| Clifton Joseph Bergeron Ada Agnes Pitre Bergeron Mason Born 02/11/1916 Born 06/04/1920 Passed 06/03/1983 Passed 01/29/1999 Age: 69 Age: 79 It is hard to believe that it will have been 20 years come June since you've been away grandpa ... and January made 4 years for you grandma. Still the pain clutches me as though only moments have passed. My heart is heavy. I do not know how to grieve and let go. Tears come until my body is wracked and I am broken. Perhaps so long a time of mourning is not considered appropriate by this world but I do not measure my feelings by their standards. They did not know your worth and have no right to cast stones. I find little comfort in the memories I cherish. How I wish I could hold you close to me and hear you breathe. Feel your hands in my hair ... my head in your lap. Sit on the porch swing to commune with the heavens when the stars settle in. Hear your laughter as we joke and eat parched peanuts at midnight. Feel the dough squish between our fingers as we make bread together. Weed the garden. Go for rootbeer floats. Dance in the living room just because. Hear you tease and woo one another in our native tongue. Witness your undying love for one another in each movement and reconfirmed in every decision. I would bleed my body dry if I could have that just once more. Sometimes I can still smell pink roses, cigars and fried chicken. I see your shadowplay in the corner of my eyes. Feel your presence near. Your smile flashes. You have not forsaken me but life is so different now. I did not want you to suffer, but in my humanity, I am angry because you left. I wanted to give back some of what you gave to me and you went away before I had the chance. I was not finished learning but you were finished teaching. And I wonder if I listened well enough. Save a hug for me, for when it becomes my new adventure, I will be looking for you near the saxophones and old George Jones ... I love you ... |
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| ~ Wayz ~ 05/24/03 ~ ~ Revised 12/18/03 ~ |
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| Grateful Acknowledgement: Song is I Can't Cry Hard Enough By Susan Ashton |