studying the one i had made a reviewer. Later that night, I fall asleep til the next morning-the exam day.

^^Not confident^^
I only had few hours of real study. So the exam went on, hoping I would get somehow good grade. On the other class (one i already have notes). Same thing, just studied couple of hours the night before, wake up little early and do some more review and that's it.

^^Results^^
Amazingly, i got the desired grade i wanted but i cant take all the credits knowing of that big shortcoming that i had towards my study. And the bonus points did helped a lot. Knowing that God heard my prayer and helped me big time, i can't help give glory back to Him (deserves it). My effort can only do so much. If only I put more effort and with God's help I could've gotten much better results.

^^Reflections^^
Faith plus our action equals desired results. However, in this instance God showed himself with my little actions. How much more would he show if we do more?

>>>10-14-03

^^ala magawa^^
oopppss... just yada me if you find any problems within this blogger ok???

uhh, nothing much going on lately.
i think i'm getting behind from school works (esp essays) grrr!!!
not that i hate it, its just i dont feel like writing and writing then write. sigh.

just seen Kill Bill recently-AWESOME!!!! i wont give it a 5 but fighting is totally bloody sharp samurais, its like reading Japacomics.
i still think that the villains should've died at least with some deserving way after all they are really good fighters.

>>>10-09-03

^^What's Goin'^^
What's goin' on... what's goin' on...
not so much, still floating in this so called life. even if you're not looking you'ld still notice that time passes by so fast (dont wanna be left behind) and the last minute is now part of your past.

still, makes me think what value one person puts into his time. has he makes the most out of it or has he lived each day with joy and happiness and par-tay all the time as if it's the last?

everyone searches for his individuality throghout his/her life-time, i guess its how you search and not what or whom you search for yourself that would help you see oneself in its true nature

and how one uses his/her time speaks alone for himself...

>>>10-07-03

^^Gwa-ha-ha^^
I never got to watch the concert last friday cuz i got lazy to drive and i have no gas money too. but they had this some kind of animal show production Noah and the Ark. so thats where i went (same church).

its really neat production that the highlights were real live animal show (the place was pretty big to accommodate some wild and domestic animal). The animal would walk along the aisle towards the exit which is considered the ark (stage).

the actors did a great job, but its more of an animal show so everytime they bring out a bird or a gator or a leopard the trainer dressed up as characters of the play would state some facts about it. I like most is what they call a pre-monkey (before monkey became a monkey). It got really fuzzy and racoon type of tail you wont think its a monkey, but it really looks like a monkey.

They also brought out a huge one back camel and a giraffe, and a lazy goat that chewed the carpet some pairs of bird and a donkey on a stage.

There's also this chimp who always steal the show.

>>>10-03-03

Sigh....
Well then... i kinda sound bored dont i?
oh i just remember, there's a concert at here with Jeff Deyo of the Sonicflood tonight and i'm thinking of going since it's for free. i don't know i'm too lazy to go, but i really want to though... and meet some new people (and gals).

i usually do this now at school since i can't use the internet at home, it's a lot faster to download stuff over here though. most the time i just surf, and just surf cuz chatting bores me...

by the way, i'm starting to read East of Eden (John Steindbeck). its really gud material and great book. tag me if anyone heard or read it ok...