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June 9, 2004 |
| Perfect family of ten And I'm the youngest of them all Perfect family in which I love Always providing me ride to the mall Money when I need it Companionship was always there Someone to associate to Someone who would love and care Sisters moving out with husband Brothers are off to work or college Our family of ten… Begin to demolish No one to look after me No one ever seem to care One broken up family Getting together is rare The attention started to fade Family member begin to disappear One upset kid Who resort to beer Taking the wrong steps Towards wrong people and places Next thing I know I'm on one of the police chases In a dirty jail And it's very lame It's not one's fault But yours to blame Once perfect And filled with joy Now grown up It's all destroyed Partly based on true story?-hung |
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June 8, 2004 |
| Danny's Entry on Hung's Blog After reading ferny's Xanga I wanted to write an entry (since I haven't in such a long time) of my own expressing how life is moving so fast, and there isn't enough time to do anything, I mean anything about I! Ok we all know theres about a week left in school, things are going great, me and Victoria are doing great, I couldn't be happier, I'm pretty sure tats how hung feels about Emily too, I mean seriously he talks about her a lot. No offense. Friday the 4, Mr, big shot hung got a date with Emily! He asked if I could help him with the cake there he gave to Emily, because it was her birthday, c'mon I know this guy from kindergarden, how can I say no? I tried my best to help him, I go the cake to the park, on time! Not late but on time! Normally every Friday we go play volleyball at Hawthorne memorial but, that's only this one-week that we couldn't go. but that doesn't change anything in our lives, not our routines not our friendships. Hung is happy, im happy, everyone should be happy! If u thinks about it, what is there NOT to be happy about? Its almost the end of the school year and everyone can get away from teachers, unless u got summer school, but hey tats school for only 6 weeks. More time to just sleep in late, more time to go out, more time to be online and chat with your friends, threes a lot o be happy about, we just have to see it, its in our everyday lives. Things are going by so fast, theres no time to stop and smell the flowers. Its rather sad, 10th grade (2003 - 2004 ) school year is over. The accident that happened on the 8th of May really killed me. It was my LEXUS there now its deformed on the ass. It hurts man, If u see it in person, you'll wonder how it could have happened. But the long run is, im getting money for this accident, I just don't know when and how much. It may seem that things are changing, but they aren't. me and hung have that special other, but that doesn't mean we're not gona hang out, were not gona be like we use to. Both me and hung cherish our friends. W/o them hung would just rot in front of the computer screen playing starcraft all day, and I would be driving around, for hours, wasting gas and wasting time, because I made mistakes to lose that friendship, you don't want us to end up like couch potatoes. We're happy, we want to share that happiest with you, because we're friends. And tats what friends do…. -Dann Kneeeeee |
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June 7, 2004 |
| I dedicate this blog to my girlfriend, Emily Lu. Each time I'm with
her, I forget about all my problems… she turns all my gray to great and
all my great, better… Although things seem to move fast between but I
feel that we've known for years…She's everything I always wanted…She
motivates me to do better… She doesn't nag me into doing it… but yet in
a cute fashion, she motivates me…. Motivated me to take my class for my
driving license….motivated me to do good in skewl and most of all she
motivated me to look forward in the next day… "You know that you're in
love when even the biggest imperfection seems perfect." We've all heard
of this quote or something similar to that… and that is how I feel… I
find all her imperfection, perfect…She says I remind her of her ex-yes
something you shouldn't tell your b/f …. That's just morally wrong in
some standard but yet again she still perfect in my eyes….how can this
be? How am I not bother by this? Well I tell you what… if you like
someone enough…. Nothing would matter… -hung |
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June 4, 2004 |
| My Date It had been 3 days since I was anticipating for this date to come… 3 whole days…. It was devastating waiting and waiting… and when the day came ticking to the last 10 mins, ready to go pick her up was even more crucial…I was dozing off wondering if the day would be fine and stupid enough I ran into the end of a wall…. Well running to a wall isn't that bad but the corner of one…. It hurted like hell….i sorta have a bruise on my left eye… each time I touched it, it would hurt…. How nervous im getting for this date is quite ridiculous… now my eye is hurt… they're small enough without things done to them…and now getting a bruise there…. GEEBUS how stupid can I get As the date progress… we went pick her up…. Hoa and trinh joined us…. When we got to her house… we got out heading towards the door… hoa came out first and I was coming out a bit late…. Calling her to come out…. And when I finally got out to head towards her house… she came out and ran towards hoa and gave him a great big hug…. I was like oh crap, she thought I was him… so how horrible that would be…. Too bad none of that happened…. Well when we headed out to her house…. We got a bit lost so we had to call her…. And when we were heading toward the right way… I asked her to come outside… which she did…. And then she entered the car…. NOW LET THE DATE BEGIN…. Well not quite… we had to go pick up kyle/phong…. Which was cool ^_^.. so now we're heading towards the mall…. I checked the time for the movies ahead of time…. Shrek2 showtime was 4:15 and 4:45… I was hoping to watched it at 4:45 but with so much delay we had to watch it at 5:15 which really didn't matter….We watched Shrek2 then went window shopping in which I think is a waste of time now but at the time I didn't because being with Emily at the time wasn't a waste of time no matter what… even if we happened to do nothing but shop around all day… it would've been great either way….We headed out to the park afterward which was nice… it been awhile since I came to poliwag…. Its nice there….. and thanks people for coming to sing happy b-lated birthday to her.. I thought it was all gonna go wrong but it was great….. went well as can be.. and mucho thanks to my friends who helped me in making it possible… We went to dinner after this… and boy did she eat…. She practically ate everything and didn't save anything for anyone… I was quite amazed… with such lil body can consume so much food… Jaw opened with awe as I watched her gobbling up all the food…. Yeah that didn't happened haha….. we just went eat dinner… she didn't eat that much…. She lost her appetite over the chocolate cake…. So she didn't eat much… overall…. It went as well as it can be….. -hung |
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May 31, 2004 |
| STUPID POST The beginning of the end, the end of the beginning… the start of what already ended and the end of what never started… if you keep saying this to yourself a couple hundred time… you'll become what is known as a DUMBASS… First of all you listen to what I said… 2nd do you not have anything else better to do…. And 3rd to conclude that you're a dumbass is because saying those words isn't going to benefit you, in any sort of way… or is it…. are those words being repeated can enlighten your knowledge of your surrounding… will it unclear the clouded thoughts of what isn't known to be known… what is this post coming to…. I tell you what its coming to… something stupid I just made you read because I was bored… but that would just be mean letting you go knowing that you're a "Dumbass" so here I will enlighten you…. Enlighten you on what you might ask… I'll enlighten you in what I like to call uoyeraassabmud….its something I like to do….. make people think and question about everyone and everything around them….as you might wonder whats uoyeraassabmud is… well its basically uoy-era-a-ssa-bmud which is you-are-a-dumb-ass.. and I just made you read another portion of my stupid post…. Bye -hung |
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May 26, 2004 |
| Vick's NyQuil!.. can the pill be any fucken bigger… those pill are
big … and now you have to take two… and as a genius I am… I popped two
in and attempted to swallow both down at once…. Amazingly I managed
without killing myself or choking but I have to say… THOSE PILLS ARE BIG
! ! !... they do make you tired after taking 2 pills… I mean who
wouldn't be… put out so much work just to swallow those damn pills… With
that being done, you're out of energy… just full of exhaustion from the
difficult usage of the pills….MAYBE I exaggerated a little bit but still
damn those big pills! ! ! |
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May 25, 2004 |
| The WB's Superstar USA I've seen these show on channel 5 and boy was I amazed on what its about… Many of you probably heard about it…but for those who didn't… its like American Idol but instead of choosing the best to advance… they choose the worst…. In this case they pick the worse of the worse to advance, meaning they give hope to those who think they sing good and at the end they announce it on public television that they're the worse singer there ever was… harsh don't you think?.... I was very disappointed especially when its coming from the all so dearly Warner Brothers…. The network that brought us kid WB with all the great cartoon… and also brought us shows such as Gilmore girl… smallville… angels….. 7th Heaven… and much more… how can such a network broadcast such a show such as The WB's Superstar USA…. These people are trying their best and really believe they can sing while these jackasses encourage them… fulfill them with hope then at the end… CRUSH it all on national television…. that would greatly affect those who uncertain to persuade their dreams because of what The WB's Superstar USA is trying to say…. Persuade your dream but if you cant do it… we'll make you pay among national television, only after putting you on many episode to laugh at your hardwork…. Although there's a story behind this… as in the people who got humiliated got paid real well but with such filthy show shouldn't be broadcast in such a Network as WB… network don't care what I think…. They just want good ratings… and I found that my brother g/f is hooked on that show…. This post is to discourage people to watch such a show… because if that made a great hit.. you can bet there's going to be an upcoming season of such a degrading show….. |
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May 20, 2004 |
| Here is another of my COMPLAINTS! My mom came in one morning and bitches like crazy…. She throws everything off my desk, off my shelf, pull out all my clothes from the closet….my room more than a pile of shit at this point… and it doesn't even count the various things I have under my bed…. Its around 7:30am and when I got out of the shower… I see a mad lunatic tearing everything apart as well as shedding tears… That lunatic was my mother and boy was she crazy… what the hell was her problem… she trash my room like that's going to help the situation….my brothers woke up from all the commotion and stands outside my room staring at my mother go….cursing and yelling in vietnamese as I was speechless to reply back… what can I say…. Why do I bother… nothing get to her head at this point…. I have to hurry off to school but she's still constantly yelling and destroying my room…. Amongst all the stuff that comes out of her mouth, I hear "get what you want, and im going to throw the rest away" all I knew was I have to get to skewl so I simply replied in English …. Im going to school do what you want bye!.... I came home that day and my room was "clean" not quite clean but clean…. All she did was put everything straight and lined up… but still have the same amount of crap in my room…I have things lay out in my room because its easier to find and much easier to access to… and when you're done just throw it anywhere because it'll be in a location where it'll be easy to access to…. It been about a week prior to what happened… and apparently I cant find shit in my room anymore…. My room is as dirty than before… but now I cant find anything…I cant find big poster to start on my project… I cant find my weights to work out…. I cant find my markers and pen…. And sadly I cant find any paper…. why cant she just leave my room alone… if she don't like it.. don't go in it… don't look in! that simple…. I must get a new lock to my room… isolate myself from what they call family…. Academic Failure? I've noticed that my academic failure started with the break at Texas….but that's just a hidden cover up…. I've came to think of what have caused me to be such a failure in school… It was my family….Before my family was together… sister lived nearby, coming for dinner quite so often…. Brothers at home studying doing hw and helping me….Ever since all my brothers graduated from high school and had their own life… my academic started to go down… maybe because I was isolated from everyone since… home alone day after day… nothing to do but sit and do practically nothing… no one to talk to… no one to ask for help…. If there's a problem… i would just have to live with it…that's where I went wrong… I lived with the problem…. I should have stood up and fix the problem but being the youngest of the family I was spoiled… each time I need help, someone was there to help me… but now im independent which made me take wrong choices without anyone there to guide me…. When there's no paper… I usually ask my brothers… but where are they… I cant ask my dad for a ride to the market to get it… my mother is at work until late…. So who am I to depend on…. Apparently I wasn't one of those hardworking guy who would go out there and buy paper myself but yet again being a spoiled brat I just sat there and think of excuses why im not doing my hw…. When I do a math problem and don't understand it… who am I to ask…. Borther no where to find… im more of a visual person… and people who does 1 on 1 teaching helps me a lot….i wont comprehend as much if it was from the phone or internet with a friend….is my downfall in school just my fault? Or are there many more factors that add on…. I've grew up living a "perfect" life… but as I've grown my life tears apart…. Or may this just what all people go through and im just being a bitch complaining about it? whatever it is…. Its my blog I do what I want! |
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May 18, 2004 |
| Why do guys like boobs? What lure guys to girl's breast? Well can
this be explained? I wonder why guys like boobs… what is it to them? Is
there some chemical that releases that instantly attract the opposite
sex? Someone once told me, guys are interested in boobs because they're
mysterious…there was a long explanation to that but it was more like
blah blah blah to me… only thing I heard was because they're
mysterious…. Well I don't think that's true… I mean if a guy was to have
boobs… I don't think another guy would be attracted to it….. surely
there's no chemical that releases from the breast……so what attract us to
breast? Because they come in different sizes? Cause I think guys do like
varieties…. Why do guys like boobs… I think a guy like boobs because it
instantly distinguishes a girl from a guy…. That also explains why guys
like vagina or in other words pussy… I came up with that explanation and
it seem right…. Recently I've heard comments about gays… surely many
guys oppose of gays between male and male but lesbian is just fine….
Girls in the other hand didn't care much…. So its quite "proven" that
guys are afraid of gays… so is that why boobs and pussy are strongly
needed to distinguish a girl from a guy for the guy hormones to work so
we can reproduce for our human species?! *breathe* well I think that's
it?... tell me your opinion…-hung |
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May 17, 2004 |
| Today like any other day… I've got nothing done skewl wise or chore
wise… but one thing I've accomplished today… to fall in complete silent
and confusion through the words of a girl who made me feel speechless…
what did she do? What did she say? You're probably wondering… if you're
not then start wondering so I can tell you! ! ! well for those of you
who don't know… I am having a double triple quadruple or whatever it is
date…. And apparently im dateless…. So in search of date I decided to
ask this girl today…. The convo came out: Hung: hey you want to go on a date on Saturday with me? Girl: umm… what? well at this point im like… what the hell… what does she mean by what? I wished I was on the phone with her…. If we were talking on the phone and I asked and she was like umm what?... I can tell that she didn't hear me so then i can just repeat myself… but apparently this is aim and it stays there… and when she says umm… what?... I was speechless… not knowing what to say… in a situation where you wish you weren't there… like the time you fell on the ground and everyone stares down at you… you just wish you weren't there… or those Southwest commercial… wanna get away?.... So my day wasn't as boring as it seem to be… I did get something accomplished… I've accomplished to stay online after she says… "umm… what?" -hung "umm… what?" how those words are such killer |
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May 16, 2004 |
| Saturday So the park event today and to my surprise many people came… although many I don't know but soon got to know… it was nice especially the part finding out that they're all nice… nice people make my day nice… makes a lot of sense don't it….but it keeps me wondering is this just the first impression or are they really nice… of course I would give them the benefit of the doubt of being nice but what is nice… to me being nice is simple… just don't get on my nerves… and believe me… not many things get on my nerves but yet again everything get on my nerves and once again my blog is getting nowhere… Sunday Happy birthday to lena of course… and we went to the beach today… wasn't fun… waste of time… must I say more…. But it was just great seeing lena especially on her bday…. My Weekend I didn't get anything done over the weekend… and when I meant anything, I meant by cleaning up my room or fixing computer or just simply homework… its closing to 12 midnight right now and I'm going to plan to sleep and worry about it tomorrow…. The way I live my life is so bad but yet I do nothing to change it… I have many guidance to do better, but yet again something within say not to care… probably years of people calling me lazy and parents calling me useless and of course my insecurity of saying that im not that type of person, have caused me to not become a hard worker nor an over achiever… which is practically the same thing… 7-4 6-3 7-3 7-3 3-2 7-1 7-1 5-3 |
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May 13, 2004 |
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I get paid! Yes that's right…. I got a dollar each time I water the
plants in front of my house…. One whole freaken dollar…. At this rate
I'll make 7 dollars a week and about 30 dollars a month…..a dollar a day
doesn't seem much but at the end of the month…. Damn its satisfying…how
do I know that it would be satisfying? If I haven't got my first
"paycheck" yet?....well its call common sense… the sense that's given to
be flexible only if you're knowledgeable… and obviously I don't mean
knowledgeable on book smart only… did you know that you can spell
judgement and judgment the same way… spelling it with the e or without
the e is still acceptable but apparently my Microsoft word is marking it
wrong….. oh yeah special shout out:
Can you decode? |
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May 12, 2004 |
| JCC- Japanese Culture Club…learn about Japanese culture? I wish we
do anything of that sort… I think JCC is one of the worst clubs…. Even
I, an officer of the club, think it's a dumb club…. Im treasurer of the
club.. and apparently each time we make money from candy sale the money
doesn't come to me… the "dumb" members turn it to someone else and the
other officer expect me to know how much we make…. We're having a candy
sale right now and probably most of the member dont even know whats the
money going towards…. Heck most of the member don't even know the point
of Japanese club…. Hardly have any good members at all… come when they
want leave when they're please…. What is JCC…. NO ONE KNOWS…. I tell you
what JCC is… its WORST CLUB EVER….. |
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May 10, 2004 |
| Sometimes you wonder how the worst guy ever gets the girls and the
most decent guy doesnt...losing to someone thats "decent" is more
understandable than losing to someone thats unreasonable stupid and
trash altogether...Liking someone so dearly is not all you need to have
someone heart…. You must have them like you… if they don't like you…. No
matter what you do, wont help…. No matter how hard you try… no matter
what you, what you say….its NOTHING to them if they're not interested…..
Try Hard… Try Harder… ALL LIES….. give up while you ahead….other do the
most simplest thing gets her heart …. I guess I don't know what she
likes… I guess I don't know what she wants…. Heck I guess what girls
want doesn't make any freaken sense to me…. You see the most arrogant
motherfucker get a girl and you don't see how's that possible… everyone
can see that, that guy is trash…. But what do I know…. Its not what I
see in the guy… its what the girls see… and apparently what the hell do
the girls see…. I admit… at this part of life im too uptight… what am I looking for? What am I searching? A girlfriend that would last me a lifetime? Who am I kidding? Kids my age cant handle that but I tell you what they can handle… the hung who jokes around and don't take anything serious… once he takes it serious and look deep in things… they just don't like him? - Is because he's too mature? Can it be possible? Some girls think im too mature some girls think im too immature….the fact is I am very immature… immature enough to write this post….. but yet mature enough to write such a post…..you get it? Doesn't really matter does it…. -hung Im back ! ! ! and if you going to COMMENT... please leave good comment or none at all.. and if you're debating if its good or not... then dont post cause you're probably feel insecure about what you're writing therefore i dont even want to hear it -hung |
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February 23, 2004 |
| RAIN!!! The excitement of it all ! ! The fresh cold air…. So cold
that your hand is numb but that's not all…..it hits you in the face with
the cold mist of air causing you to squint your eyes…. For me?! I don't
have to squint…. If I do "squint" im practically closing my eyes…..HAVE
YOU EVER….sat out in the rain and have the rain pour all over you…
sitting on the wet ground but yet doesn't seem to care about anything….
Not bother at all by the rain but yet enjoy its presence…..just sitting
there….rain playing as the role of your tears….after a few mins you let
out a scream… one like no other… one in which hold all your
emotion….just out embracing itself with the sound of rain……what a nice
feeling it is…..after the screaming you just wish someone was there to
comfort you but yet no one is there…. now your butt is wetter than
ever…..you walk in and take a nice warm shower….. it feels great!!! Once
out of the shower you sit on your bed wrapped in blankets staring
outside the window, wondering where that special person is…..as for me…
I found my special person….but yet does she see the same…."So I Wait" |
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February 8, 2004 |
| Isnt having a brother great….. he's there to take you places….
Lecture you about life….. all he wants to do is make you a better person
correct…. Well that's what my brother taught me…. To be a better
person…. Now for the truth……I have brothers… 4 of them…. But im just
speaking upon the oldest one who suppose to be a model for the rest of
us….. he can get a job…. He can make money…. He can also get girls….
What a model don't chu think… that's just on the superficies of
things….. the truth is he can get a job indeed but maintaining one…. He
would always have an excuse for quitting…..he talks upon not degrading
himself for the job …well sometime you just have to put yourself down a
notch when you cant seem to have the right standard….. he quit chuck E.
cheese cause he didn't want to go in the suit…. Kinda stupid if you ask
me… and when he's jobless he still uses all his expense like normal…
like he have a stream of unlimited money flowing towards him…he can sure
make money… but making it from his job isn't the only thing… he also
borrow money from me…. As you can see im the youngest of the family, not
getting allowance nor do I have a job…. My only sources of money are
special occasion such as birthday Christmas Chinese new years….. I do
not mind lending him money… I don't at all… I would never say no when a
family member ask for money… so as part of the "family" I lend it to
him…. he owes me 450 dollars….it been 2 years coming towards 3 and I
still haven't got a penny of it back…. Sad don't chu think…. He suppose
to be a model and yet he borrow money from me and when I ask him for it,
he acts like he don't know… let me quote.. "I owe you money? Haha" not
in any sense do I find that funny…. He here lecturing me about my future
and what I should do better… while he cant seem to even live up to
regular standard…. You borrow money… you payback… that's what people do
….he came in my room the other day.. and saw the shoes I ordered off the
net… and he goes and says.. your shoes are ugly…. I don't talk to him
much and when I did he came in to insult my shoe…..does he even think
what he's doing…. He hardly talks to me and when he does he comes in and
insult my stuff… seriously… do I really care what he think… im kinda
glad he think its ugly… so he wont have to wear my shoe….i don't go him
and say your face is ugly… sometime it is necessary to insult things but
sometime its best if you don't have nothing good to say… not say
anything at all……to many people my brother may seem nice ….. yes, he
usually do pay for everyone he goes out with…. That's nice indeed but
using my money to do that… and not planning to pay me back….not so
nice…. |
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February 3, 2004 |
| sOoo I asked her today yes I did I asked..or did i I wonder if I
even asked. wait was I even awake. I must have been right. hrMmm I think
I did much more than ask but did she even answer. Did she? hrMmm how
things are going ... the rate may seem slow but its progress.. and
progress is good no matter if its slow or not.thats like saying saving a
penny each day. hey you're getting someone end of the year you'll have
3.65 cents& but crapo what if it's a leap year?!?!? orOoo haha =P anywho
back to what I was talking about.. yeah her and me I wonder if it'll
happen just waiting waiting. I wonder what to do. That nercous attack I
had today whoa that was harsh it seem that someone just poor coffee over
my heart giving it a great thrust of adrenaline running at an
outstanding speed causing me having the nercous attack well anywho vday
is coming soon wUuu isn't that a great day. the best day to get with
someone don't chu think. Give someone a cake with you' inside naked and
jumping out yelling surprise NO SICKO they wont see you naked because
all the crème should cover mostly everything unless well I let you think
of all the unless. Well that's it for today buh bai later -hung |
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January 30, 2004 |
| So what a day it was for January the 30th….it suppose to be a fun
great day just to hang out and "celebrate" friends birthday….How can
anything go wrong…. Its for friends birthday and only friends are
there….any grudges or anything would be held back cause HELLO its
friend's birthdays…well effin apparently we're stupid morons…. Yes we
are.. plain muthereffin morons…..there's so many flaws in this day……it
was just bad bad bad…and it was simple for all these flaws to be
avoided…. EASILY avoided…. If everyone just calm down and chill...People
getting mad, people crying, and people storming out angry on two friends
birthday celebration… ridiculous isn't it….i mean why cant people be a
bit more considerate….if you really considered "celebrating" the
birthdays of your friends… then effin go with their plans… on what they
want to do for the day…if not then don't come at all…if you effin stop
and think for a moment…look at your effin actions and see if its helping
the situation… then you would completely stop and do crap for the
day….as for me… I made the best of my day….i became a villain… battle it
off with spiderman….stuck in a tall buildings with spiderman under me
throwing his spider "web" at me…after that I fought of the KKK … well
the truth was I wanted to join side with them first but damn that KKK
boy wouldn't accept me so I had to fight him off……anywho out of all that
hard work…. I went eat and to end it off with a stroll at the beach to
clear things out….despite the morons… I think my day went pretty
well….everyone bound to have a bad day… and also the good days…. But its
up to limit how bad it gets….try to make the best of things….hey I could
have been out there screaming and cursing like a crazy lunatic…..and be
superb mad at the "morons" but eHhh why be mad and angry when I can have
fun being a villain fighting off spiderman… come to think of it…
spiderman attacked me for no apparent reason… I wasn't doing any crime…
I became a villain because the superhero spiderman went after me… and
all of a sudden im a villain…. DAMN YOU SPIDERMAN that's why Batman
rocks!! |
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January 29, 2004 | ||||||||||||||||||
wUu hOo im done with final....This is my prediction to all
my class grades
that sum up my whole semester for this year.... yeah i did really bad....
a lot are disappointed... i am myself.... i need to pull my act together....
i do all talk but do i ever actually do it?.... well lately i've let myself
down.... i also let many others down...... and my stupidity that im starting
to inhabit is killing my future..... --- well im the person who can
really careless about an education....our generation is much smarter
now..... the knowledge i have as of now is average for many adults......why
should i over achieve......many say over achieving give me better
future..... and as everyone know knowledge is power.....well to
me.....there's no guaranteed if i over achieve i would have a better
future....what if i die in the process..... what a waste.....working my
whole life...and now im dead x_X......but anywho that benefits for my
future.....what about the present......i mean with all the money you have in
future.... can it really buy your teenage year having fun in skewl....well
maybe it can with the way technology is improving so fast -.- =P........im
the person who likes to think about the present and a bit of the future... i
prefer not to think about the future because putting thoughts in something
so mysterious give you headache.... its like wondering how girls think.....
i mean oh boy how chaotic is that......you think you know a girl and BAM she
hits you with the harsh truth and all you have in your head is that she's on
her period.... but the truth is she's not... she's just a typical girl =P |
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January 25, 2004 |
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Here's my essay..... Sarah dont exist... she never did... well she does exist in my mind.....but not as sarah but that one girl =P i dont know who but she'll come along..... sorrie this essay was for my english class... i didnt want to refer to my computer as lucy... i dont want people to get confuse =P Rough Draft #1 It’s always difficult for a teenager, when it comes to decision making. What, when, how, why, where are always factors of a teenager in decision making. It is part of life and questioning is what we do. Choosing from what’s “right” and what’s “wrong” was always taught but as I have grown, I’ve question it and some rights are now wrongs and some wrongs are now rights. My decision making is evaluated from comparison of my likes, dislikes, and most importantly priorities. The decision on my girlfriend and my computer may not be the best but what’s done is done. The most extravagant girl came and apparently changed me. Sarah was her name and she was my first girlfriend who taught me about priorities. We would always spend endless hours with each other which distracted me from my daily life. She brought great joy but yet caused much cataclysm school wise as well as outside of school. She changed my life and gave me a different perception of matters around me. I spent an abundance amount of time alone which caused me to find a hobby which didn’t acquire help or another person. My answer was my computer and its various exquisite functions. Internet was an addition to my computer which made it even more flawless. Internet provided me with multi-player gaming and also gave me gateways which lead to sociability to make friends. This stupendous man-made machine helped me see the outside world without actually being outside. Sometime I wonder how intimidating it was to compete against a machine. How despising it was for Sarah being compared to my computer. Choosing between two of my beloved entity was tough but it had to be done. I chose my computer despite the many brusque insults that flies around. To many it may not be the best decision but to me it was, and that’s all that matters. Sarah took away most of my time and she had feelings. She could talk, smile, cry, etc. and as for my computer, it would always keep quiet. The repetitive nagging of Sarah and the various problems she caused in my life just wasn’t the equivalent of my computer up and down. Many people thought my decision making was truly wrong and that I am a horrible person. I come to think those people have fatuous mind. They couldn’t see my perception of things. Each time I wouldn’t talk to Sarah, she would be sad which made me felt bad to do anything else. If I left my computer and do something else, not a word and when I come back, it kindly greets me with a “Welcome”. It doesn’t hold grudges and make me pay later and that is why my computer stands superior in my decision making of girlfriend or my computer. If you really think i would pick my
computer over a girl..... than yur wrong.....my computer is great but i do
want to stay away from it... yet i have nothing better to do.... PLEASE
DONT LET THIS ESSAY DISCOURAGE YOU FROM HAVING SECOND THOUGHTS ABOUT "US"
=P... well thats it 99 people bye |
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January 19, 2004 |
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My Morning i woke up at 7 today... and decided to
watch cartoon..... there was crap on in the morning.... i miss the sagwa
(sp) show ..... the show with the cats and the emperor... that show
rocks ! ! ! anywho since i missed it there wasnt anything to
watch...so i was watching save by the bell on superstation for an hr....
then i watched mummie alive on channel 13.. oh yes mummies alive, i miss
that show... that show rock major socks! ! !... then i watched this
show on disney channel... i dont know what it is but i can describe it
=]..... its a boy name stanley and boy is that small fellow smart.... and
he has a cool pet goldfish that talks and have a cat and dog that
sings..... the cat and dog sing everytime stanley about to to look in the
great big book of everything... and did i mention he has a great big book
of everything =] it warp him into the book and experience climate or other
animals... what an adventurous show... i only watch a bit of it...... the
excitement got my blood pressure high so i had no choice but to stop
watching it x_X i was also taking care of my nephew thomas.... he didnt
CRY!!! oh yes =] but i prefer not to take care of him.... i was holding
him and he farted on me x_X i mean geesh excuse him -.- well thats it for
now...tune in next time for a day with hung with his crappy shows and
fart-noxious nephew...till next time...
hung |
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January 15, 2004 |
| i want to start things out with HAPPY
BIRTHDAY DANNY! and a quick note to him also... I CALL SHOTGUN ON DANNY's
CAR... SHOTGUN LOCK that means i get it for the rest of my time being!
! ! guess what guys... guess what i learned in alg2 today? i dont remember much but i remember hearing about the "4 whores" and also "100 butterflies" interesting dont chu think? ehh not really, i rather hear ms. lee talk about her crazy stories... with sound effect and hand on motions.... i choose that over learning anytime of the year.....i hope ms. lee teaches geometry also.. cause for those who doesnt know... i have to take geometry again! ! ! and if i was to take another math course over, i would love to spend more time with ms lee.... she can teach me everything she knows... forget my other periods... she can enlighten me about the world around us.... or the numerous, hilarious jokes there are........ if you had her class, you'll laugh till you cry...... after crying you'll probably laugh some more till you pee in your pants... sorrie pee is really bad manner..... "you'll probably laugh some more till you use the restroom in your pants"..... the wonderful things that ms. lee teaches me is endless -hung |
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January 13, 2004 |
| well sorrie for the other
post... from now on imma try not to curse anymore..... ehhh down with bad
language... anywho i was going to show ms. lee my blog but when i loaded
on skewl comp... it froze on me... but she got to see my banner.... and
look at my banner... she thought i was on some porn site haha.... thank
you lena again for the porno graphical banner -.- =P ... well today i got
home from practice like at.... 5 i think.... but i slept from then till
9pm.... wasted my whole day sleeping... but when i woke up i felt
great....i should sleep more often but guess what i got no hw done... and
most of you be like you dont do your homework anyways... but guess
what..... i do =P anywho.. its 11:38pm and no one to talk to .... so im
off to bed o.O
ever clear- she's so high -->
really great song.... title kinda funny.... well the truth is the song
isnt about a girl getting high.... well she's probably is cause why would
a guy look up to her so much... i mean whoa.... a girl that gets high...
"GUYS DREAM GIRL" well at least for some guys......wait.. probably for
only a fraction of guys... well i dont know... to me girls who gets
high.... are great girl pal but as for girlfriend.... haha go take a hike
=P i would you want a high girl.....thats like saying you like the
chemical that makes yur g/f not her, as herself.... no one likes a
smoker... do they? |
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January 12, 2004 |
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LUBRICANT? well a friend gave me condoms for my birthday and he put it in my backpack.... ehh its still in there.... well anywho alissa got a hold of one of it in 2nd period... and what a coincident we had a SUB today for 2nd period and so she opened it......then we sat there and imagine the many wonder of what makes the condom so lubricant.... BY THE WAY lubricated is to make something smooth or slippery basically.... so we sat there and wonder what it may be.... Alissa then came across and said... this condom is used.... alissa: hung likes use condoms and at this point i wondered how many people heard her... especially the sub...... so do you know what substance keep the condom lubricated.... alissa fail to read the condom... she was too amazed with it along with other trying to encourage her to blow it up as a balloon..... but she didnt and later found itself in the trashcan. a wasted condom... dont chu think... now whats going through my mind is that ... MAN that condom would have saved a hispanic teenage girl life..... WHY?! well when a "guy" get a
girl pregnant.... it sounds like its all the guy fault..... well
technically it is his fault... his generals came in and handle
their business..... but it was the girls fault too yanno... she's the one
who ...."didnt care"......i mean its the guy who ruin the girls life when
she's pregnant.. .never the other way around.. shOo.. but w/e -.-... ALSO
many talk about having sex without condom because its "better"..... and
the only way to prevent from pregnancy is pull out before "generals
attack" well come to think of it... if you're in that state of mind of
"making love" how many of you can think about "retreating" damn sex just
became a war zone dont chu think... but well enough about this matter... i
dont know much about sex... well i do haha but i dont want to state my
opinion because knowing about it and experience it is 2 different thing...
so i rather have let you guys listen to a "professional" and when i say
professional i dont mean prostitutes =P
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blog 10 mins after my previous blog |
| my attempt for forum fell... its fell
dramatically only having one person attending it.....and i would like to
thank you LENA.... i would also say thank you to dai for coming =] ... its
rare to have him over.. its more of an honor and he showed me all the cool
stuff which ease my day real well.... and when i left the FUCKEN key club
project he came along with me.. which was a great of a pal he was.....
then ferny came which was also a surplus.... i would really like to thank
them... i would also like to thank all the people for cleaning up my
room... mostly KIMMIE and then cathy lena and danny... and say sorrie for
the other members that stayed because i didnt really mean to leave
them......and i can pretty much say FUCK the project... cause it blows....
maybe for the pigs that jumped on the food might think it was great
((slobs)) but other then them.... it EFFIN SUCK!...
THIS NEXT SECTION is how i've been so fucken pissed
off lately.... well this is not directed towards anyone but just to let
people know how i am fucken piss off by things you do.... well first i
want to start out with...... 1) dont come to MY house in MY room, yelling
at ME to get off MY computer for YOU to do YOUR hw/notes.... i did not
open a party... i didnt want that many people to come but i dealt with the
situation they had... but do not COME TO MY HOUSE and tell me WHAT TO
DO..... especially get me off LUCY... and especially when im watching
something TO ME very interesting..... 2) well people have come to my house
often... and with numbers... when i asked for something CAN IT PLEASE be
done..... i dont want to be bossy i dont want to be mean.. but for the
time i do tell you to do something... WAIT I DONT EVEN TELL YOU TO DO
SOMETHING... i ask you to do it... FUCKEN DO IT... i mean damn it....
you're guest ..... i may be a bad host but you yourself isnt so much of a
good guest..... and this combination dont mix and one of us gotta go....
and its my house... you get the point.... 3) okay maybe you dont
listen to #2 but this kind of refer back to 1.... since you're not
listening to me... DONT FUCKEN BOTHER ME...... i do not want someone to
come to my house to bother me.... would you want me to come to your house
to bother you and annoy you? you can come to my house... hang out...
talk.... play games.... but you do not come to disturb me... talking and
play games and hang out dont disturb me... what disturb me .... DISTURB me
as in when im listening MP3 player and you take it away and unplug it...
or slap me because you're bored..... well heck if you bored.... get
out..... well i just had to let that all out... i am not pointing finger
cause its not only you.. everyone does it...so sorrie if i use you as an
example.. i remember things that happen recently..... i mean i try to be a
GOOD host and not yell at you..... not enforce anything... but you
guys.... i dont know.... its just FUCK DUDE .... sometime i want to kick
everyone out so i can get some piece of quiet.... i mean i love having you
guys over.. YOU GUYS ARE MY FRIENDS but i wonder do you guys even have the
least respect for me...... some of you guys come without invites....some
come without asking.... some come and disturb me... some come just for a
meet spot at my house... i mean i dont see what we can do at my house...
hang out and talk... thats all i see... and i think hanging out and talk
is great but do we even talk that much.... seriously now..... you
guys have private convo.... maybe today im just out of it... but this is
how i feel and imma blog it b4 i'll just forget it.... and you guys remind
me.....dont get me wrong... you guys are GREAT but im just asking to cut
me slack..... somedays i want to sleep afterskewl.... sometimes i want to
be alone... and if you say im always alone.... think to yourself and ask
how many times you guys came to my house in the past month.... how many
time i get yelled by my mom..... i guess its all adding up and i do
apologize if i say something wrong....
-hung |
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January 11, 2004 |
| well to me its a Saturday because its
barely 12:06 but its technically Sunday....well this blog right here going
to be very boring because its going to be about my day... MY DAY...
overall was pretty.... i would say crappy.....just pure crap... although
my day went well for the most part i think... but it usually end up on how
i feel at the end... and so its crappy.....well today i went to key club
project.... thinking that its a PARK CLEAN up..... but we ended up
elsewhere to help out which BY THE WAY we didnt help..... and for the key
clubber that think they help.... GO SUCK A COCK.....first i thought it
bother me that we're going to another project then the one i wanted to
attend....2nd.. we went to this crap that we did nothing.... and the bad
part is....they "didnt let us leave" okay well the key club officer said
you cant leave blah blah blah..... well so i stayed.....i stayed wait and
for every second i felt more aggravated cause i was not helping or doing
nothing... and i see the key clubber slobs eating, as they did nothing but
got food... i refuse to eat even though i was hungry.....i dont think i
deserve the food and im not going to freeload..... well the stupid
bullshit that i got at the end was..... "oh well you dont have to stay"
after making me wait for about 2 hours.... and the point where we "need"
people to help FINALLY.... they barely needed like what? 5
people?....yeah.. wonder how outrage i was.....but now i can leave....
they let me leave like 10 mins b4 the project end... which i had ask to
leave hours ago... and they say no you must stay.. and help later... WHICH
HELP TOOK 5 PEOPLE and in which took mins to do...... so therefore there
wasnt any help... so they made me fucken wait hrs for SHIET..... yeah im
very furious right now... if you make me stay make use of me.... if you
make me stay and then let me go 10 mins b4 the project end... my
last WORDS... FUCKEN BITCH... and you think i dont mean it? test me....if
you were in my fucken position wouldnt you fucken be piss? if im wrong
then i say sorrie... but thats how i'll speak and stand forth.... FUCKEN
BITCH!....wOotiE Me: did you guys clean up after we
leave? smilesonmaiface: umm smilesonmaiface: no we ate some mroe smilesonmaiface: then sat in the shade smilesonmaiface: and waited for smilesonmaiface: silivia to come back smilesonmaiface: to get us well you see this..... you would be furious also... wasting your fucken saturday sitting around doing shiet and supposely im helping the community...but instead the freaken member freeload you might say.....well i cant stress how piss i was.....well thats it for today.. im OUT! |
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January 9, 2004 |
| As you can see i added more feature
to my site.... im just making the most out of it....since alxnet only have
that much to offer....FORUM quiz survey guestbook... so here im taking
advantage =]....i dont know... my guestbook dont get that much post
anymore..... so im hoping forum might do something.... have a group
discussion.... and meet new people... although i might get jealous if one
of my friend really like another.... yeah right... be happy for them....
HA! or you can dreadfully hate them for forgetting about you... and dont
give that bullshit that they didnt forget about you because the fact is
they found someone new and im all alone....=P...
hoping for my forum to run successfully i encourage
people to write w/e in it.... i prefer not to have post about stupid
stupid comments where you can simply put in my guestbOok.... but if that
what motivates you to using my forum... so be
it... |
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Extra Post |
| we heard of the quote... what comes
up must come down.... it happen time by time... due to gravity or pure
stupidity, it happens..... i ran across a quote that says:
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January 7, 2004 |
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BAD LUCK well my day started like any other... crappy cold and very very tiring..... then you have to go to skewl... what a bitch dont chu think... but on the way to skewl i went by kelley house and what do you know.. she was walking out.... whoa i saw her 2 days in a row since skewl start.... tuesday which was yesterday where i ran into her because we were late... now i see her in the morning and what a surprise... we're not effin late! ! ! so walking with kelley to skewl was a plus even though i was freezing my ass off..... like usual when we enter skewl we go to senior square where all the crap kicks in..... so many people talking... i was just trying to keep quiet and keep my warmth ;].... well my whole day was just normal... nothing new.... but until i got home... what a bitch dont chu think... after a crappy ass day at skewl you go home to be locked out..... now what was even more a bitch was when i stupidly attempted to climb to my room... for those who doesnt know.. how house is 2 stories and my room is upstairs, that means it brings a bit difficulty......anywho to keep it short i fell attempting to climb... and it hurt so so bad =[.... then i was like screw it and off to my cousin's house... well enough of my crappy day now on to something else.... Okay lets just clear things up....im
running out of things to say..... yes indeed running out of things to blog
about.... i have EVERYTHING to blog about yet i have nothing...... lets
talk about an issue thats quite common.... the issue that everyone faces
and have dealt with... and if you havent.... goodjob..... well the issue
is running into something that was just a bitch you dont even know how to
describe it......something thats so god damn idiotically stupid that you
cant seem to make out to words..... something that was so god damn dumb
like a white blonde in a scary movie...... yes we know what it is.... well
i dont..... i told you im running out of things to say... just build
something in which i have no idea what to talk about..... tell me what to
post...... meaningful post please.... no request like.... why are you so
gay or anything =[ -hung |
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January 4, 2004 |
| The stupidity of life... and i dont
mean those idiotic friends of yours or those moron who sits around and do
drugs... o wait.. isnt that yur idiotic friends..... but anywho when i say
stupidity of life .... im talking about all the stupid things you've
done.....all the things you regret, all the things you missed......
regret= wish you havent done it..... missed= wish you were there......
well this happens a lot and there's a lot you cant do about it but move on
and just live with it..... well thats enough of bullshit for now..... the
things you think you can just live and be okay... well you're wrong...
there's something you cant just forget because it already happened....
even though it seem like you can do anything and probably you cant do
anything at all to help the situation but forgetting about it is not the
way out..... thats a loser way out..and are you a loser... (rhetorical
question).....well for me personally... i've done some things i wish i
havent done and there's are some things i wish i didnt miss out.... and
for years i chose to forget about it and act like it wasnt there..... and
live life to not make the same mistake again.... well the truth is ...
although i tried my best.... it is still there.....years after it hit me
and im still thinking about it... and im still stuck with what to
do....there are things you can do..... might not seem right but there's
something to do......so if it was to happened .... forget my suggestion
and forget about it and live coping on it....but yet live with it
straighten out.... you wonder how.... post it on guestbook... i'll get
back to you on it.......(this maybe a cheap way to get people to post but
it seem to be my last resort) |
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January 3, 2004 |
| okay i throw out my thanks to lena
for making that banner.... my mom been yelling at me the whole day.... i
wonder why doesnt her just let me be.... i mean i think she yells at me
for the wrong reasons... like cleaning up my room... my room dont look
good neat... i mean i love it when its messy... easier for everything....
to find stuff to live basically..... i mean why would i want everything
neat..... its just not me.. and why do i want something not me? ehhh... my
mom yells at me constantly... even in front of my friends but ehhh enough
of my life now to other business...
THE REASON I PICKED THE NAME ASHOKA.... well i do not know what ashoka mean.... i do not know what language its from.. i obviously dont know if its a real word.....i just like the sound of it.... i dont really know whats so great about it but to me its cool and thats all that matters.....the word alone is really great to me.. its weird.. well thats why its MY banner ;] i just caught myself saying it once.. didnt know where it came from o.O it just went out of my mouth and from there i liked the name.... it be superb weird if a girl named ashoka came around and caught my heart....that would be very great ;] but for now no more dreaming... on to other things.... I've notice that my guestbook is being less tagged
on....i guess my post been whack lately.. i think so also.... i think my
post getting boring and so it is.... but ehhh thats me for right now....im
out of things to say.... i think imma end it here... but soon after i'll
have something good for you guys to read.... just not right now
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January 2, 2004 |
| its awkward typing January instead of
December let alone typing 2004 ...im already complaining about the
littlest thing.... back to skewl so soon and hw is a bitch... i started a
lil but so not in the mood so im not going to do it till tmr.... im in a
really bad mood right now... guess not one is online to talk to me... to
cheer me up i guess.....god im really bored and hw is a headache and i
guess all this was leading to me in a bad rowdy mood.... but enough about
me now on to a different subject..... do you guys know what a thug
mean.....well most people think of thug as bad people..... as
gangster..... or perhaps as thief.... but it simply mean a tough
person.....cause upon a interview this lady asked 2pac why does he refer
to "thug" and he goes cause i grew up in the hood...so i guess i just
wanted to share that to you guys.... ;] now dont go using the word thug
wrong anymore.....
i talked to some college "kids" and they were like
its better to do things young..... they go on saying that its better
drinking underage and watching porn underage.... because since they can do
it legally its just too simple and plain..... so i told dai that and he
goes whats with teenager rebelling..... i reply it was a "rush" and he was
like is it like the rush when you dont flush the toilet after peeing ... i
found that funny so i just wanted to share it with you guys ;].... well i
do wonder why do kids rebel?... is it attention.... trying to be cool?
what is it... attention and being cool is part of it... but is there
another reason(s) ? well for me? when i do things that are
"rebellious" i do it cause i like to do it... its that simple...the things
i do just simply are rebellious.... not my fault... i think i would do it
either way....okay people knows i drink... no i dont drink to be cool or
drink to have attention.... i dont drink to be tough... i dont drink to be
superior... i drink for the hell of it.... cause i like it.... the reason
is... sometime its the tasting... sometime the effect it has on me....
making me more loose and FREE....i do it cause i like it... not because of
attention or being "cool".....thats why i dont smoke.... okay okay i
admit... i took a puff b4 but that was back in the days.... i mean you're
just curious.... 1 puff dont count... maybe to some jackass that just want
to get on yur ass about taking one puff but to me that didnt count... i
just wanted to try....(i was like 10 years old) i dont smoke because
it messes you up badly... and it dont smell good ... i did my fair share
of 2nd hand smoke...... so i really dislike smoking.....now to the last
but not least "porn".... ehhh porn is just crap... i think its crap....
its not a big thing..... i mean i dont mind if its there.... but i dont
work for it to be there..... i mean if i was taken to a strip club i would
be fine....if my friend wanted to watch porn im fine with it... but to me
porn is just w/e.... there are people who goes eWwww porn... and there's
other that get too over EXCITED for porn.... i mean its w/e.... why are
there so many commotions about it? i dont seem to get it... can you guys
tell me... whoa a picture of a vagina or penis..... i mean i guess its
their first time seeing it.... i got my fair share of sex education......i
mean what is the big deal....please tell me... why is it so eWww or simply
why is it so WHOA......if its there its there if not okay.... In skewl i
see guys in class looking at porn and they're like whoa... i mean they get
all jumpy and shiet.... and im like uhhh... okay... wth is wrong with
them... SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHATS THE BIG FUSS ABOUT PORN
-hung |
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January 1, 2004 |
| OBVIOUSLY imma start this off with a
HAPPY NEW YEARS.... new years resolution... i figure if i was to make
some.... the chances of me living up to it is slim to none.....and if i
see a post on my guestbook that encourage me to do so... saying that i can
do it and live up to the resolution then i suggest you cut it and not put
it =P.....well i spent the new years eve at david's spent a night
there.... statyed up till 7:30am and left around 9:30am ... 2 hrs of sleep
the whole day... freaken tired like hell but i dont want to go to sleep
because school is around the corner and if i was to waste a day
sleeping... i would be mad at myself so thats why im still up... crap i
still havent got any hw done.... gotta start tmr.... please start tmr damn
it... and another reminder dont post about hw on my guestbook... i stress
thinking about it so the last thing i need is a reminder
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On my Mind |
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well you know what i think is stupid? people with cool xanga! no dont get me wrong.. not all people with cool xanga is stupid... its the one that has nice xanga but hardly any post at all.... they're post be short and simple like pretty much saying nothing much.... i mean everybody can say nothing much but try to make it something... or at least express a thought beside oh "im bored" i mean i think its pure stupid that people spend our on new layout but cant put up a decent post..... really really stupid... but enough about me whining...back to you're about to do.... SIGN MY GUESTBOOK with THOUGHTS ..... and if you dont know what that means.... i suggest you pinching your own nipple till you figure it out ;] Ever did something that you regret so
much you wish you havent done it..... no i dont mean screw the cat and got
it pregnant (fernis) or had sex with a drag queen (Justin
Timberlake) i mean like when you lost a friend cause you did
something stupid..... and you just wish you hadnt done that stupid thing
but yet it already happened...... now you're in a state where you're sad
and also really piss about the situation or just piss at yourself.... well
doesnt that feeling suck......during time yur friend ignored you, you felt
that way.... it grew stronger and you felt really bad but it seem like you
cant do anything to change it..... sometime later you came up later and
you thought for awhile... the only thing you can do is TRY NOT TO LET IT
HAPPEN AGAIN...... and live life and try to adapt to that cold feeling you
have inside......yur friend finally forgives you and that feeling is gone
and you're all happy again.... although there's still that empty space
between you and your friend you're just REALLY glad that you got them
back... nothing matters... although things arent like before, you couldnt
ask for anything more than yur friend back on your side.... part of you is
scared too scared to try to be like b4 because you might fail... and if
failure wasnt a factor... if it was like b4 then you might make the
mistake again and you absolutely not want that feeling back.... so all
you're grateful for is your friend thats by your side or that prostitute
you paid for to give you that erotic sex to forget everything... hehe im
KIDDING -hung |
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December 30, 2003 |
| well well well wanna hear about my
day..... a day wasted skewl wise but life wise i think its well spent....
i hung out with chris and ferny today... then we went to gio's house
....and we played basketball.. not the BEST thing but its great playing
basketball and hanging out with old friends =] "Maury"--> well i watched maury today and what a great show dont chu think... but i have to say... parents that cant control their 10 year old child is oughtta be put in prison.....i mean how dumb/stupid/moronic/ etc can you be.... you cant control them because you have no discipline or any standard...my child is 10 and he's smoking/ drinking/ sexually active/ call me names/ getting suspended/ stealing/ physically abusive/ destroying things/ etc i mean damn it did you ever try smacking the fuck out of them.... if you dont believe in beating or spanking your child and your child gone wild then go hang yourself... thats at least you can do for such a STUPID PARENT.... hey i dont like it when my parents beat me but it discipline them and they know damn well i respect everyone of them....well enough posting for now dont want to get all angry and stuff and beside if i dont stop people online wont chat to me... so later |
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December 29, 2003 |
| well i got my first request from linda bout how babies
were made... uMmm how babies were made interesting....i mean we all know
how babies are made, you're just reading this for the sickening comments
imma say or shall i say write.....well you're wrong im not... imma tell
you how it is... might be boring but hey you're getting your money
worth... you're not paying so DONT COMPLAIN....--> babies are a gift
from God who dearly love us so much... okay i'll cut the bullshit...
babies are made when a fine ass girl jumps in my bed thats when they're
made damn it! ! ! to cut it short we all know how they're made so next
topic please..... or am i suppose to talk about the semen and the sperm
and how the egg is getting fertilized or should i step out a lil where the
penis enters the .. ahh you guys get the point.... well i was watching this movie call "hacker" quite an interesting movie i might say... too bad it was made back then......i mean this guy was getting major props for burning a cd (making a mix cd) i mean we do that for fun now a days... get with it man......anywho there's some mad hackers that can shut down big company you know.... i mean what sad to see was that the hacker in the movie typed at a rate of what? 25 words per minute? pretty upsetting if you see that to be done and to be known as a worldwide hacker... yanno... kinda slow ><' anywho despite the bad acting ... it was quite a good movie considering the plot and the crazy parties....nice story bad actors.. thats all =] well thats it for now later o.O-hung |
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December 29, 2003 |
| okay im running out of things to post about.... what else
is there for me to write about... well i had thoughts of things but then i
cant think of it now...its weird how things dont come up when you need it
the most... like when a doll talks and when you try to show your friends
it doesnt... and now your friends think you're crazy.....what do you GUYS
want me to comment about? have any suggestion? post it up on guestbook and
i'll get to it and here's a shout out to my WIFE KELLEY! ! ! |
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EXTRA POST |
| 2pac- changes ... indeed a great song... but made into
parody or should i say got jack by the "asian pride" presenting "got
rice" well i was listening to it... i like the song .... well i like
most song from tupac.... dai made me a cd contain all of tupac songs.....
well its 3 not 1 so yeah.... anywho i was listening in school since it was
a minimum day... and it was like nothing else to do... i came across the
song "changes" and the theme started to play and one of my fellow asian
say "oh no" thinking that im a fob or whatever..... i was like whatever
just ignoring him and going on... come to think of it isnt he the
inconsiderate not knowing asian pride stole that beat from 2pac in the
first place.....but ehhh i dont blame asians.... my parents are somewhat
inconsiderate racist yappidy yap but they're still my parents but i
expected the new generation to be more understand but hey the world isnt
perfect.... is that there's more people like them for people like me to
post about =] Sometime i wonder.... i am asian what am i to look or dress like..... i wonder sometimes...... i mean there's a lot of people say you're a fob... hey i get that a lot no worries.... fob and proud.. nothing wrong its true... but yet im angry upon the ignorant people that use fob totally wrong......well i shouldnt be complaining... categorizing is just part of life dont chu think... i mean if you see a guy with baggy pants big ass shirt 100 times bigger than he is and sagging ...... parents say its black clothes and some of us accept it as black clothes.... i mean hey i accept it as black clothes... its not like im being racist or anything its just how i think of things and its my thoughts and i think what i want until someone can convince me else wise.....anywho im just saying everyone does it... and people say i should change.... im not doing it cause everyone does it... everyone does it is just part of my excuse.... my real excuse is that im too lazy.... i mean instead of describing the saggy jeans large shirt chains i can just say mi den gear.... AKA black gear.... that simple... i mean im not a racist guy... just making things simpler for myself..... well you see i notice lots of people dress like "black" isnt that true.... and do you see something wrong about it? i mean i see nothing wrong.. you like to wear it fine.... you like to talk "black" its fine....act talk dress black its all fine with me.... but when i choose to be fobbish and dress with no gear... have the decency to......(drum roll) yes thats right STFU.... that simple dont chu think? now for people out there that talks about other dressing and what they wear.... STFU cause look at what chu wearing.. not so perfect yourself and if you possibly are perfect and is a single girl that ages around 14-16 hit me up. =] -hung |
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December 28, 2003 |
| okay... i posted 3 times on christmas.... i must've been
really bored dont chu think? anywho what to talk about this
time.....timmy posted "wassup"... should i be happy he posted or should i
be furious on how i told not to do that.... i mean look at my latest
post....HERE's A REMINDER ! ! ! i mean damn it its right there..... i
quote "for the poeple who careless to read what i blog then i prefer you
not signing my guestbook" and he goes and post wassup.....i mean he
would know whats up if he freaken read my post.... he would also
known not to post it.......kind of easy to tell who doesnt read my post
huh? i know a lot of people that doesnt read it and i guess im fine with
it... but god damn it have the decency to freaken read the
"guestbook/chatterbox" i mean damn it thats at least you can
do....... NOW on to new business......you guys have seen my info... and it says i need a g/f..... quite frankly do i really need one? or have i already got one... or have i got one in mind but now quite there yet... well i must say....who to go out with? someone you like, adore, love? and most would say love because it seem to sum it all up doesnt it? but wth is love? haha many teenagers ask themselves that and sometime "adults" notice the quotes on adults... its not that im putting them down.... is that if an adult still think about it..... i think they must get out of the wonder world.... TEENAGER ONLY and sometime STUPID KID.... but stupid kid are teenager so its all coolio... but anywho what is love? is it something sacred or is it just a word to win people hearts...... ehhh i love this i love that blah blah blah.... stupid is how i sum that up....well how am i going to know who should i go out with if i dont know what love is..... some might say go with the one i like best.... well the one i like best doesnt necessarily means the one thats right for me... does it? ehhh she might have big boobs and firm ass and boy does she has looks...... i said BOOOYYYY does she has looks. NOT!!! she has looks like a boy...... you guys ever read those love quotes? i find some quite funny stupid and deep.... deep in a way that is blinding and stupid..... you guys know what i mean right... and if you do! HA! i dont know what i mean so wth are you talking about =P so i figure... you go out with the one you think most about..... it may be that week or month you sprung on the person but hey you never know so you must take risk... life is all about taking risk right ? and when i say take risk... dont go out there and have sex without a condom now! ! ! thats too much of a risk ;] but anywho im always going off topic....here how i came up about who to go out with... or at least want to go out with..... see a guy like myself may give other that i been screwing around a lot... well i might have... and when i say screwing around a lot i mean flirting NOT fucking you perverts! ! ! i mean it may seem that i have 100 and 1000 of g/fs... or maybe 5 or 7 =P but whatever the number may be... the real number was only 3.... yes 3 official official g/f.... notice i put official official .... there's g/f that are like not official or announce you might say... there's official that you considered g/f... and there's official official where the routine is being played... ask them to be yur g/f they say yes blah blah blah you guys get my msg.... anywho where the hell im getting? shit i totally forgot... i took a wide turn and now im lost ><''....well i guess what im trying to say is... im a big flirt... wth thats not what i started out with did i? oh yeah i remember now to find the right one am i correct? or is it who to go out with.. same crap dont chu think.... WELL ANYWHO the right one for is, is the one you think a lot about.....how she's doing? what she's doing? is she happy is she sad.... you miss her when you dont see her... you miss her when you dont talk to her... someone who's not there and makes you feel that you're missing a piece.....i mean you may feel it for only a week or a month but once you feel it... you should go for it..... i mean love dont come out of no where... well at least i dont think so... i think love build up and what i just say is the start of it i guess.... so if you feel like that about someone i say you go for it... unless you already have a g/f or b/f then uMmmm lets hope they never meet =] well thats it for now -hung |
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B4 CHRISTMAS END |
| HERE'S A REMINDER ! ! ! well this going to be like my chatterbox... i do read this thing
often and often reply to it also... so yeah....and for the people who
careless to read what i blog then i prefer you not signing my
guestbook...i mean anyone can put out a few seconds to sign my guestbook
but can you put out more time to hear me out? thats all thank you for
people who have commented bye well well well its 11:23pm and uMm i guess i'll post b4 christmas
end..... well today i went to cathy house.... dai was there ferny also and
lena..... of course cathy was there... thanks for mommy(cathy's mom) for
food ... oh god i didnt starve on christmas YAYIE!! well anywho back to an
issue i been thinking about..... yes my hello kitty problem... yes i do
have hello kitty stuff..... is there something wrong.. first thought in
people mine "omg he's gay" and when i hear that first thought on my mind
"argg another ignorant person" .... i mean what if i have hello kitty
stuff does that represent im gay? i mean some girls have mustache doesnt
represent that they're a man... hehe j/k... well anywho as i was
saying..... i am not gay just to set that straight but if you want to
think that way... hey its yur thought.....i like hello kitty... it looks
nice and i mean what else am i to support? tupac? have tupac bed
spread? and clock and alarm..... i mean no offense tupac, i do not want to
stare at you... i mean it just doesnt look right.... as for hello it set a
jolly mood and yes it brings me lots of attention.. i crave for it i
guess....or maybe i just want to see how many ignorant people there
are.....whatever the reason is... i have hello kitty and thats a
fact.....i guess im sick and tired of people calling me gay.... or just
give me those awful comments? im just tired of it i guess and hear this
post is trying to shut those people up.....kinda sad how my brothers and
my mom think that im gay cause i have such items..... they should know me
well enough but ehh i dont blame them.. we dont have the best family
relationship.......if you can name good reason that hello kitty is gay...
then i'll accept it and admit that its my fault and i deserve to hear such
rude comments..... |
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EXTRA POST (1 hr after the previous) |
| the truth hurts dont chu think....how you give the truth
to someone and they get all offended and hurt..... i mean ever trying to
take it as a good thing that people are telling your flaws so you can
fix....i mean you think "yeah it depends how they put it" i mean yeah i
guess it does but now im telling you it doesnt... try to surpass the way
the person put it but understand the actual quality of what its trying to
say.....i mean no one of us took class on how to say things the "correct
way" and i mean its sometime common sense but sometime thats how the
person is... i mean yes i criticize a lot..... well if you ask me thats
how i like putting it to people..... especially when im mad or not in the
mood....if im in a good mood or just simply not in a bad mood i would just
say try harder... practice or something... but if im in a bad mood... face
it you suck.... when i say try harder and stuff they dont seem to accept
the msg to their head... they simply just dont understand... and when i
say they suck they still doesnt understand but just simply think im
yelling at them... well when i say you suck i want to tell you to know
that you're doing poorly and hoping you would improve and not like "cry"
about it..... and crying dont get you no where but hey face it crying does
help some people.... it help "them" but doesnt seem to help anything
else.....i mean i dont like crying... and i dont like to see people
cry.... it always been that way and i think it always will be.....now im
getting off topic again.. back to how the truth hurts people..... i
mean you shouldnt let it hurt you but think of it as a sign that help you
to improve your life..... especially the truth on things like writing,
games, sports blah blah blah...you suppose to take it as a sign to improve
so you be better... but some stuff you cant improve and be better... like
how you look.... i mean the truth of that is uncalled for.....for people
who's thinking of plastic surgery ... stop being jackasses ><'' and
people thinking wahh? jackasses? well yur the jackass PERIOD... but back
to what im talking about... i mean the truth about someone looks.. if its
bad... STFU... its that simple....i mean i hate the truth also... how
people say i expect too much from my g/f... well i really hate to hear
that.. i mean i dont think so at all.... but hey i dont take it like oh
man im the worst b/f alive..i know im suppose to now dont expect so much
from my g/f but since i dont think i expect much from them i think the
people who told me that is full of BS..... are you guys still with me or
are you lost? if you're lost then hey what more can i do....this is how i
put things.... and if you understand me.. haha you're weird =P . . .
here's a saying... dont say anything if you dont have anything good to
say.... well thats sometime true but part of it is BS.... i mean sometime
you just really annoy and be like fuck it imma just tell the truth even
though its so bluntly rude.....i mean like someone sucking at games.....
they complain like how they suck and stuff.... i mean you just get tired
of that dont chu think? i mean you know why you suck.... its that
you're not dedicated......i mean i spend a lot of time on video games
getting good at it and people who just begin and keep on saying that they
suck... STFU.... i mean you cant get any good keep saying that.... and the
reason you cant beat me because im spending more time playing it, or im
more concentrated or im just simply better... but simply better... i
highly doubt.....if you're playing games and chatting at the same time or
distracted from your game... then you're not getting any better... you
rather not play cause you're not concentrated.....PEOPLE who thinks that
people like me who play games that have no life... hey look at
yourself.... stop talking about people... i mean you find things you like
i find things i like so fuck off.... i mean you complain that im a lowlife
and that all i do is play games..... well you dont see me complaining that
you're a bitch and all you do is complain about me being a "lowlife" well
spending hours on video games to me is not even being a lowlife... i love
playing games and i love to do the things i do.... i mean you wouldnt call
a guy who dream is to become a pro basketball player playing basketball
for hrs a lowlife then why the hell you call me a lowlife when i love
playing games for hrs.....people who thinks so of me that im a lowlife and
all i do is game.... well i'll just sigh and have nothing more to say... i
mean excuse my language on calling you a "bitch" and everything but sigh
my anger takes over at times..... well here imma end it like this....think
before making a strong statement about something..... i mean i have
problem doing it myself... hey never why am i telling you guys what to do
if i cant do it myself haha =P.... hope you guys know what im trying to
say and keep what i say in mind.... its easy to read.... its good to
remember.... its great to understand =]
---hung |
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December 25, 2003 |
| well its like 12:30am and yayie CHRISTMAS... but
why did i say yayie... i mean i dont really mean it... nothing new....
just felt like typing it i guess... or maybe its just typical of me to do
so....lets see whats so cool about christmas..... its sure isnt the
spending time with family cause damn sure my family doesnt spend time with
each other..... its probably just receiving new things....yeah thats
probably what....its wrong to think that but its true dont chu think.....i
mean screw the holiday spirit blah blah blah... it all come down to the
gifts...... i mean its the holiday and crap and you here stressing out who
to get gift too and plus your finance problems.... i mean you want to get
gift to people who's getting gift to you but god damn you dont know
who...... and its easy for most people to say... get gift to yur close
friends..... damn it who is really your close friends...either that or you
have too many.... and you feel awfully bad receiving present from someone
and you didnt get anything for them... i mean i guess its only me...i mean
there's always those other people who just love receiving and not
giving... im more of a fair person... im not saying that people who love
receiving and not giving is wrong..... im just saying that its not me and
that ... hey who am i kidding... they're freaken wrong... hehe j/k =P for
whatever excuse they have for not getting the person back a present is
perfectly fine..... i mean people give me stuff and i dont get anything
back sometimes... i mean first... i didnt know it was coming... second...
im probably broke like a bitch... why do i use that simile ... i mean are
bitches really broke? let me rephrase... im broke like a broke asian
boy... there you go... sounds much better now dont chu think? now im just
clueless on what im talking about anymore o.O well the 24th i spent the whole day at home.... friends came over... DAVID CATHY FERNY DANNY LENA and i think thats it.... they came over and we just hang out... nothing much... watch some movies thats all..... im trying to keep it brief because if i was gonna go to detail... oh god i sound like a pornographic reporter.. ahem danny and _ _ _ _ damn i kinda gave it away didnt I? i mean out of the people i named only 1 have 4 letters in their name... ahem... but anywho moving on.... damn im lost again dont know what im talking anymore o.O oh yeah i think i was talking about the holidays...... well you're suppose to be in the spirit and stuff... but man sometime you cant... you just get mad or feel bad on things that happened... like i feel bad not getting some ppl present... and when they say its okay.... thats suicide... you know they're not okay... shiet.... thats like saying..... i dont want brand new cool stuff especially from you cause it doesnt matter... unless they're the person that say "oh just having you as a friend is good enough" well when i say that i mean it but for some... OH PLEASE STOP LYING TO YOURSELF..... you rather get a present.... for me i rather not get present from friends..... had my fair share of expecting things... now when christmas come i look forward from my family... the things i get from them =] its cool being the youngest but i feel bad that i cant get them something.....i mean for christmas they give me money and i spend it on my friends... NEXT YEAR im hoping to get them something.... i mean what can i possibly get them... and if you people are thinking about ... just make them a card... its the hearts that counts... hey maybe work for your family but we're talking about mine here so no more BS =P well new years is around the corner and my resolution is ...... ehhh too tired.. maybe tell you guys later.... i mean i dont want to say it and cant do it again.. happen every year.... and for the smartasses that think... for your new year resolution you should put.... "stick to new year resolution" i dont see how that can possibly work if i dont follow it in the first place =P and if i was to follow it then why would that be 1 of it since im doing it anyways.... o.O anywho thats enough for now... MERRY CHRISTMAS HAPPY HOLIDAY =] -hung |
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December 23, 2003 |
| Its 11:08pm and damn i have no
life... i did nothing the whole day... i bought the family guy volume 2 (3
disk) and i barely finish with the first disk i think.... its funny but i
was bored after awhile... no one to watch it with.. all alone... ehhh...
christmas is around the corner and damn it i feel lonely.... no one chat
online.... no one play games with... no one watch television with.....
what is there for me to do?....well you all should know that i been
playing the game "gunbound" lately.....im tired of that game now..... i
mean it doesnt entertain me like before... i use to play it to earn pts to
get good items and kick ass basically... but now that i got the items....
there's no point playing.....i mean i dont need the pts anymore cause i
got all the good items..... am i suppose to earn to get the bad items?
useless dont chu think.. and so my last source of game is gone.... what am
i to do now... i suck at Starcraft now but when i say suck i mean i can
still kick most people on battlenet ass but yet again i struggle....
struggling against ppl who play public is a .... DISGRACE ><;;
CS gives me a headache... i dont bother playing that crap.... beside when
you play you dont alt tab on that game so i dont know who's online... my
sense of curiosity conquers all..... I wouldnt say my room is clean.. but ehhh its not as dirty as before o.O ....i can hear my mom yelling at my brother riote now... about buying things on christmas.. blah blah blah.... for once you wish to have a quiet night without her telling you want to do -.- i wonder what imma do for christmas? go visit my dad? but i dont think i can cause there's only 3 visitors.... crappers.. i mean i dont want to go and say nothing.. i rather have my sister go.. i mean she'll appreciate it more than waste a visit on me... yanno...oh yea sorrie about my last post.... you know how i get stupid at times o.O but anywho imma go later >< |
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December 22, 2003 |
|
I SPEAK The problems i have is weird... yes
weird... weird is what i use when i simply dont understand.....or should i
say confuse.....weird and confuse is use when you just dont understand
correct? or maybe you're just to god damn lazy to find out the truth... or
stubborn and stupid to accept it....what is this blog about? i do not know
but this is my psycho mind taking me for a ride....what turns out is im
just STUPID! and dont say im not cause i am... we're all
stupid...may not accept it but hey you are..... may without a doubt accept
it than there's another reason you're so god damn stupid.....im not
writing this to offend anyone but to say what i think and complain upon
how stupid i am.....im so stupid that i know im doing the stupidest thing
but not change it... i'll just continue to do that stupid thing.... and
yes you may say "no you're not stupid... you're lazy" well the fact is...
im STUPID! thats pure stupidity dont chu think... walking into a trap
thats right in front of you and you damn well know its
there..... |
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December 21, 2003 |
| okay its 6:20, and my kick back was
yesterday... how did i turn out .... hrMmm... it was great i guess.... i
mean no one got hurt... wait joline was on a rampage... i'll take that
back.. ppl got hurt but still yet it was great.....i would like to THANK
EVERYONE for coming.. and would like to specially like to thank linda and
dai... although they had a busy schedule, they still dropped by =] .. that
meant a lot... joline and christine came also... it was great... and it
was like whoa... they CAME!! im very amazed......CHRISTINE IS A HELLO
KITTY LOVER!! ME TOO!! KICK ASS OH YES!! ^.^ the kick back was okay
dont chu think..... i mean no one died.... it was horrible afterward when
everyone left.... i was yelled out for like EVER ><''... and it was
weird.. my mom find the craziest things to yell upon... SHAVE YOUR
MUSTACHE... CLEAN YOUR ROOM! why were people at our house!! blah blah
blah... its like mom BE QUIET GO TO YOUR ROOM i wish i can say that.. shOo
o.O.... shy girls are whoa.. shy for a moment... wild for another... then
back to normal form... its like i gave them drugs or put something in
their drink.. whoaNess.... well blogging is getting boring i dont know if
ppl even read this crap... POST COMMENTS DAMN IT...and thank you for the
people that have....and thanks dai for fixing up my blogs
=] |
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December 18, 2003 |
| It's 12:10 midnight and yayie its my birthday... but what
to be so happy and golly about? i do not know.. i can careless if its my
birthday or not.. but yet im 16 and finally i get to apply for job....
anywho it been awhile since i date.... its not that i dont have things to
say.... its just its just plain crap... people do get tired of me whining
dont they? well at least i get tired of hearing myself whine so i havent
been posting.... im having a kick back but yet not many people is
coming... sad isnt it? ehhh its not really sad... look at the bright
side.. there's PEOPLE thats going to be there!! =] damn its late.. i
want to go sleep.... long day tmr i hope? i have to do AP world hw and
also study for math.. those are my 2 priority but first sleep
=] |
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December 11, 2003 |
| Well well well so much have happened.... sorrie about my
last blog... it was out of no where.... i just miss my friend thats all
--"... anywho i notice that im quite an awkward person.... im cross
between hello kitty and tupac .... i mean you never see those two mix
haha. well hey thats what makes me unique dont chu think? anywho im
having a birthday KICK BACK!! no not PARTY! i would like to call it kick
back.. when i say party.. everyone thinks of getting drunk loud music
dancing la la la... well the truth is.... its just a kick back....
friendly kick back... thats all =]....well THE KICK BACK IS ON THE 20th! !
! at my house .. hope to see you there.....i've notice something..i cant
find any of my tupac Cd's --" wonder where it all went... so yeah i have
to go buy them again... hope i can find all of it =] but first i
need to go x-mas shopping for gift exchange then see if i have money
left for myself to get my cd's and hello kitty apparel. well im off doing
hw bye |
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December 10, 2003 |
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http://www.oocities.org/wootieme/s.jpg
This was my pet/friend.... i gave her to tony because he needed her for
some apparent reason... i think he gave her to calvin to give her to a
girl's birthday. I named it Kitty... it was a nice kitty... cries
when i dont play with her.... i spent most of my time with her because she
was 2weeks old, so she needs a lot of care.... I think kitty made me like
hello kitty =] dont chu think my kitty is pretty? wonder how she's doing
now? She should be grown by now.... It been like month since i've seen
her.... i kinda miss her.... she was something i can care for and i was
something she needs... what a great feeling when someone needs your
love.....tragedy that she's now away ><' |
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December 8, 2003 |
| Its 1:30pm and its a monday!! arggg everyone knows monday
is a tired, crappy day.. i mean err skewl start....and end of weekend but
hey guess what im at home... so its all coolio... imma go back to skewl
for japanese club meeting ... argg so boring hehe =P
so hrMmm what to do... i had a great talk to JenLuu yesterday.. it was
like wowzer ... havent talked to her like that in awhile..... well i
thought about just yanno.... take a break from g/f's stuff business and
get back on track with skewl.....but uMmm i really thought about it and i
was gonna but yet i still want to give something(someone) 1 try b4 i hit
that road.....so yeah....we'll see what happened...but for now im starving
so imma go eat....later |
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December 7, 2003 |
| well its 12:47am and i want to start my blog out by
saying happy birthday to my cousin billy. Have a great a birthday
and a year older ehh... you know what that means...... a year closer to
strip club ;] hehe j/k well have a nice bday! ! ! I WANT TO ADD ONE
MORE THING!! SIGN GUESTBOOK PLEASE!!!
It been awhile since i blog as you can see....It been like a week and i have lots to say yet dont know how to say....well at least i DIDNT know how to say it...... but i've been thinking things over and i've came to make out the things to say.....It may not be important, it may not interest you at all but the fact is i've wasted 7 minutes of your life.....Im just trying to say that i been wasting people precious time for the past years....... Many things have happened... i've wasted my time and i also have wasted others......i've tried to change but my will to change isnt strong enough.... so here i confess my stupidity to the world......people have said that im a "smart" person but the truth is im not...... a smart person wouldnt put themselves in this situation.... a smart person wouldnt be so god damn lazy and ruin their future... a smart person would cherish what they have but as for me i have to admit... im one dumb motherfucker.... and yes i've said it... a dumb motherfucker.....but who among you can say that you're truly smart?.... (none of you guys) Here's a tip... if you were smart you wouldnt be reading this... having me wasting your time.... Well we should all know me and linh arent together anymore..... each time i talk about this publicly, i dont want to put much detail in it, or how i really thought of the whole ordeal.... the truth is... she broke up with me.... and the reason why..... HA! this varies so much, i dont even know what to say....Im a bad person and she found out about it ><..... thats not really explaining myself huh?!?! well she said it was too stressful, i was inconsiderate, always thinking about myself, i wanted to mold her to my satisfaction.....sad isnt it?!?!... overall my response to this is FUCKEN BULLSHIT! ! ! people told me she still likes me.......i rather have her dislike me or hate me... that would give me a reason not to care and just move on.... but here people telling me that she likes me.....now im more in a situation oh crap this is all my fault.... well lets get back to my overall response....FUCKEN BULLSHIT! ! !.... well as you can see, now she doesnt like me.... or so she say... well at least not in that way i guess......let me explain what i mean by fucken bullshit how i been using it in this passage..... in other words i think she dont know what she wants.....maybe she's a lil immature.....also it maybe the fact that she just spurt out things that she didnt really mean.....anywho to conclude FUCKEN BULLSHIT..... but lets get the fact straight... this was weeks? ago but i just wanted to tell how i thought about things.. i mean it is my blog... that is what im suppose to do... express my thoughts =] Now on to what happened on friday.... yes yes friday the 5th.......what a bad day that was....i found out that i moved up about 15% in my math course (alg2) and guess what grade i have? D ... yes thats riote!! 15% and i got a D.. now that just show how dumb i am.... no it doesnt show that i can get a good grade if i tried..... cause what the heck i was trying since the beginning of the year... so people.... PLEASE DONT CUT ME ANY SLACK.... and this is mostly implied to DAI... he gives me no slack anyways and i thank him ^.^ but for the rest of the people i talk to... i REALLY DONT prefer talking about SKEWL!!!.....well ice skating was today for VAHSA and apparently i didnt go...I would've love to go but there are things that kept me from doing so.....1st i was having a crappy week... really didnt want to spend that much more time with leuzinger people....or should i say spend the time with people i see the most.....dont take that as a wrong way... its that i get irritated seeing some things... but i dont want to mention it.... 2nd i told david once he gets his license and insurance... we're gonna go out...i told him ahead of time b4 ice skating plan so what goes first goes first yanno... 3rd ... i think ice skating is a hassle..although i know there's going to be hott chick in the cold condition for me to hover upon but my overall thought of ice skating is paying 7-8 dollars... get a ride from an "unsure" person..... cause i was god damn clueless who im getting a ride from.....and somewhat i still feel this thing upon me and linh..... and i dont know what it is but its something..... quite BULLSHIT i'll tell you....... i wont say i still like her.. cause as of now.. if i had a chance to get back... i would have to say no.....its just the image of what she did b4 and insecurity of what she'll do again..... im not scared but more of shocked and ashamed.....its just a weird feeling that i have.... but hey it'll soon to end..... DAMN i notice this is quite a long blog and im probably out of my mind
right now.....its now 1:17am and im on my computer writing is blog with no
other source of light but the light thats coming from my monitor.....im
probably crazy... my eyes probably hurting like hell.... but the truth
is... this came from my thoughts..... deep somewhere in there i think to
do so but now only have the delirious mind-being is letting me express
it....well im going to end it here.. there's more i can say.. but yet my
blogging is too long for today so till next
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November 30, 2003 |
| its 6:19 pm and i decided to blog ....so many things had
happen, but what is there to say ><' . . . Life is difficult if you
make it out to be.. Life is easy if you make that out to be.... so why am
i making my life so difficult.... i came up with one explanation... I am a
moron.... I dont make the smartest choice, in fact i make the stupidest
choice... but i guess if you do something stupid... fix it... and thats
what i am doing.. Fixing is difficult, long and some what stressful.....
fixing is hard because your mind is not set to it......fixing is long
because i made it long .. its stressful because YES AGAIN my DUMBASS
fault.... but things going by i presume.....
So yeah yesterday was Saturday... i talked to joline on the phone... it
was... hrMm how should i put this... it was "okay" i might say.... could
be better but hey everything could be better =] . . . today ... like any
other day i argued with linh.. not very surprising....but yeah .....so i
wait till dai to get back from where ever he is......what a day im
having.. well im too bleh to write things in detail... well i would but
what to say? spit out all my anger...Nahhh..
later.... |
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November 28, 2003 |
| 6:18 pm and i just have gotten home from the mall for the
second time. Yes that's riote the 2nd time! ! ! i went to the
mall in da morning at 6am with my bro his g/f and my sister... it was
quite painful... yes indeed =]. . . yeah you heard it! ! PAINFUL!!!!!
women are so laggy when it comes to shopping.....and god the line is
superb long .. . . crappers ><... well it wasnt all that
bad i bought some stuff =D... i bought PJ's and Boxers! ! ! yes i went to
the mall 6am in da morning till like 9:30 just for boxer and PJ's that i
can buy any other day ^.^ well the 2nd i went to the mall was to watch a movie.... the movie was "good" i suppose.... i wasnt really watching it considering i was uMmm pre occupied... and no it wasnt with someone... it was just some thoughts i was thinking of the time.....the movie coulda have been better if things were altered a lil but hey things dont go how it is planned....AFTER the movie it was ehhh... i wasnt feeling so good, i mean sitting for about 2 hrs thinking and just wasted $7.50 on something my mind wasnt quite set on... you wouldnt feel good also..... DESPITE all that my day ended great.... Her laughter is what set me towards feeling better i suppose =]. . .THANK YOU LANTHI AND LINDA for the EARLY BIRTHDAY CARD =D.... It's barely Nov. 28th and i already get a birthday card =D.....It's a really cool card... With lots of writing... i NEVER enjoyed reading like this ..... The card also have contraptions to play with.... its so WHOA! ! ! i mean A+ card wUu hOo......THANK YOU GIRLS! ! ! (NON SEXUALLY) You know it's love when you know there's something you cant live
without.... or should i say SOMEONE.... nahhhhh its something because you
sure cant live without food...... so for damn sure you know i love food
=D... speaking of food damn im starving o.O well thats it later guys and
THANK YOU AGAIN GIRLS! ! ! THANK YOU LINDA AND
LANTHI |
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November 26, 2003 |
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It's midnight and I'm getting the hang of this blogging
using geocities. ALL THANKS TO DAI! ! !
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November 25, 2003 |
| So i officially moved here for my blogging.... xanga just piss the
hell out of me! ! ! i CANT stand that piece of RAWRRR! ! !..... i wrote 4
long detail paragraph and when i submit it says bug which seem to not
enter in my entry and it expect me to write it all over again.. and you
know whats my response to it..... you see my hand... and the finger thats
in the middle of it all... YES OBVIOUSLY THE FUKEN MIDDLE FINGER ! ! !
anywho this is my blog spot.....later -hungie currently ANGRY!
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