all of the fear and all of the lies

chapter eight

The next day came and she never rang Angela to see what happened or to see whether she did stay the night or whether she went home, or if Mark and Nicky talked sense into her. Shelley never rang Mark either. In the taxi that night she'd realised that it takes something like that to happen to put your priorities in order. She realised that Angela was far more important to her than Bryan was, and it was Angela's outspoken flirty and outrageous personality than had made them friends. Shelley also realised that she wouldn't have been happy even if she'd been the one that Bryan wanted. But she was just too stubborn and jealous to admit it to Angela. Shelley and Bryan were just too different. The more she thought about it the more she admitted to herself that it was Mark who she had wanted. She told herself that even if anything had happened between her and Mark it wouldn't have worked. The pop star and fan scenario could never work. For two weeks after that Angela wasn't in school. Shelley didn't hear from her. Angela didn't contact her. Shelley was too embarrassed to ring, she knew she'd been selfish. Infact, The only time Angela was really in school was for her G.C.S.E's and she never spoke to Shelley then. Infact they never really spoke again. Not to say Shelley never saw Angela again. She saw her plenty. In the newspapers, in Magazines. Just two months after that one night Bryan was telling the world about how much he was in love with this mystery girl who had appeared from nowhere. The story of the blagging herself into the bar was well known by now. But Shelley was never mentioned. Angela became somewhat of a celebrity herself. Not a day went by that Shelley didn't regret what she did and how she'd misjudged Bryan. He'd had been with Lynda up until then but had finished with her the day after he'd met Angela, because he'd felt guilty about kissing Angela behind her back. And from what Shelley could understand the reason Bryan had got Angela a room was cos she wasn't in a fit state to go home. Shelley had wrongly stereotyped Bryan to a sex obsessed egotistical idiot and had lost her best friend because of it.

chapter nine