I feel as if I am crazy, as if I am mentaly insane. It feels like they are staring, as if they know my inside pain. It feels like a thousand knives cutting in my soul. I am just hoping that one day I can be whole. Whole again as myself, with out this pain in my heart. I am just standing on the edge, waiting for a brand new start. Laying in my bed, staring at the darkness. As I go through my life, my happiness seems to be getting less. I hope one day, one day of my life. I can be happy, happy with you as my wife. I am just dreaming, dreaming of a life without pain. As I slowly go mentaly insane.