REBIRTH

It’s not enough
I need more
Nothing seems to satisfy
I don’t want it
I just need it
To breath, to feel, to know I’m alive
I want to feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I want to feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I’ve endured within
I choose to live and to grow,
Take and give and to move,
Learn and love and to cry,
Kill and die and to be paranoid,
Lie and hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to survive
Where have I been?
Sleeping, lost and numb
So glad that I have found you
I am wide awake and heading home

WORDS OF THE ICEMAN

I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure
Say the word and we’ll be
Well upon our way
Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not have me any other way.
What was it like for you to see
The face of your own stability
Suddenly look away
Leaving you with the dead and hopeless?
I’ll move to heal
As soon as pain allows so we can
Reunite and both move on together

FEEL THEM BOTH

Something kinda sad about
The way things have come to be
Desensitized to everything
How can it mean anything to me
If I really don’t feel anything at all?
I’ll keep digging till
I feel something
They’re both totally void of hate
But killing me just the same
Venomous voice, tempts me,
Drains me, bleeds me,
Leaves me cracked and empty,
Drags me down like some sweet gravity.
But I am too connected to you to
Slip away, to fade away
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me,
And considerately killing me.

WHERE IT BEGAN

I’ve been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I’ve been hiding in
And it was gone
When we waved goodbye
He is standing still
Waiting for me to free him
By coming home
Staring down the hole again
Hands upon my back again
Survival is my only friend
Terrified of what may come.
Time to bring it down again
Don’t just call me pessimist
Try and read between the lines
Moving me with a sound
Opening me with a gesture
Drawing me down and in
Showing me where it all began

THE ICEMAN RETURNS

He's inside me,
He's part of me,
I can't get rid of him
Because he is me.
He has no feeling
He has no cares.
He buried the feelings deep
So that the pain would not be.
For years he ruled me,
Decided what I should do.
I burried him.
Trapped him in his own prison
And released the feelings inside.
Now the barriers are breaking
And he is yearning to be free.
He is struggling with his prison
He is breaking his bonds
He is digging his way out
Eventually he will be free
And once again the Iceman will I be.