"Commitment is not the end-all.  It brings the beginning of another age, another war, not an automatic happiness.  The circumstances under which the choice is made is not predeterminate.  Thus the indeed mythical line: 'They married and lived happily ever after' should have been 'They married and may live happily ever after'." - Marcie Gordon
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"It has been 4 years since I decided to create a little place for myself to hide. The year is 2005 while my then self still rambles on in this place as if the world has been frozen still by a photograph. But the world is a lot different now than it was in 2001. Sometimes, I wonder whether I would have liked to go back in time, wandering around like a newly made toy still in its plastic wrap. Still, life is full of surprises. When you think that you know everything, it throws you something else. As if to put you in your place. Some say I never change, like impulsive immaturity bearing its own flag of some vague sense of justice. And yet on the other hand, the past four years have also thought me that elusiveness does not equal to pricelessness and that sometimes you have to let go to get hold. Sometimes, wanting to give up is not right. Sometimes, giving up earns you some much needed peace. And in the midst of loss, somehow it's possible to learn that what you've been fighting so hard for isn't necessarily good for you. And that it's possible to be happy with a little than a lot. And that you don't always have to be everything that people expect of you, or even what you expect of yourself. And you don't always have to walk the paths that other people have chosen or have chosen for you. Even for the paths that you once chose or were determined to walk before. I never expected to be doing accounts this far down the line. I always imagined that I would be somewhere far far away up there in my accomplished ideal. Accounting is so not me isn't it? :P For those who know me well enough... guess this would shock you...Is this better? Would it be good to know everything and have everything as one expected or presumed? You might as well take your chances with the unknown. I have taken mine. I have fallen so many times and I don't expect to never fall again. But as I usually tell my participants in my skating class...if you never fall down, how will you learn to get up? Before you fall, you have this cherished hope you won't fall too hard. And then you always do. And once you have that hope shattered, you gather the courage from the pieces to put one foot up and give a good push and get yourself rolling down the hill uninhibited. - Me (by the way, I am also Marcie Gordon...yeah...guess you never expected that...heh...P.S. Skating is a dangerous activity. Do not attempt to take my advice on falling too literally. I.e. do not presume that falling down a twenty foot steep hill in your skates will make you a better skater...get a professional instructor...please... ;) haha...Of course, I don't presume that we can get up from all falls. We are only human.)