Thursday, December 08, 2008
12:31 A.M.
A whole year. Absurd. It felt like just a few weeks ago that I devoted so much effort to this site. I wanted it cleaned up and organized and I spent at least a few days straight laying out the details. Then, like always, I just stopped. Any sane person would have scrapped the whole thing by now. But I like the idea of the site, if not the actual presentation. I always thought it looked amatuerish. It is, of course; I have no professional experience. I can get over the presentation, though. Do you know, I wrote that prologue years ago? I was working at Pizza King when I wrote it. Fact is, I actually wrote it between waiting tables while I was working. That was my second job. I was...17..18, maybe? In 8 days, I'll be 26 years old. That was 8, maybe 9, years ago. I have done more with the idea in the latter part of those years and I have more ideas written down that I haven't applied here yet, but still...
I want to keep writing the story. I want to engage in my projects and record my progress. I guess it doesn't really matter whether the whole thing exists 'out here.' I hate that it seems pretentious. Like, how awesome am I. Of course, that isn't my intention. The whole thing is, I'm sure, terribly uninteresting to anyone else. I suppose the structure here is easy for me to navigate and for those tiny tiny few people who actually do come here, its easier to point out an idea to them. So up it stays. Those are good enough reasons for now...if I can just get my insecurity to back the hell off. How long will it be in limbo, though, I wonder.
It is, after all, nothing but a vague record of my existence and a way to organize and navigate my own sometimes boring life. So naturally, it takes a backseat to the actual events it attempts to record. I don't like the slow weight of it, though, the once a year need to do something, anything, with it. The next six months to a year of my life are going to be very strange and difficult. In that time, I plan to do a couple of things with this site. I will rename it, move it, start and begin to fill project blogs, and finally add more to the Life and Times. I cannot afford complete dedication here, but if I cannot manage these simple things I will after 8 bloody years remove this site entirely.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
7:37 P.M.
I did more cleanup. Added some table spacers to make things more centered. I think it flows a little easier now. I also FINALLY changed the names of my chapters. I like them a whole lot better now. As with Portcullis, they mostly served as placeholders until I could organize my thoughts on the matter of The Life and Times of Varium Grey. The chapters are much more aptly named now and actually represent what they are supposed to. I added another chapter page as well because I realized that a new chapter has since been written. Or, perhaps more aptly, is being written. But by the time I get around to actually writing it, I'm sure there will be a Chapter Five. Anyway, I hope to change the site name soon. I changed the background on this tidings page as well. I think it looks clearer. I'm not sure. Not sure I really like the iframe thing anyhow, but it works for these purposes so I won't change it yet. The new project page, like all the others will remain empty until I have the energy to fill it.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
11:27 A.M.
I cleaned the place up a bit, scrapped some stuff here and there and added some basic navigation. I might change that later or just keep with the basic stuff since its usually easier to use the browser's navigation. At least now each page can get back to the home in one or two steps, whi