Living in Fear

My snakes are going to eat you

My brain is going to crawl

My arms are thrown up in the air

Because I've finally given up

I don't want this attention

I don't want to feel sorry for myself

My rat poison sits in your stomach

You toss and turn as you gasp for air

My love is unreachable

And you're dying without me

Drowning, suffocating, lungs full of blood

You can't live without me

My muck is left on your lips

My dirt is on your face

Your bullet is lodged in my heart

When I thought I had so long ago

Pulled it out

Smiling, laughing, listening to music

Pretending that I'm not afraid

I'm afraid of you

I'm afraid of your love

Afraid of your touch

Afraid of your lies

Afraid of your ring

Afraid of your forever

I am afraid