God I need you, now, more than ever.
Help me get from worse to better.
Lord shelter me,
here I don't want to be.
Tomorrow, will I be okay?
Take me away.
I am standing here,
and than falls one tear.
Oh Lord, where did you go?
I am now alone.
I look outside and see black,
my heart, I now lack.
It's broken, here it lies.
Along with it, everything dies.
I'm falling off a cliff today,
my life feels likes it's gone astray.
Pick me up, take me up above,
I'm so unworthy, non-deserving of your love.
I try to hard to follow you,
yet I fall into the world's view.
Take these chains off of my heart,
take my hand, don't let me fall apart.
I need you more, always,
let me follow you, all of my days.
Stop making this path in my mind.
Stop telling me that I'm not good enough.
Stop controlling my life.
I am a child of God.
He is my center.
He is my all.
My everything.
You have no power over me.
I am free.
Friendship is what I look for,
yet today I feel abhorred.
Rejection, I can not withstand,
yet some how, I reach out my hand.
As these tears of salt run down to my face,
my heart isno longer chaste.
Asking myself, where did I go wrong?
With these people, I do not belong.
Sadden by this dismissal,
yet by acceptance I enthrall.
Changing to fit in, I deny,
who I am, for in fakeness I lie.
What is popular, what is this word?
Nevertheless, I don't find it absurd.
I want to be liked; I want to stand out,
I want to be assured, I want to not doubt.
Who am I? Where do I fit?
Unpopular, I can not admit.
How can I achieve your consent?
All I am is discontent.
Friendship, I want, all I long for.
My plea, please don't ignore me.
Reaching, grasping, holding
onto this worthless earth.
Searching, screaming, crying,
trying to find my worth.
Finding it all meaningless,
walking, away,
holding, my head,
shaking, in dismay.
Why can't I find it?
Where can it be?
I've looked everywhere,
what is wrong with me?
Pushing aside the voice,
shutting my eyes, plugging my ears,
falling on my face,
feeling ashamed, licking my tears.
So bruised, I can't get up,
yet I hear my name.
Someone calling me,
my life, he wants to reclaim.
God, I feel so betrayed,
yet here you are,
here you have stayed.
I'm looking for something that,
I will never see.
Something i can never find,
someone who will never be.
Except you.
(Dedicated to my beloved friend, Andrew)
In this world, show me your love,
let me escape to you, up above.
God I don't get it, I don't know,
I want to cry out, I feel so low.
Why do you hide yourself from me?
Are you going to answer my plea?
You have no idea what's going on,
everything I had, is now gone.
You broke me down, you tore me apart.
How can you break, and already broken heart?
God, pull me through this broken road,
lift me up, lighten my load.
I need You, your love, your light.
Guide me, help me, let us win this fight.
I may not understand why,
but you'll always be near my side.
Lord, hold my hand, lead me through,
lead me, with my eyes on you.