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Name: Staci

Nix: Blue, Mystic

DOB: February 10, 1970

Sun Sign: Aquarius

Moon Sign:Capricorn

Element: Air

Decante Ruler:Libra

So, curiousity got the best of you and you wanted to find out about the person behind this site. Well sit back and get comfy because here it is. I'm going to begin with the basics.

I'm Staci, also known as Blue or Mystic to many, born on Feb 10, 1970--for those of you who are not so good at math, that makes me 34 yrs old--in a small town in Ohio. After graduating high school I went to work for Walk-Up Concessions, a small gaming outfit that traveled all over Ohio, Kentucky & Tennessee with Nolan Amusements, which sad to say was not the best amusement company to work with, but that is another story. During that same summer, I met the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. We were married a year later. Well two kids and five years later things went sour and I decided to end the marriage. I had to do what was right for me and my kids. Now, for those of you who believe that a child needs both parents to be happy...I agree with you, unfortunately I was not going to raise my kids in an abusive relationship made worse by alcoholism & drug use. I did give him the choice--give up the drugs & drinking and attend anger management classes or it was over. He chose his fantasy of being a hardcore biker, drinking, drugging & being with as many women as possible in one man's lifetime. I made the decision that was beneficial for myself and my children...sadly to say, he is a deadbeat dad & is well known among the law enforcement officials in my area. And my sympathies go out to any woman who is unfortunate enough to get involved with him, some advice to those same women: Get away from him as fast as you can because he will only drag you down & he will NOT stop being abusive. He cares more about getting drunk on a nightly basis than he does about his kids--who he has seen maybe 5 or 6 times in the almost 10yrs we've been divorced, he cares more about his drugs & he can not remain faithful to one woman. For those women in the Ohio area who think they may be involved with him...you can contact me and I will give you his name.

It was about 6 or 7 months later that I met and married my second husband, true this was another mistake. What can I say? I was young and still wanted to find my dream of the perfect family. This marriage didn't even last a year, it was over 3 months later...the first time he hit me. I was not going to go through another 5yrs of hell. Unlike my first husband, the second one was quite a sweet man, until about a week after we were married, then I found out how he really felt about my kids. He had a bad temper and when I stepped in after one of his outbursts towards my kids, I got hit. He cried and said he was sorry and that it would never happen again. Well, I wasn't going to take that chance. I filed for an annullment and it was granted. We agreed on irreconsilable differences and parted on good terms. I am quite happy to say that he is now happily married and has a family.

I believe it was around the summer of 1996, when I went to work for Thornberry Concessions and that same summer left my employment with them to work for Bates Brothers Amusements. This is quite a respectable amusement company, with four or five units. For all I know the number of units could have increased. **Anyone looking for an amusement company for a festival or something...and are in the Ohio/West Virginia/Pennsylvania area...contact Bates. I can not guarantee that they wont be completely booked, but they are the cleanest and best company I worked for. I hated to leave their employ that fall and not return the following spring, but my main goal was to get a job and make a decent home for my kids-who at the time were staying with my parents, I still can not thank them enough for taking care of the kids while I spent a year getting situated and turning my life around. By Mother's Day, 1997, I had bought a double-wide mobile home and had my kids with me. And for the next four years, we were doing fine.

In the spring of 1999, I graduated from the police academy and was employed by the Bloomingdale Police Department, a small but growing department. I was with them for two years. At the same time I was working security in Steubenville. Those were two jobs that I hated to give up, but did so for personal reasons. If you are ever in the Bloomingdale, Ohio area and you get pulled over by either Sgt. Baxter McGrew or Chief (last I knew he was still Chief) Douglas Groves, tell them I said hello.

Of course those four years were not relationship free, I just did not let anyone get real close to me for quite a while. Then I met the man who almost became my third husband..(ok so I'm not quite sane for considering marriage again LOL...I never said I was perfect.) We had managed to get all the way to the planning and ordering stage for wedding invites and such, when he came over one night and told me that he couldn't do it anymore, he didn't love me like he did in the beginning. That was 3yrs, almost 4yrs, ago. And since then I have remained single and have had a sour attitude toward relationships. I couldn't even be happy for friends of mine who were getting married. I admit, it will take time for me to ever trust someone as much as I trusted and opened up to him. But he wasn't looking for a wife, he was looking for a mother who would clean up after him and not ask him or expect him to help around the house in any way.

During this time, I had also suffered the loss of a very dear friend, Dawn Meyer. who was taken from this life and those she loved and who loved her by leukemia. I took this quite hard because we were best friends. Unfortunately, I never had a support system when she died. Sure, I had Scott--the one I was engaged to--but he was not there for me emotionally and all he could say was "She's gone, get over it." If you're that close to someone when they lose someone close to them, you should be there physically and emotionally for them...not distance yourself from them and act as if nothing has happened.

I'm not certain if it was the events over the last 5 or 6 yrs that have lead me to my Wiccan Path or if it was something else. What I am certain of is this--had I not found this path, I more than likely would not be here--I would have left this life a long time ago. Sure, I tried out other, orthodoxed religions, but none of them allowed me to find the peace and calm that I have since found with my current path. I truly believe that the path of the Wicca is the path I was meant to follow, my only regret is that it took 30 yrs--give or take a year--to realize that.

So, why have I shared this with you? Because it is a part of me, part of what makes me who I am now, this is what changed me from the destructive person I once was. Of course I left out the years I tried to drown my sorrows in a whiskey bottle, I left out the years that were so dark at one time that I had considered ending my life, there is quite a bit I have left out, and only those who know me best or whom I choose to let get real close to me...will ever know. To say that I'm not bothered still by ghosts from my past would be a lie. I battle those ghosts every single day of my life. It is a battle that maybe, one day, I will win.

Everyone has their own personal ghosts and demons that they battle everyday...even those who believe they have the perfect life. Here's a bit of info for you--there is no such creature as perfect--every relationship has its problems and every human has a skeleton or two in his/her closet, how they choose to deal with them is their business. But remember this---if you are on the hunt for the perfect life, you will be sadly disappointed to find that there is no such thing. Life is what you make of it and we have to do the best we can.

I've moved on and realized that, whether I leave this life single or leave behind someone special, I do not need another person to support me or my kids.

Still curious? Then I invite you to read on...Just click the "Bio Continued" link.

If you choose to stop reading here, thank you for taking the time to step back into my past, as vague as it is. You deserve a lot of credit for actually reading all of this *smile*.

There is much more to me than just this page, that is why I have continued this section on another page. The other page will give you a glimpse of my likes and dislikes, turn-ons, turn-offs, and some of my interests.

Brightest Blessings!

Blue