My Happiness
(by Yayan)
I have experienced the difficult periods for two
years. All of them have been caused by my longing that
hasn't realized. Finally, I felt so stress and
frustrated. My soul has died and I never thought to
live anymore. I always was sad that the Lord let me
deep down good for nothing situation.
Although I was facing the terrible time, I still
have tried to pray and read the spiritual books,
especially about "Consciousness" by Fr. Anthony de
Mello. In his book, I have found the best sentence
which made me fell interested and protected. The best
sentences are "I don't need you to make me be happy.
I can be happy without you"
Of course, you would think, how I was surprised,
spontaniously to stop suddenly it's made. That's
right. And then I asked myself "what's the meaning of
the best words?"
After I have had thera'peutic words, now I can see
more clearly that juring for two years I have done
anymistake, namely to condemn myself for the bad
decision.
The event since, I've begun to instropective and
tried to let go free myself from dependent on the
other person. Always I tell by myself that "I can be
happy without anything. My happiness was only myself.
If I give more time to love and carefulness for
myself, otomatic I can love the other people without
except."
Now, I can walk on this life with happiness without repentence yet. Thanks God. Moreover I have found mylife to give the other people. And also may I never think to die soon, before to do and to share the best for the world.
© Yayan Dakhi
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