Title : These Dreams
(A journel entry)>sonfic<
Author : Reesepbc
Rating : PG
Email : reesepbc@gmail.com
Authors Message :(below)
Disclaimer: I do not
own Sailor Moon >scratches head< DUH!!!! Do they
think that we are that gulliable that we do not
understand copy right and all of that.
Dear Journel, Nov. 15th
I Serena Tskino/ Sailor Moon/ Princess Serenity/ Neo Queen Serenity remember it
all so clear as if it were yesterday, the day I found out who Tuxedo Mask
really was. Well first let me begin at the begining,
um I think it was, yeah it was that terrible afternoon when I
had bumped into
*FLASHBACK*
"Man I can not belive I had detention again that is the third time this
week, Rei is really going to get on me for
this." I said to myself as I headed to the Crown to meet the girls. I
walked into the arcade and noticed that they were not there yet so I decided to
take a seat at the counter and chat with Andrew to pass the time away before
the girls arrived. " Hey Andrew how are you
today? " I asked cheerfully hoping that maybe Andrew would look up at me
and realize that he was madly in love with me and then sweep me in his arms
and, whoa Serena calm down. I laugh at myself and then look down as I began to
blush. " Hey Serena I'm doing really good,
especially since Rita is coming into see me tonight. " He said happily, my
heart broke, yet it didn't hurt as much as I expected
it to. " Really that is great Andrew I am really
happy for you." Funny thing is I was really happy for Andrew, * hmmm I
wonder if that means I never really loved him, ohwell
as long as he's happy, it never would have worked anyways we are to close. * I
was begining to wonder where the girls were, when my
communicator began to go off. "Yeah Serena here...hehe"
I say with a small laugh. " Cut
it out Meatball head I am in no mood, I don't feel good today so the meeting
has been cancelled and will be held tomorrow. So please be at the temple at
three pm, no later ok." Reis face then vanished from the communicator. " Whew well at least now I can relax and take the rest
of the day to spend with myself." Just then I
heard the door open and in walked
*END OF FLASHBACK*
I fell to sleep and
dreamed about things that I had no clue about, but I was to
quickly find out later on. They were very strange dreams, they seemed so
familliar to me, but I couldn't
figure out how I knew any of the things I saw in my dreams, it was so foreign.
Well I am still waiting for him to come home so, I'll
tell you about it.
*FLASHBACK*
The Dream
I woke up in my
dream from a nap, yet it felt like I was really waking up, except it was not my
room, nor was it my world. I got out of this luxorious
bed and had on a white floor length gown with gold accents, and I had my hair
done up as normal, yet when I looked around at the room I noticed that it was
done in a rich and lavishly way. There was a huge armaroire
next to the window and then on the other side of the window was a small table
with a mirror on it with a stool underneath. I looked at my bed and saw that it
was a *huge* bed, andit had beautiful silk sheets on
it, and twon night stands on each side. I was so
taken aback by the beauty of the room, yet I was not scared I almost felt as if
I *belonged* in this place. I slowly walk out onto the balcony and look around
outside, that is when I notice that I was not only in a differnt room, but a totally different town. I look around and notice how high up I am and I see a small little
garden with a gazebo in the middle. I look back and I realize that I am in a
castle. So I quickly walk of the balcony and into the
room, and then I decided to leave and explore my surrondings.
I pass many happy people who all address me, yet I can never hear them say my
name. I say hello to all that I pass, but I am to interested
in my destination to make small talk. I leave the palace doors and walk quickly
to the gardens, I realize how dark it is outside and
then almost panicked when I realized I hadn't brought a light.
~Spare a little
candle
save some light for me.~
I stop dead in my
tracks when I see someone moving in in the trees up
ahead, and I quickly began to feel a panick attack
coming on.
~ Figures up ahead
moving in the trees.~
I break out into a
fast run as I make my way to the gazebo, I couldn't
figure out why I didn't just run back into the castle almost as if something or
someone was calling me, almost pulling me to them. I feel my hair and dress
flowing behind me as I run hurridly to my
destination. As I run farther out into the open I notice the illumination
coming from the moon and I feel a lot better at being able to see again.
~ White skin in
linen
perfume on my wrist.
And the full moon that hangs over
these dreams in the mist.~
I reach my
destination to find nothing there I began to feel stupid for leaving the safety
of the walls, and contemplate going back to the castle when I realize that it
is getting dark and I see flashes of light in the distance. I began to feel the
fear creep back up into me again as I realize a storm is brewing. I look down
at my wrist and realize that my watch has been replaced
with a bracelet and I feel scared for I have no idea what is going on. I
quickly start to panic and cry softly as I realize that I'm
not home and I don't even know if i'm dreaming or
not.
~ Darkness on
the edge
shadows where I stand.
I search for
the time
On a watch with no hands. ~
I hear something
approach me and I began to cower back into the darkest part of the gazebo that
I could find. Then I look up and see *him*, a man dressed just like Tuxedo
Mask, and I begin to feel weak in the knees, if only he would come into the
gazebo so I could see if it was really *him*. Almost as if he could read my
thoughts he walks up into the gazebo and looks me in the eyes, he quickly grabs
my hand and pulls me to him as a loud clasp of thunder sounds in the distance.
I fear nothing being in his arms, it almost seems as if I was
made to be in his arms.
~ I want to
see you clearly
come closer than this. ~
He began to lead me
back to the castle when all of a sudden I hear a loud clasp of thunder and then
the sky lit up with lighting, I fell to the ground and began to cry as *he*
shook me lightly. I closed my eyes so I could try to block out the storm, and
when I opened my eyes I saw my mother shaking me
lightly. I jumped up out of my bed and looked around the room and realized that
all of the events that had happened was all just a
dream.
~ But all I
remember
are these dreams in the mist. ~
After that I continued to have these dreams and they made no sense
to me, when ever I fell asleep the dreams would pick up right where the other
ones left off. I began to get worried as to if the dreams were a fore shadowing of my future. The dreams were so realistic to
me, it was like as soon as I went to sleep I was
entering a new life, that was written just for me.
~ These dreams
go on when I close my eyes.
Every second
of the night I live another
life. These dreams that sleep when it's
cold outside. ~
I got to the point
where I didn't even want to get out of bed for fear of
leaving this mystery man whom I met every night, yet I never saw his face. I
went on with my life day in and day out, yet the nights got shorter and
shorter. And then it felt like I was having a hard
time doing anything, without thinking of him. The most
hardest thing in my life at that time was the battles that the scouts
and I faced at least once a week, yet they soon became something I looked
forward to. Why you ask, simple I got to see Tuxedo
Mask and that actually made me happy.
~ Is it cloak
and dagger
could it be spring or fall? ~
It was weird I felt
like I was almost invinceable against the things in
life that seemed to normally hurt me. I guess my friends noticed for one day I
walked into the crown and saw them having a meeting in the corner boothe in the back. It was a very strange day, and the
dreams that came that after noon didn't help any.
*FLASHBACK*
I walked through
the doors and smiled at Andrew who was at the counter talking to
I didn't know what was wrong with
them, any of them. "What could be bothering
~ I walk
without a cut through
stained glass wall.
Weaker in
my eyesight
the candle in my grip
And words
that have no form
are falling from my lips. ~
*The Dream*
I was running
through the palace with someone fast on my heels and I was laughing. I felt a
deep love that I knew I had never felt before. It burned the very essence of my
body and soul. Our little game of cat and mouse went on for well over an hour
and it seemed like there was no sign of quitting. Finally when it did we found
ourselves out in the gazebo, and his arms were wrapped around me tightly. He
leaned in to kiss me and at first I was a little taken
back, cause I had never seen his face, his mask that he wore hid his face as
that of Tuxedo Masks. I was nervous I felt it boiling in the pit of my stomach
and I was even anticipating it. The feel of his lips against mine and the
passion and love I heard in his voice warmed me. I was so lost in the moment
that it was unreal. He leaned down to kiss me, but before our lips met he
whispered in my ear words that made no sense to me, but they would in time. "Not yet my princess, and not here. When I can show you
who I am, and know that you can love me beyond a shadow of a
doubt, as I love you then the time will come. I am sorry, but here and now is
not the right time. Please forgive me." He gently kissed my hand and then
was gone. He left me standing there in the gazebo and I cried. The only thing I
had to comfort me was his name, Endymion, but that
did little to help me and my fear that I may never see him
again. I slumped down to the floor of the gazebo and cried when I heard
his voice floating through the air, the message that came with it was something
that I never expected to hear. " Serena we will
meet again, and when we meet again I will reveal myself to you, and if you still
love me then we will be together and then I will finally be able to hold you
and never have to let you go, but until then our nightly meetings will come to
an end. " All was quiet and I shut my eyes and
when I opened them I was in my room.
~ These dreams go on when I close my eyes. Every second of the
night I live
another life.
These
dreams that sleep when it's cold
outside ~
I got up from my bed and walked over to my window and sat down. It was 8 pm
and I knew that something was wrong, call it a hunch but I knew that something
was going to happen tonight. I was in a daze as I ate my dinner, but I stayed
alert. I went back into my room and sat in silence I left all the lights off,
and the only sound that could be heard was from the
alarm clock on my nightstand. I looked out over the city and admired the beauty
of the lights.
~ There's something out there I can't
resist.
I need to hide away from the pain -
There's something out there I can't
resist.
The sweetest
song is silence that
I've ever heard.
Funny how
your feet in dreams never
touch the earth. ~
I was about to doze off again when the beeping from my
communicator caused me to jerk up and jump to my feet. I was already on my way
out of the door when I finally answered the communicator. "Serena, meet us
at the park, we have a monster there that is demanding our attention." Ami
said. "On my ways
~ In a wood
full of princes freedom is a
kiss
But the prince hides his face from dreams
in the mist. ~
I looked up at him
and began to cry. "So you just lie to me and promise me that I will find
out who you are. I want you to leave,nevermind; if you think that
I am that heartless then I don't want to be anywhere around you, I'll
leave."
I got up and yanked my hand away from him
and walked off. I was so mad, actually mad was not the
word to describe my feelings. I was more hurt and depressed than anything. I
ended up running a full sprint towards home and I hoped that I never had to see
him again. I was happy when the dreams finally stopped, I started to feel like
I had been set free, but the question was free from what? Love?
Happiness? I didn't know, but
I did miss my nightly encounters with Endymion,
whoever he really was.
~ Every moment I'm awake
the further I'm away. ~
Well I guess that was not to be cause two days later I walked into the Crown and
met up with the girls for a soda and then who knows what after that. I
walked up to the counter to talk to Andrew and I heard the doors open, I turned
around to see
*END OF FLASHBACK*
So there you have
it,
*~*~*~*Serena*~*~*~*
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So what did you
think? Was it that bad...? Do you think I should write a conclusion about Rins birth and all if so let me know.
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