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arg! my TV like blew up today! it won't work anymore. i tried to be a handy woman and try to fix it myself but uhh, my handy woman skills are quite crappy. so i guess i might have to buy a new one. might as well buy one with a DVD player instead of a VHS...anyway, enough rambling! I gotta go take a shower and go to bed early, all this early working out is really tiring me!
holy. crap. sore. sore. sore. today's practice KICKED.MY.ASS! school is ok though, even though i already have papers to write!! it's all good i guess, i won't have so much time to be lazy anymore! anyway, i know this is short but i'm seriously pooped! POOPED! gone to bed :D
I'm gonna be 15 in 11 days!! and I'm BACK!! took me a while because of all the transfering of everythings but i'm finally back. i'm rooming with krista, i think and i'm pretty excited to be back! EVA ISN'T HERE AND I DON'T LIKE IT!! ah well, maybe she'll be back :S anyway, i gotta go to bed before i fall asleep in calc tommorow! lol
Well, I'm up one in rankings! 9th and not doing much of a good thing for the gym lol I'm doing more school work though, which is good since i went back to Houston for a week and I need catching up. I'm not doing as well as I should be doing this year, I guess it's a bit of more concentrating on gym, less on school. But hey, this is my dream and I know school is important, it is one of my strongest beliefs but I really sucked last year and I got hurt a lot and I don't want it to happen ever again. This back injury was an unfortunate fluke...and it's probably as old as my old injuries too, the doc said it was almost healed already, he just doesn't want it to crack or anything. Anyway, I guess that's just the way it is and hopefully, I'll be back to normal in no time!
Loooove, Marissa
How should I say this? AND I'M BACK IN THE GAME!! Well,
at
least the top half of rankings AND with weird workouts. I've been
workin on
bars and doing the silly easy dance things on beam. I normally don't
like
working floor cuz it tires me out but I'm starting to miss it now! It's
weird how things work, like when you can't have something you want it
and
vice versa. I'm bored, I should go hand out with the people or
something,
ttyl:)
Marissa
I went to school today and you'd think they'd be used
to
seeing me in various physically aiding attires but no, everytime I show
up
in a cast, a boot or this time, a brace, I become a circus attraction.
It's
funny lol I went to the docs today and he said I could maybe start
doing
full bars routines, dismounts into pit. Coach Dan didn't even say
anything
about me in the squad notes, so much for noticing I'm back! I'm tired,
I
think I might go shower and nap for a little while, just to get a lil
boost
and get this brace off, it's really quite a drag!
Love, Marissa
Hey Journal!
3rd day back. I wish I could do more but that's old
news. I
actually fell out of my bed and pulled a muscle in the front of my leg
and
it's been killing me ever since, I can't walk straight, I have to bend
down
a little. I dislike it but by the time my back gets better enough for
me to
start doing more stuff, my leg'll be fine too. I hope anyway, I've been
kinda clumsy, falling on the ice and in the shower and stuff...the
doc's not
happy with me, he was like "Marissa, you're not doing gymnastics but
yet you
keep pushing your comeback further with all these mistakes, etc". It's
like
"blah blah blah, i'm talkin nonsense, blah blah".
Gotta go to bed, I might not have to workout all the
time but
I still have to be at practice a 6:30!! lol
Hey Journal
I'm bored! I've been back for a day and I wanna do more
than
what I'm doing ya know? I HATE CONDITIONNING!! Dan was pretty happy to
see
me though lol he was like, "oh well, my favourite trouble maker is
back!"
and he gave me a hug. A HUG!! FROM DAN!! Anyway, Kelly's leaving:(
(IRL
she's prego!! wooo!!) I should go now but I'll be back tommorow, since
I am
so gymnastically challenged:///
Marissa
Well, happy v-day all late-ish. I'm back! I'm back to
train
bars and condition in my brace. It was pretty tough because the pain is
not
unbearable and like, I had been practicing on the same pain for a while
and
I know I could still do it but the Doc was like, see Jordan Schwikert?!
That'll be you if you don't stop asking to go back to gym, darling!! So
yesterday, I won! He told me that if I did one backhandspring, he'd
have a
spy in the gym to tell him and he'd strap me to my bed lol!
Anyway, gotta go, I've got PT and homework and
stuff.
Love, Marissa
<3, Marissa
Hey Journal
I did nothing today, I trained and then I put my PJs
back on
and moped alll day lol we're leaving tommorow I think for the meet. I'm
pretty ready but I'm worried. I come home on January 19th and I have
exams
starting the 20th so I might be all tired and crap from the
flight.Anyway, I
should go now and pack up fro the trip!
<3, Marissa
Hey J
Workout is getting fun:) I didn't get kicked out and he
didn't even threaten to kick me out either! I think I need to play down
the
attitude a little or he'll really get pissed and I'll get transfered to
another squad or something. He WAS an ass for saying whatever he did
about
the Lilly squad and Soyon. I was meditating today and she was looking
for
Eva so she came into our dorm and when she saw me meditating she
started
talking to me (which never happens, I didn't think she even liked me
before
this!) and she's nice. I know we're the Tigers and like, apparently
we're
supposed to be the exact opposite of the Lilly squad but hey, my
roomate and
best friend is in the Lilly squad and I felt like kicking Dan in the
nuts
when he posted that about them. AND he didn't post MY notes so that
sucks.
I've never really been one of the gym's favourites or something,
whenever
somethign like this is going on, they always seem to forget about me.
YAY.
Oh well, at least they don't forget about me on Olympic Teams and
such:)
hehe! I have to go to Nikki's house tonight to study for our exams but
I'll
be back in time to go hang out with mah girl Eva:)
<3 ya, Marissa
Hey Journal
OMFG YAYYYYYY!!! I MADE THE DAMN TEAM!!!!!!!! Ok, enough
over-excitement for one journal entry. and enough bad words too! I told
my
friends that the team was anounced today and they were like, so you're
starting to go to meets again? and I was like, yeah and they were
like, woo
we're gonna see you a grand total of 2 weeks a month now! lol I feel
sorta
bad, I never go out with them anymore, I study, go to gym, spend some
quality time with my gym ladies...I guess that's what it's about. I
used to
go out with my school friends all the damn time but I had no gym career
left! I was working out like a level 8 (hours wise) and I was
definetely
getting injured all the time. Now I'm really, honestly happy. Ok,
enough
sapppy talkin, I'm gonna go hang out with Elizabeth! ttyl:)
<3333, Marissa
Hey J!!
They're supposed to announce the Texas Flyers
Invitational
team tommorow I think. Dan said I've been practicing more and he's
pretty
happy about all this. He was like: "when I first saw you, I just knew I
was
gonna have a hard time with you but it's getting better, you're tough,
Marissa, use it to your advantage" so I am using it to my own
advantage and
I'm hoping I'll make the team to Texas! I should go now but I'll write
back
as soon as I know if I'm on or not!!
<3, MJ
Hey Journal
So I went to Nikki's to study yesterday and when I got
there
Weston and Winston were there and something tells me Wes likes Nikki
and
it's just a known fact that Wins likes me. Blech. I like him as a
FRIEND. I
don't like anyone righ now, I have gymnastics and since I've been good
(EXEPT for that stupid intersquad!) since I got here, I wanna continue
being
good! There's a meet coming up and I really wanna make it. It's not
like a
specific amount of people going, it's just by like how you've been
doing and
stuff so I'm cool. I hope I'll get picked to go!! It's in Texas so it's
always good to go back there! I shuold go now though, I need to go take
a
shower cuz I stinketh and I know Eva's coming back from the rec room
soon so
I might just wanna hop in before she does or else I won't have any hot
water
left!! lol
<3333, Mar
I'm almost done my website. I'm v happy about that! I'm
watching Frasier on TV and it's funny:) I'm also very tired but I have
homework, math. Getting up in the morning to go listen to Coach Dan
BARK is
getting tougher, I can't wait til saturday!
<3, MJ
I did my last french test of the semester today. I'm not
taking french next semester either...just next year. I'm taking
geography,
geometry, spanish and english. Which should all be pretty easy and I'll
get
to train more and stuff. I also got the 8th grade rep job :D so I'm
gonna
have to stay after school every thursday from 3:30 to 5:00. Nothing
life
altering. Nikki's the PR officer for the student counsil, which means
that
whenever we have something to do with other schools and stuff, she's
the one
doing the talking. I'll be well, representing the 8th graders! lol It's
pretty weird cuz last year I was in 6th grade so people are like, wtf
isn't
she in 7th? but I'm not cuz I did 7th in summer homeschooling. ANyway,
gotta
go. ttyl
oook, MJ needs to learn how to control her emotions lol
I
just read my yesterday entry and I was quite bitter;) but yeah, I'm 7th
today in rankings and the new coach is the awesomest, man! I never
worked
out with Dan before, I just saw him in the halls I think, once. but
then I
got switched to Tiger squad (which is ok but I'm not with Eva) and he
coaches it. He's TOUGH, tougher than anyone else around here. lol I
adore
him but I think he hates me cuz I gave him attitude and he told me he
might
wanna give ME attitude and kick me out! SO yeah, that was fun lol I was
pretty scared cuz I bet he'd do it. He's as nuts as I am!
On to school stuff: physics test: out of the way!! I
think I
did pretty well though, one question was out of my reach for some
reason but
it was the bonus Q and if I get everything else I'll still get
100%:)
Anyway, I better go, I've got some talkin to do with
Eva,
we've been so busy!
lotsa luvin, MJ
I HATE INTERSQUADS. ugh i feel like crap, it's like, I
work
out regularly, I do all the crap, I put up with the damn pain, the rips
(new
one by the way, blood gushing, i need new grips) I STAY HERE in
Middle-o-nowhere, Indiana. Heck. Oh well. I guess I need a better
attitude
about this shit but hey, i needed a good cry. I also need to go to bed
soon...I'm feelin weird...overtired i guess, I've been putting in more
hours
at school cuz we've got exams coming up and I'm not really sure if I'm
on
the same track as the rest of the class. All this damn moving
around....UGH!!!
imna go shop for a good mood, MJ
Hey J
I woke up this morning, really pumped for the
intersquad. All
my friends are coming! I'm so excited, even my friends on the swim team
are
missing practice! lol I sorta feel bad though cuz I think their coach
was
like, why the heck are you guys missing practice for a gymnastics
competition? but then they were like, wtf's wrong with you, topo just
reopened and MJ's competing! lol MJ is gonna do soooo bad!! I don't
really
care, I need to build my strentgh up again before aiming for the big
deals.
I need to get used to these 5 inches I grew and not practicing all
summer.
I've done stuff this summer though...I started diving a lot more and
stuff
but with diving more came the fear and stuff...yeah, I was scared! I
started
gym when I was barely a toddler and I just grew up with it as a part of
me...backhandsprings were like walking by age 6...but heck, diving, I
dunno
it was new and I knew what fear was. I knew I could fall and break my
neck
(again, blech) or hit the !
>board and I did! It hurt like hell and it broke my ankle, again. So I
had
>surgery and the doctor said that if I ever wanted to go back to
gymnastics,
>I'd need to lay it off for a long while and let myself heal up once
and for
>all and that's exactly what I did. I stopped doing any activities
right
>then and there and unfortunately, I started goin in the wrong way. I
was
>hanging out with Char and I love her, she's my sister but she's a bad
>influence these days...thank God Topo re-opened...at first I was like,
nah
>not goin back, I'm done with gym and everything else...but my dad
called
>and said he'd sent in my tuition to Northumberland already and that he
was
>in contact Lois about Topo too and I didn't even wanna rebel against
it, I
>wanted to have this life back. I don't care if it hurts, gym is my
thing
>and Topo is my home. Oh well, enough of this sappy talk!
School was ok, I had an algebra test and that went well.
The
teacher corrected them before school was done but I was already gone
cuz of
the meet and stuff so she called me up to tell me I got 100%! :o) I was
soooo excited. I think acdemic excellence is just as important as gym
or
anything else. The 8th grade representative, Katie Arsenio, is leaving
cuz
she's moving back to New York so her position is up for grabs and
Ms.Hall
said I should apply and I wanna. I might, really. It's like one meeting
a
week and it's nothing really big like high school counsil, which I also
wanna be part of, but anyway...that's what it was today!
My lyrics-o-da-day:
After all of the stealing and cheating you probably
think
that
I hold resentement for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I
wouldn't
know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
Cause it
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for makin me a fighter
- Christina Aguilera
I went to the tanning salon tonight and I saw Weston cuz
his
mom owns the place and it's at his home and he invited me in for a
drink (of
pop! lol) so I went and then I was like, I gotta go for an extra
workout
today, we've got an intersquad tonight and he was like WOAH YOU DO?!
and I
was like, what, do you live under a rock or something Wes? but then I
realized he doesn't go to North anymore so yeah. I gotta go now, so
ttyl!
<3 Mar
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!! Everything is going so damn well!! I
went to
school and it's great, we're exactly on the same stuff as I was on in
Spring
so it's cool. I'm not yet right into everything though so like, my
schedule's still mesed up and I got to school late a little but they
always
understand...but today there was a new secretary and she was like,
you'll
need to go to Mr.Huntington's office for beign late and I was like,
woahhh I
was training! and she was like, well I cna't bend the rules for you
darling.
and I felt like screaming but it was all cool, Mr.Huntington walked in
and
he was like, MARISSA HOW NICE TO HAVE YOU BACK HERE!!! and she was
like,
oooook. I was like, yeah I frickin dated Mr.Huntington's son and he
KNOWS I
wasn't out skipping classes. showed him my brand new rip and he asked
if I
had seen Kael and stuff...I think Mr.Huntington missed me more than
anyone
in the school lol Nikki included! ANyway, I should go to bed now I'm
tiredddd
<3 MJ
hey j,
oooh was the getting-up tough this morning! I did get up though and
worked
out and everything. was toughhhhh. so yeah, after workout, i went to
bed
again lol cuz i'm a lazy bummmm and then I called up Kael and him and
Kagan
and Katarina (KKK! lol) picked me up cuz Kagan got his license!! Kagan
is
Kael's best friend but he's in 11th grade. He's v nice. Katarina's
Kagan's
girlfriend. She's in 9th grade, we were friends last year. I found out
I AM
IN DORMS WITH MAH GIRL EVA!!! I am so happy, I could cry lol, well, i
cry a
lot these days! I'm such a sap lol anyway, I should go to bed again,
I'm so
tired from sleeping for 5 hours last night...hehe;)
<333 Mar
ugh, I didn't even work out today. I felt like crap! I woke
up
too late and then I took a shower and the water got cold and I still
had
all this shampoo in my hair so i had to sorta get dressed and go to
the
little sink and rinse it out. so yeah, I saw the rankings and i am
dead
last so that's no fun. but oh well, I need to go to bed now, it's way
past
my bed time!
<333 Mar
wow, 2003. I don't think I saw 2002 go! Oh well. It was soooo good
to be here, on a special holiday, away from my family. I mean, like,
usually, we felt kinda sad about being away from our families and
everything, yadda yadda but hey, this IS fun!! I went back to school today
and it was awesome. I saw all my friends exept Kael cuz he's at Windham
now...the high school step of the Baxter-Northumberland-Windham Academies.
You go to Baxter from K-4, Northumberland from 5-8 and Windham from 9-12.
I'll be at Windham next year. (IRL I'll be at University! ACK!) anyway. I
trained and then I hung out with my people...I still need to find out who's
my roomate, I'm not yet moved in. I forgot to bring something for the party
and I felt so bad!! but Ms.Moore called me and said she'd pick me up cuz
they were so happy to see me back so I could spend diner with them and come
back for the party with some gifties and stuff:)
Anyway, I should go! <3, Marissa
UGH JOURNAL. I am in a bad funky mood, it's like no matter what I
try to do, nothign works and I'm so damn sick of everything around
here. I honestly love gymnastics but once you've been at the top, you'd like to
be there again and again, and it's like I can't. I've been checkin out my
results and stuff and it seems as though no matter how hard I work,
even when consistent, I can never seem to break top 12. Top 12 is
significant of no team berths, no attention, nothing but pain and broken bones. I mean, bottom of top 12, not like top 12 and up there. UGH ANYWAY!! I don't
think if I tried to test elite again I'd pass!
Hey Journal, sorry can't write much, my day's been good I went ot diving but I just watched and went to the team meeting in case I can go to states in october, that all depends on wether or not I go back but i really want to, i just also want to excel in the sport i've dedicated my ENTIRE life to, not just the past 3 weeks...anyway, need sleep!! My boot is HUGE!! it's heavy too, huge black and blue thing with velcros all over, I hope I get a lighter one, or else bars will be weird when I get it off- i'll REALLY fly lol
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
hey journal
well, bad news. I broke my ankle on a low double layout yesterday. the good
news is, i'm still getting to train and stuff. it wasn't a bad break, so i
can train bars until nationals. NO DISMOUNTS lol my doctor went nuts when i
asked him if i could do this but he said no dismounts, until august 15th and
then on the 16th i can do them into the pit and then on the 17th, it's nationals. it sorta hurts i won't be doing AA cause I have no chance at being national champion now but hey, I'm stopping diving until after nationals, so I'll get to dedicate alllll my time to bars and who knows, I might do good on that one event. I'm gonna have to talk to coach though, because I'm not gonna do the double layout dismount, I'm gonna do the tucked double double instead, cause tucked stuff I think hurts me less. Anyway!!
As for school, I'm ALMOST DONE!! I still need to take 2 exams and then I'm
going to the 8th grade!! My school friends are all at their beach houses
though. I miss having a beach house!!I miss my friends! lol
Family stuff, well, my DEAR sister that I love and adore, Meghan is moving
to Boston to study with the School of Ballet Boston. Yay. Oh well, family
love, yall, family love.
I need to go now I think, ttyl!!
-xox- *muah* 143
Marissa
Hey Journal!
I'm SO tired from workout today, I don't know why but I was just dead lol I
worked on tsuks today a little but omgggg it's just so scary, I doubt I'll
ever make one anyway...my fingers are all feeling better everyday, thank
God...I was so sure I had broken them, cause I dunno, it felt real weird lol
The Commonwealth Games are on in England right now and Jennifer is alternate
on the team! I'm really happy for her, but I think I'd like it better if she
competed lol I'm really cold and stuff, I think I might have a fever, I don't really feel all that sick though, probably just because I spend a lot more time in the water than usual. My diving training has been going very well too but they're trying to get me to go to the 3m board and that's not really a great idea right now. I need to get adjusted a little to the 1m and the HEIGHT, period lol I know I've been there like on bars and beam but there's a really big difference between 3 meters and 4 feet lol 3 meters is about 9 feet high!! Well, my computer is going nuts so I better restart...and save you up!!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
AHHHH WORKOUT SUCKED!!! I hate this. I get better workouts at diving than gym, and that's just WRONG cause I'm a successful elite gymnast and a mediocre starting diver, I SHOULD NOT be better at diving than gymn,....o WELLLLLL. I AM PISSED GOOD DAY.
ttyl. MArissa
Hey Journal!
I'm exhausted, literally. I had to go to the ER today, cause I almost passed
out at diving...oh well, i'm not exactly the healthiest tool in the shack...lol I need to get some blood work done again cause they think it's diabetes. I dunno, I'm just eager to get better and start training my sports agian, like I used to- especially gymn. Diving is different, but gymn I KNOW I used to be awesome and stuff- it's hard on the self confidence stuff. Oh well, I should go now.
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
Hi J!
Well, the deal is, I started diving last week. I went to Indianapolis with
the Moores and we went to the pool there and I started fooling around on the
diving board and I did like double fronts and such off it (the 3 meters one)
and the diving coach came to see me and asked if I would like to join the competitive team. I told him I was an elite gymnast and I wasn't sure if it
would really be good ya know, but he said we'd work things out for the schedule and such. I spoke to my parents about it and they loved the idea, and agreed that I should start. My dad said it'd be a good way to sorta equalize my life a little, for like 11 years now, it's always been about gymn and nothing else, no hobbies, no sports, but that diving would be good and a little easier on my bones lol I've been hurting these days, I totally sprained like all my fingers, I fell on a double layout and put my hands down but for some reason I still went forward but my hands stayed on the floor and VOILA, got my entire hand blue and swollen up:(
What else happened? I went to the CVGI or whatever Camp and won beam and tied for 2nd on bars I think! I was really hurting though, but I still managed to pull it off:)
I should go now!!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
I know, I know, it's been too long but SO much has been happening in my life!! And nothing of the "awesome" category either!:( Well, first of all, Marine got really sick, she had an pneumonia and stuff, they called the entire family there becuse they thought she was gonna die and all but in the end, she didn't but she's still in the hospital, recuperating. Anyway, I got to go visit some family in Houston, see old friends, and such. It wasn't a really long visit but it was the longest since I moved here. I sorta miss that whole part though, having a family, being with people you truly love all the time. I adore my teammates and my coaches here but let's face it, they're not my mum and dad, no matter what. Oh well. Someday I'll have a family of my own-full time. And I will BUILD a gym and BUY coaches before my daughter has to live 15 states away from me!!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
OMG today was the funnest day ever, Krista's here so we went to workout, slept after workout again and then we went swimming at Nikki's place and I almost died because Nikki's neighbour's dog almost ate me alive and I started to cry hysterically and ACK. I was humiliated afterwards but right then, I just wanted to have my mum here to I could cry in her arms:(
I got a sunburn too, I forgot to put any sunscreen(i know, dumb me) so I'm
now all redish but it's ok I guess, doesn't really hurt.
-xox- *muah*
A very, very, emotionally tired Marissa
Hey Journal!
Well, I love my life lol it's so cool to be consistent again! I don't
know how it'll help my rankings but at least I'm satisfied with my work
ethics and such, and that's already a big improvement! The rankings WILL
improve, I'm sure of that. I spoke to Tasha today, she's so nice and she said
she's not feeling ready for nationals...well, I'm not either! woo. gross, IRL
I'm not either, I have baton nationals coming up and I DON'T WANNA GO.
Well, I should go!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
hey Journal!
Well today, after workout, me and Tia went shopping with Kane, Kaden
and Kael! I think Tia and Kane hit it off quite well:) He's really nice and
super cute. I looooove Kelly Osbourne's new song!! It's so awesome. I
burned a new CD so we could listen to it in Kaden's car but I dropped it and
someone WALKED on it and I couldn't listen to it, it was jumpy and
stuff. SO BLUH! There's not much else!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
Hey Journal!
Krista is coming home!!! She's gonna be my roomie!!!
So, ok, me and Eva made up. Me and Tia are talking now, she's really nice, We're going shopping tommorow! I'm freezing, it's so cold in my room right now and I'm too lazy to do anyhting about it lol And I burned my hand while making hot coco. I was boiling the water and when I tried to put some in my cup, it dripped all over my hand:( Anyway, I should go!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
Hey Journal!
So ok, me and Eva got in a really big fight today. I think she's pissed because I hang out with Jennie and them and I'm pissed because i felt rejected cause she spent all her time either WITH Tia or protecting Tia. Oh well. It's like, ok, she was MY BEST FRIEND and then we sorta drifted away because we both started spending time with other people but then she started bitching after Jennie, who is a friend of mine, and got pissed when I told her I liked Jennie no matter what she said because we're friends and started telling me off and stuff and she said that I had gotten all Miss Popular and spent more time with the "bitch squad" and some boy and that I ditched her. Well, to tell you the truth, maybe i did but I didn't wanna ditch her, I just felt as if she just didn't need me. Well, pfft, who's the kid here? I don't need to take this and I won't. She has/had like 2 friends in this entire gym and that is Tia, who is a little less than Miss Popular herself, if I should say and me, who stuck with her ever since the very beginning through hard times and fun times. Well, if that's the way she's gonna treat me, I'm not gonna DEAL with her. Ya know, if ONE person could really stand her bitching and whining and complaining and her just right down cold and mean personality, it was me but ya know, I didn't mind cause I love Eva, she's like my alter ego, my soul sister, she was the first one to make me feel at home here and the only one who's stuck with me through everything but she was pretty willing to give it all up today, saying somehting like I could consider her not my friend anymore. I never said I didn't wanna be friends with her anymore, I just said I didn't feel like she really needed my friendship 24/7 because apparently, all of her little plans, which before she woulda shared with me first, were already shared with Tia by the time she shared them with me. I don't think she needs me and/or cares about
me, she's just pissed I'm hanging out with her rival, which I am not really doing all that much, I'm pretty much practicing lonerism since we came back to topo. But w/e, I do not need to start stressing over crap like this or I'll end up going home and never setting foot in a gym, ever again cause the Lord knows it wouldn't take much right now to send me packing. I really do miss Eva but pfft, I'm not gonna hang out with her if I'm gonna keep getting bitched at. I
don't feel like having my self-esteem lowered any more, it's already low
enough.
On to other news. I worked out today and I totally killed. I practiced my
new moves and most of them are already dead on!! lol at my chooice of words:
killed and dead on;) Well, that's pretty much it, I think I should go and
spend some time OUTSIDE of this hellhole and go out with the Moores to get
ice cream at the Dairy Queen.
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
OMG it's June 28th already. Krista's coming home from Florida this weekend and then she might be coming back to Topo and be my roomate, HOW freaking COOL IS THAT?! Very. I'm trying to stop drinking pop, I drank ONE small tiny little glass of Mountain Dew today but that's it!! I hung out with Eva and Tia today...it was so cool hanging out with Eva again, I really missed her:( I still love everybody else though. I think I need ot really get my ass kicked into gear if I wanna be someone again at this gym. Well, I should go eat dinner, I'll bbl!!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
Hey Journal!
Ok, I'm back from shopping with Kael and Nikki and Kaden. Kaden's really nice, he said he watched the Olympics on TV and saw the topo team and now he's been following us a bit more. Anyway. I got a pink sweat-shirt that says *Angel* on it and a new pair of Tommy shorts. Well to have actual shorts and not capris, I had to fit in a rather small size 8 for kids lol Anyway, I was shopping and of course, Nikki can fit in womens' clothes and everybody else was shopping in real stores and I had to stop at like, Gap kids lmao they made fun of me in a good way and stuff but I ended up getting cuter clothes than Nikki and they cost less! ANyway, now I should really go again!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
Hey Journal!
I don't have that much time to write today, I'm going to watch a movie with
some friends and then Kael and his brother Kaden are coming to pick me and
Nikki up and we're going shopping! Kaden is a little older than Kael, he's
like 17. I'm really starting to like Jennie, I must hang out with her more
often. Me and Eva have been having rough patches, mainly because she has a
new best friend, Tia. I like Tia and all, but it's never really fun to have
your spot filled by someone else. Oh well. I like Sarah a whole lot but she
doesn't train with me:( b ut we're both vegetarians so we eat together and
we mostly eat the same stuff. ACK I have to go, Kael's here!!
ttyl -xox- *muah*
Marissa
Hey Journal!!
I just competed in the intersquad this weekend- I did bad again. For some
reason, I can't seem to pull myself to my old shape. I train and stuff and
when I train, I hit but when I'm in competition, I suck VERY badly. Anyway.
Kristen applied for a job at the IFGA. She also goes to college now and she's gonna move to Indiana if she gets the IFGA job so I'll get to see her more often! Right now she's in Maryland, she's training and coaching with Cass, at Hill's!! It's getting really annoying, how I'm losing all my roomates. Lara is gone too, but I think you knew that. She's retired and I haven't seen her she went back to Jacksonville. I'm going home to Houston this weekend to see my entire family. It's gona be so fun, this party has been postponed what, 30 times? lol Also, I changed my entire schedule due to my new homeschooling thingy. It's reallllly fun doing homeschooling, I might just not go back to school in september! I train from 6:30 to 9:30 in the AM and then I sleep!
again from 9:30 to 11:30 lol and then I wake up nd get ready, eat diner
at noon and I start school at 1. I do school til 3 or even 4 sometimes and
then I go to privates. I do privates for about an hour and then I have the
rest of the night to do anyhting I wanna. I decided to become a vegetarian
too! I hate meat and I never eat any anymore, so I decided to put a label on
my eating habits and be a vegetarian. What else is new? I went out on a
"group date" with Kael, Jenna and Weston and Eric and Lauren. It wasn't really fun cause Jenna and Lauren are like, sophomores and I'm a tiny 13 year old but whatever. Lauren does gymn too, she's a level 8 and she's really good, I saw her train once cause she trains at the same gym as Nikki and Brooke and Kristina. They train there to have tumbling for cheer. Kael's really nice though. I think we're more like best friends than actual dating people and such but it's really cool. He hangs out with my friends too so I don't have to hang !
out with older people all the time. He says it's easier for !im to hang out with younger people than for me to hang out with his friends, cause they're even older than him and since i don't have much time anyway,he doesn't want me to waste it on spending time with people who I'm not even that friends with. He spends time with his friends when I'm in the gym, working my ass off to make my dreams come true:) Meghan got a part-time job at a Starbucks in NYC lol I cna't see her serving chillattes to people at ALL. She's such a prima donna but training as a principal is much more expensive and Miss.Wilson doesn't have as much money to spend on Gucci shoes anymore. *rolls eyes majorly cause even though we love Meghan, we think she thinks she's all that and a bag of chips* It's so funny how she's really the only one in the family like that, all fancy and SO darn arrogant. Hmm, what else? Katie's going to worlds with the synchro team. She's getting really good but they're junior worlds, not senior. She's gonna be on the senior team someday, I! know it and then she's gonna go to the Olympics for Canada and do great and win a medal and ahhh!! LOL I miss Canada, better call my mama and ask her how Montréal is!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
Also, I wanna adopt Bagel. I need to call my step-mum and ask her if she can
keep it while I'm training-we don't have any space here for pets:( :( :( If
I can't, I need to find him a good family!! Maybe the Moores will adopt him
or the Huntingtons! LOL all this for a dog that'd probably make me die of
allergies if I was near him for more than 3 minutes...
Hey Journal!
Yea, I've been sick a lot lately and such but the tests came back negative
for leukemia and the doc said it might be a harsh case of anemia. They treated me and all, I spent a night at the hospital and I was fine! What else? I competed the whole time still! I was like Claudia Presecan or whatever at the Olympics lol I did BAD in all the intersquads. I got like 13th one weekend, 33rd in Moscow!! The food in Moscow was so awful, I lost 4 additional pounds!! So now I'm down to 54 lbs but I need to go see the doc and get a good, healthy diet because I'm not used to being this thin. I'm not really thin, considering I'm barely 4'3" but I used to be more muscular than now...I need to gain back lol Hhmmm. what else? I'll be working out at Brown's for a weekend because I am going home!! Sarah will be coming with me but we'll be working out anyway so it's all good!!
-xox- *muah*
Marissa
June 9
hey Journal,
OMG I WAS SICK AGAIN. I got this stomach thing. I called my dad and he wanted me to go for some tests, he thought I might have something really wrong with me, I've just been getting sick a LOT and it's been affecting my training and school stuff too. I got better though, they gave me blood, pills and vitamins to take and now I'm feeling fine and I competed at the Swiss Cup and Summerfest, all this week!! Anyway, I should go now!
TTYL
Marissa
Hey Journal!!
OMG ok, yesterday, this guy decided to skateboard his way down the stair
ramp ok, and I was walking down the stairs and he totally fell on me. He
ended up being Kael Huntington, the school's cutest guy, an 8th grader and Mr.Huntington, the school's principal's son. So anyway, he felt SUPER bad. He kept apologizing cause everybody knows I'm like the smallest person in the entire school and he was like, omg out of all people, I had to fall on you!! But anyway, he said he secretly liked me and we're going on a "date" on friday after school at the mall. He also asked me to go to his prom with him but I'm not sure about that cause it might be at the same time as the Swiss Cup and stuff. I've been somewhat of a slacker these days, I've worked out a total of like 8 hours in 2 days, but I've been realllly busy studying for exams!!
I gotta go!!
Marissa
Hey Journal!!
Ok, here I am again! I love my new schedule!! I have to get up way
earlier and stuff but here's my schedule, isn't it lovely?
I work out from 6 to 9:30 and then I go to school like any normal kid.
I go to school from 10-2 and then I come home. I do homework from like 2-4
or less and then I train from like 4-7. Then I have the rest of the night
off!! It's really fun to get to do homework while most of my teammates are
still at school. Then they come home and I can just chill with them while
they bust their asses off doing HW lol
I spoke to my sister Meghan on the phone!! OMG she got accepted into
the ABC, she's gonna be a principal dancer!!! She's like ecstatic and I
think we're gonna have a little celebration for her. So I might fly home for
the weekend and train at Brown's or whatever's near lol BUT OMG I FORGOT.
I'm going home with Eva this weekend, NOTE TO SELF: call parents and tell
them to postpone little party til Marissa can come home;)
I think I should go to privates now, I'm sick of doing nothing lol oooh
and I need to go check out what Eva's doing or Sarah or Jennie or SOMEONE,
I'm bored.
Luv yaz!!!
Marissa
Hey Journal!
Nikki, B and Krissi aren't moving to Oregon after all. Now it's
HOUSTON!! Now I REALLY miss home and Karissa and all my old friends. I don't know if it's just me or I don't really fit in now that Topo has re-opened. I
think I've been too much of a slacker anyway. Well, I worked out today and it
was so awesome, I felt like the world was mine to rock lol Nothing hurt!!
For once, nothing was hurting, my back was fine, my hands didn't burn,
etc!! I think me and Eva, Jennie, and Sarah are gonna go spend a few days in
Canada. We've been invited to the Gymnix Recruitement, it's in Montréal, they
recruit tiny little girls for like the 2008 and 2012 Olympics and
they've asked some of us to go cause we were Olympic medalists. Eva was a
silver medalist on beam and we were gold medalists with the team (Jennie,
Sarah and me). I don't know if Coach will let us go, cause it's a day in
Montréal, a day in Toronto at Sport Seneca, a day in Saskatoon at Marian, a day in Calgary at Stampede City and 2 days in BC, one at Omega (where I could see my friends Gael and Laura-Ann!!) and hald a day at Twisters, where Kate Richardson trains and the other half at Flicka, where Breanne King and the Medeiros train. I SO wanna go, I sorta miss Canada but it's Coach's choice and I respect it, since we all have lotsa meets coming up!! I'm competing at the Swiss Cup but I still winder why they chose me cause I suck right now!! I've been slackingggggg it's so disgusting! I used to be one of the bests here
and now I'm like this big slacker who rebels against all forms of authority and
spends her time online and watching TV and hanging out with friends. I guess
that's normal life but I'm NOT supposed to have that. I'm supposed to be in
the gym!! lol I should go now, I'll write back real soon!!
Marissa
May 26
Yea, so ok. Nikki came here tonight til like 10. She might be
moving to Oregon!!:( Right after school is over, the Moores (that
includes
Ms.Moore, who was like my MOTHER, Nikki, Brooke, Kristina and their
dad)
might move to Portland, Oregon. AHHHHHH MAKE ME DIE. Nikki said it's
not YET
done in cement though cause her dad is getting the same salary and he
wants
to get more, cause he has to move his entire family to OREGON, ya know?
Out
of all places, she'd have to move all the way there. That's SO far from
here. and I have no other school girl friends but those 3.
I gotta go:(
Marissa
May 20
Hey Journal,
OMG I've been SICK. It started on friday night, I was at Nikki's and I
felt sick a bit and I asked Ms.Moore if I could come home or stay there if
she didn't mind me being sick and she said I could stay there but I decided
to go home still since I didn't wanna be sick and be a burden. I got home,
was sick a bit all night, competed in the intersquad, got sick there too, I
went to workout on sunday, got sick and went to bed. Now I feel like a
million bucks, ready to rock. Weird, huh? Anyway, I spoke to some of my
siblings lol Katie finally made the real national team in synchro swimming, she's so happy and she's moved to Etobicoke, Ontario to train now. Carson is now the national champion in 50 free and I'm back at topo and doing rather
awful, actually. I was 13th I think in the intersquad but considering I had to
puke twice in the meet, it's all good. I love my squad though, Lara,
Danielle, Cameron, Kelly, Jennie and anyone else I'm forgetting (I keep mixing up my old squad and this one, I miss Sarah!!) are so awesome. I need to go tell them I'm agreeing to using the snake as our mascot and I think I need to go
apologize because I've been mean these past few days. I was feeling so sick and
they were talking about animals and I swear, I cannot live in the same house
as a dog or a cat or anything with fur or I will die with puffy eyes and a
runny nose. I'm deathly allergic and no one seems to get my point, that if
they get all those animals, I'm moving out. Maybe no one actually cares:( I
need to redesign my diary!! YAY I get to redesign my diary:) lol Well, today
we didn't have school cause of teacher meetings and I'm so excited, we're
going to watch SpiderMan with Nikki, Ryan and Brad and I may ask 2 of my Topo
friends to come, since Brad and Ryan are coming with Bryan, Brad's brother
and his girlfriend, Karin. So we have the Moore's van for me, Nikki,
Brooke, Kristina and 2 of my Topo friends that already know the Moores. I was
thinking Sarah and Lara since they already know B, K and Nikki. I spoke to Tasha yesterday. She's anxious for nationals, I really hope she does well.
I don't really like Kristal, the only Parkette I like is Annie I think.
And Alix and Kelly too actually. I like the Hill's girls and Diane too:)
Diane is so awesome and her mum is even more awesome, I remember when I first
moved to WOGA (I was there for about a month, not worth mentionning lol),
Janet was sooo nice to me and made me feel like I was part of the
bunch. But WOGA wasn't for me I guess, cause my dad decided to move me somewhere else like, the next month! I haven't seen my dad for now over 3 months. I sorta miss him. I've seen Mum though, she lives in Montréal now! Yea, her business was opening a branch in Montréal and wanted her to take over so she did. She lives in a penthouse lol I don't think my mum's ever been this wealthy! I think she's actually thinking of buying a house in Westmount. I hear
there's a good gym there, in Westmount so maybe my sisters could move in with
mum. I dunno. Kristen stayed at Hawke and Whitney is at Summerside but I think Summerside is closing anyway, so she'll be gym-less. I think she was thinking of going to Gymnix and staying with mum. OMG I need to go now, it's 12:55 and I'll be late to workout!!
Luv yaz!
Marissa
May 15
heyJ!!!
OMG it feels SO good to be back here!! So much has happened since I
went
home. First of all, I went home to Edmonton for like, 2 days and then I
went
to California to train at pfpg and then Pirouette, then PFPG again,
then
Hawke Academy in Utah. I spent a wonderful weekend with all my sisters
at
the very beginning and then I came home to the gym and started school!
School at West Valley City Junior High was cool but I really missed
Nikki,
Brad, Ryan, Brooke, Kristina and all my friends. I also missed Eva and
Sarah
SO much!! I was pretty happy though, I trained with Lara and Kristen
(!!)
and Amanda, Vada, Arika, Kelly. It was all good but I actually needed
to
come back home, to Topo. It's so good to be back!! I'm still on the Pop
squad, with Lara, Danielle Kelly, Jennie..some other people I
think...lol I
have no short term memory. I went back to Northumberland today,
actually,
and everybody was really happy to see me back! I've missed them all
too,
almost as much as I missed Topo and my teammates. I know I'll miss my
Utah
friends but I mean, I've been there for less than 2 months. I had been
here
for like 6 or 7 months, that's plenty more time to really get attached
to
the town, the people, etc. It's really good to have YOU back tooo!! I
had
missed writing in my journal about all my Topo stuff...Hawke was def.
fun
but I mean, this place!
was tha bomb and life isn't complete without THA BOMB material. lolol
I'm
dumb.
I gotta go!
Marissa
March 3
Hey j!
I've been having lotsa successes these days...the Classic went well,
well I could done better but I fell on BOTH my vaults and I fell on my
Ricna on bars...I won silver on beam and floor, 9.5 on floor and 9.375 on
beam!! YAY, huh? It was os awesome being on the podium with Cameron and
Morgan, 2 of the biggest names here and I was right up there with them,
it was sooo cool! For beam I was on the podium with Sarah so it was
really cool! I'm in my school's pageant today, it'll be really cool, I
hope I can win!!:) My talent is gymnastics, of course but it's all watered
down cuz I'm just doing it on crash mats and stuff. Nikki's competing
in regionals next weekend, I hope they win so they can go to Nationals!!
We're all supposed to go watch but they're in Tennessee and I doubt
I'll get to go, since it IS competition season and all...well I told Nikki
that I'd probably miss it and she said it was ok. Karissa called too
and she's starting competition again!! She has regionals next
weekend, States in April, Nationals in July, hopefully Worlds in
Auguest and a whole bunch of tiny lil compeititons in between. Well, I should
go but i have the next week off for March break so I'll write some
more!!
Luv yaz!!
Marissa
February 3
Yo Journal!!
So ok, today was weird. My dad flew in Indiana to come and take me out to diner. Isn't he the weirdest? lol I loved it but then my stomach hurt cuz I ate SO much. I went to the movie with Brad,Nikki and Ryan,Lara and Dominick and Christian and Sarah!! Sarah and Lara from gym!! WOAH!! yea, it was AWE FRICKIN SOME!! We had sooo much fun and I spoke to Dom and he likes lara!! YAY!! Chris likes Sarah too. Lara is a real student now! She's goin to Beringer. I wish she coulda come to Northumberland with me and everybody! I wore my really dark tommy jeans with the TH in white on my pockets, my light blue superstars and my really cool blue long sleeved shirt with a lil sparkle in it and my rainbow t-shirt that has Muffin written on it and sparkles and really flashy everythigns over the blue shirt .And the rainbow belt with fake rhinstones OF COURSE. lol
My hair was its usual curly self and it was really wild lol I had to put it in a messy ponytail and Lara put some foamy stuff in it and it looked rrreaaalllly nice I loved it.
Well I should go for a little while and go socialize a bit, I just spoke to Sarah online and she is at the IVGCC Classic, having fun! The RCA Challenge is in not really too long and I can';t wait!! I need to get in the competitive spirit again! I love competing and this is great but there is a lot more competition now with everybody coming back to topo and stuff and I need to work harder to keep up my good rankings. Don't worry, they don't know me yet, I'm a fighter and the less you give me, the more I want. And I ALWAYS get what I want.
Luv yaz!!
*Marissa*
February 1 #2
Hey!
WOW, workout was great!! I caught pretty much everythign and I started
working on some more difficult moves and connecting more stuff instead
of having like ONE BIG move...I wanna connect a tkatchev and a gienger
on bars and then maybe a pak, I can do the tkatchev and gienger but the
pak I still need to work on to get the effect we want. I can't wait to
go to the movies with Brad and Nikki and Ryan is coming now too! I
kinda like that cuz Nikki won't feel like a 3rd wheel but we were 3
musketeers, we just can't be four:( So I think I'll ask Alyssa and Jess and
all them to come and help me choose what to wear, along with Lara of
course!! Maybe I'll ask Lara if she wants to come and get one of our guy
buds to come so it won't be a date anmore but more of a group thing. I
want more of my school friends to get to know my teammates, they're all
SO great. I know Brad and Nikki love Lara cuz she came to our school
formal and we hung out...ugh gotta go it's late and I need el sleepo!!
Luv yaz!!
Marissa
February 1
Hey Journal!
Sup? I'm doing JUST FINE!! I'm so exicted about getting 2nd in the
Intersquad meet!! It was a really big step up for me, I'm in the game now!!
I've been working on my routines a lot and stuff and I think I'm really
back this time, I'm doing awesome, nothing hurts and I dunno, there's
this special feeling inside when I'm in the gym that just goes "work
work work!!". LARA IS BACK!!! I'm SOOOO happy and I need to talk to her
about everything!! Brad and Nikki and me are going to see a movie
tonight, Brad's big brother, Brady, is driving us this time, instead of
Ms.Moore(Nikki's mum). Ms.Moore drives us 3 musketeers everywhere!! She's a
stay at home mum and that's all she does lol drive us and nikki's 2
sisters, Brooke and Kristina around.
Brad has 2 brothers too, the other one, Brian is older and he's in
college at Stanford. Brooke and Kristina often hang out with us cuz they're
just a year older(Kristina) and younger(Brooke) than us. Marine and
Arielle are doing fine, I spoke to Virg today on the phone and she said
that she's starting training again!! I'm so happy for her but she said
she might not go elite again though, she just doesn't know. She's old
though, but she's in the best shape and she's never had any big injuries
so she's still just fine! Me on the other hand, I don't think I'll make
it to 20, let alone 30!! lol Nikki and Ryan are going out!! I'm so
happy for Niks cuz she always says that I'm the lucky one, that I went to
the olympics and I have a bf and now she has one too and she made the
cheerleading team. The cheer team at our school is really good, they're
state champs and they went to nationals but one of the stunts girls fell
on one of the guys and she broke her arm and he had a concussion!
and everything so they didn't compete, for their sakes.
I spoke to Annie on the computer yesterday, she competed at the PKI and
she did AWE-SOME!! I'm so happy for her, she's truly one of the best at
parkettes right now. I spoke to Cassie too and she did pretty good
there too! She caught her jeager and she did pretty good overall but she
stumbled on floor and ending up practically falling on her face, poor
thing. I love Cassie:) I think I'll be going home to Edmonton for march
break, everybody's getting off and going there. Dad will be in Beijing on
business all week and well, Virginie said we'd better go to Edmonton
since she and Chris and Mari and Ari were gonna be at home and Chris
doesn't have march break so she said it'd be better if we just stayed with
our mum. She's so nice. I gotta go workout some more but I'll get back
to ya when I come back!!
Luv yaz!!
Marissa
January 19
Hey J,
I'm in **drum roll** SEVENTH PLACE!!! YAYAYAY!! Yea, it's really cool, I just missed the Dual meet by one measly spot!! And I just came back!! Imagine just HOW MUCH damage I can make once I'm really back and settles in!! yee-haw! I got my braces off and my retainers HURT. I went to a tiny party last night to celebrate the end of our semester, Nikki making the team and Brad making the team and we celebrated my return to topo/olympics/return to semi-normal life lol My friends all said I didn't have a normal life during the training for the OG. Ok, so I didn't really. But it was really all worth it! I loved my olympics:) I gotta go now cuz I don't have a thing left to say lol
Luv yaz!
Marissa
January 17 #2
WOO-HOO!! I just came back and I'm already in 10th place n
rankings!! Just a couple more days and you'll see, I'll be back on top,
where I belong!! I am sooo happy:) I gotta go now but I'll try to write
more about my day and how retainers are fun *sarcastic laugh* lol
Luv yaz!!
Marissa
January 17
Hey Journal!
Sup, I'm bored. I'm sick a bit so I'm staying home from school. I went
to workout still but I didn't work a whooolllle lot. I'm tired. I think
I'll go to bed again after this. I'm getting my retainer this
afternoon! School has been quite a drag these days. I dunno why, it just is.
Well, Nikki made the cheerleading team that;s goin to nationals. So she's
all "bring it on" on me and she's constantly in the gym practicing. I
guess I get a taste of my very own medicing lol. Brad finally made the
temporary honor roll. It's like a preview of who could be on it when
scores are in and he got in. He was really happy cuz now he can make the
varsity volleyball team. Did I tell you how Virginie, my dad's new
fiancee, has a son that's my age?! His name is Christopher and he grew up in
Britain, but was born in France. He's really cool, we hung out when I
went home and he's the bomb. We played lotsa Xbox!! He got it for
christmas. I got a new laptop, a real computer for the gym, an MP3 pla!
yer, clothes, new leos, more stuff. I got some cool stuff from mum too
but she went bigger on clothes...I got 3 pair of tommys I love, 4 roots
sweat-shirts...and OMG Carson got this poster autographed by all the
Canadian olympic team members...Kate Richardson, Yvonne Tousek, Julie
Beaulieu,Emilie Fournier,Michelle Conway,Lise Leveille and Crystal
Gilmore!! Katie got me a gift certificate...for roots of course:) and Morgan(swimmer that trains with my bro and sis) gave me a lil teddy bear he got at the olympics. He's really nice,
a total big brother figure lol Now I gotta go!! for real!!
Luv yaz!!
Marissa
January 16
Hey Journal!!
I know, I know, I said the 1st of february but I miss it and everything's alright. I didn't get the surgery after all. My Edmonton doc said that my knee wasn't as bad as we though(the pain isn't either) and everything's fine. The back spasms are gone and the hand infection...I can live with that lol SOOOOO much stuff has happened since I last wrote in here. I MADE THE OLYMPIC TEAM!!! YAYAYAY!! Then we thought I had torn my ACL and stuff but that's not for real anymore. My dad and his girlfriend got twins...2 girls, Marine and Arielle. His girlfriend is from Britain but she was born in France. Her name is Virginie and she's much cooler than we thought she was!! She used to be a gymnast too, for the Great Britain team. She's short lol like 4'9" and she's like 30 somethign!! I'm gonna go watch the Canadian Cup with me mum in Toronto because she has a business meeting there and then I'm back!! I'm gonna start training a bit at Ortona so I'll get points for rankings here. Ortona was my old gym. I was so happy to see all my old friends from there, especially Amanda. She was my best friend at gym and I hadn't seen her in AGES. This semester is almost over!! I have more math, more french(I'm in the most advanced french class @ Northumberland!!), pre-chem, dance, law and something else I can't remember...dance is a half class and law is too...so maybe that's it. I can't wait to go back to gym!! I might ask coach to rework my routines a bit, I want more excitement=). Well, I should go and study a bit more!! OOOH and I took my braces off aerlier this week!! It feels sooo good=) and also, I went to watch my friends (Amanda, Laura-Ann, more of em) compete at a local meet!! It was sooo fun!! Amanda won the elite comp and Laura-Ann won the high performance novice...that's like national elite in the US.
Luv yaz!!
Marissa who's soooo glad to be back!!
December 5 #2
WARNING: THIS EPISODE OF MARISSA'S FUNKY JOURNAL MIGHT OFFENSE
PROUD AMERICANS. HOWEVER, MARISSA WILL NOT STOP LIVING FOR THAT AS SHE
IS A PROUD CANADIAN!!
A first grade teacher explains to her class that she is an American.
She asks her students to raise their hands if they were
American too. Not really knowing why but wanting to be like their
teacher, their hands explode into the air like flashy fireworks. There is,
however, one exception. A girl named Kristen has not gone along with
the crowd. The teacher asks her why she has decided to be different.
"Because I am not an American." "Then", asks the teacher, "What are
you?" "I'm a proud Canadian," boasts the little girl. The teacher is a
little perturbed now, her face slightly red. She asks Kristen why she is
a Canadian. "Well, my mom and dad are Canadians, so I'm a Canadian
too." The teacher is now angry. "That's no reason," she says loudly. "What
if your mom was a moron, and your dad was a moron. What would you be
then?" A pause, and a smile. "Then," says Kristen, "I'd be an American."
LOL that one is GOOOOOD!!! I'm feelin a bit better now really, my uncle
is going to a better place, where he won't get any heart attacks, ever
again.
Luv yaz!
Marissa
December5
They just took uncl sam off life support. I'm crying for the
100 time this week. It shoulda been such a happy week, instead, it's the
worst week of my life! Bradley is awesome though, he's so cool and he
makes me laugh everytime we talk. We talk on the computer and on the
phone a lot and today he came to topo with me:) He met all the girls and
he thought they were all awesome, he loved hangin out with Lara cuz he
used to play violin too! Now he plays volleyball for our school. I bet
he'll get along JUST FINE with Casey and Charky. That is IF charky can
play again, the docs found out that she did something worse than what
they thought she did to her ankle and now they think they might have to
do surgery and stuff. Well, I'm off to math class and YAWN I'm tired and
I wanna go home! OH Lara woke me up SO early today! She was like UP UP
RISSY!! It's time and it's a great day today!! HOW cna you not feel a
lil happy with a roomie like her?! She's SO awesome:) I also hung o!
ut with Sarah yesterday and I spoke to Eva. She thinks she might come
back soon!! I can't wait! We have a new trial member and she's really
cool, her name is Colombe Manuel and she's 12! I sure hope she can move
to topo soon! Also, my cousin Taegan is here!! She's on trial but she's here and it's sooo cool to have some family here with me!! She's really cool, she's 12 and really sweet! Well I'm feelin much better now, I better go and call my cutie:)
Luv yaz!
Marissa
*I luv Bradley*
December 2 #2
Hey J,
It's late. I can't sleep. I don't think Lara can either, she's just
layin in her bed lookin at the ceiling. I dunno why, I don't feel like
talkin. I'm listenin to some music on my CD player. I'm listenin to How
you reming me by Nickelback and Life by Our Lady Peace...well one after
the other hehe. Oh and also Alone in the universe by David
Usher.
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
I've been wrong, I've been down
To the bottom of every bottle
Despite words in my head
Scream "Are we having fun yet?"
It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
Me and Brad got back together. I don't know why. I just love being
with him, he makes me feel safe when my whole life is falling
apart.
My dad called to say that his new girlfriend...she's pregnant. With
possibly twins. Tell me how I'm supposed to get over the fact that he
cheated on my mother with a young woman who's now pregnant with his
child(children)...this is just a very wrong day.
Til next time.
December 2
Hey J,
Major MAJOR weird things happenin here and all of em are dilemnas for me:( MAH EVA GIRLIE IS GOOONNNEEEE:(
It's funny how I always felt srrounded by friends and now just Eva and Krista are gone and I feel empty and ALONE. Lara is doing a great job at cheering me up but I can't seem to get back on top:(
Lara is keeping me company, giving me kleenex and Arika, Morgan, Madison and Alyssa came by. I'm so sad. Eva moved to Moose Trax Borders Gymnastics and now she trains with Krista, Whitney and Kristen! And Anna. I'm SOOOOOO SAD and WEIRD. Like, what am I gonna do without Eva? She was my right hand! The only one who could cheer me up, the ONLY one who could get me through those LONG conditionning sessions. Making the Olympic team is a small thing compared to losing my best friend. She's only been gone for a day and already, I've called her about 4 times. I know I shouldn't be like this, people come and go especially in this sport but it's just too weird. So many people have left. Krista and Eva were 2 of my very best friends at the gym and now it's like I'm some kinda stranger!
Arika came by after and we cried , her because she didn't make the team adn me cuz I lost my very best friend. Then she left and Lara asked me if I wanted to be alone...I said yes. I cranked up my Alicia Keys CD and cried my anger and my pain out.
Lara is awesome though. She made me feel really good about this.I'm gonna give you a lil lyrics from my 'Licia Keys CD.
*You always gotta try, no matter how long it should take*
*So, what it took me like 2 years and shit but I'm feeling prepared,and I'm feeling a lil more ready for the world and less lost*
Well, gotta go but I'll be be back for sure.
November 26 #2
Hey J,
I'm not happy at all, I'm ni 7th after all my hard work. I can't believe I'm not even in full olympic contention. It's so awful to see that everything I've done has no effect whatsover on my olympic selection! I don't believe this!
My friends from my old gym, Nelleigh, Kyleigh and Jayleigh made the Vega team. Kristen made the Summerside Team. Eleni is still in contention for the ISGA team. I feel like such a bum right now, I just wnat to go hang out with non-gym people, I think I'm gonna call Nikki and see what she's doing. Nikki is my school bud and she knows nothing about gym, no one at Northumberland does, I'm the first gymnast they've ever had! Well I know I can call her while bieng online but I don't feel like bieng online cuz all I ever see is gymnastics so I'll go call her on my cell in the rec room and probably go hang out outside, take a deep breath or else, I dunno if I'll make it through. BTW, my uncle is in a coma, he's my favorite uncle, we share the same birthday. He had a bad heart attack and doctors don't know if he'll come back or not. Add that to my parents divorcing and my sister breaking her ankle and my houston school friend getting hit by a car and klled, I'm in the worst shape ever:( I dunno if I'll stay here if I don't make the team, so many bad things have happened and I need some down time, I'll be back for sre but when...I'm not sure. I'm not sure about anything right now and all I can say is, I can't wait for christmas break! I'm spending a week with dad in Houston and week with mum in Edmonton and everybody else is doing he same thing. I sure missed everybody, I'm so happy to see my sibs again:)
November 26
I'm at school so can't write long, I'm in 7TH!!:(:(:( I can't
believe I,ve been that lazy! I gotta get to work and fast! Well, that's
it for now but I'll be back FOR sure as I have mucho things to tell
ya!!
Luv yaz my favorite journal!!
Marissa
November 18 #2
Hey J!
I'm just checkin in, I'm tired and we're all gonna go watch Legally Blonde in my dorm, Karissa,Katie,Carson and Eva. It's real good, I watched it in Houston. We're practically all natural blondes exept Cars and Eva. Eva is like the opposite of me, she's a dark brunette, I'm a blondie:) Well, I better go now cuz I've got some HW to do! Buh bye!
*Marzy*
November 18
Hey j!
Sup? I'm just peachy, I can't believe how composed and calm I am like not even a week before trials! I hung out with Karissa,Carson,Katie and Eva today! Jess came by and hung out too...Katie and Karissa we're my best friends at home and I've missed them so much! We meditated like we always did...they of course brought candles and stuff lol. Carson is like, WOAH this is my dream, I'm in a room full of girls lol. I was like DO NOT think about my 12 year old friends like that LOL. He hung out with some of the older girls and he actually conditionned with us LOL Eva did more V-ups then him! I think he has a crush on Cameron! He's like, who is she? And I'm like, that's Cameron Noon and she's cool so I say hey Cam, that's my bro Carson, my sis Katie and my bud Karissa. And he's all shy and stuff. LOL I'd love that if it wasn't that Cars still likes Eleni!!! Ok, maybe he doesn't. But she still likes HIM. Ok, maybe she doesn't. I think I'd like Cameron and Carson together...but I'm goign way too far, he just said hi to her lol. Wel, gotta jet! laterz, Marissa
November 16
Hey Journal!
Not too long to wait now for trials! OMG KRISTEN MADE THE SUMMERSIDE OLYMPIC TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIHA!!!! I am sooo happy! Now if Whitney can make the Windmill team, all 3 Wilson gym sisters will be Olympians! OH and Leah is already a rowing olympian. SO it's REALLLY exciting!!! Eva was so sick yesterday she didn't feel well at all and I felt so bad so I brought her some soup and we ate it in her room while watching Friends. I wrote to Karissa and they all planned it and they're coming!!I am so excited! Jenn,Laura,Crystal they're all coming!! And they're bringing Kenny,David, Alex and Ryan with em! It's just too much to handle lol. I'm gonna go now and take a hot shower cuz my back is sore today and then after, I need to work on some HW cuz from now til after the OG, I'm just doing half of school like going at 7 and coming back at 10 and then I get 2 hours of tutoring but just after all my training is done and stuff and only if I'm not too tired or whatever...my teachers, they all understand cuz I'm the first gymnast from topo they've ever had, the others usually go to Holy Rosary but no one else went to Northumberland before. So they all think I'm special lol. My friends from school are all coming too! Nikki is bringing half the town lol. My dad is not coming cuz he's gonna be in Hong Kong at that time:( Oh well, I think I have like 6 of my sisters...lemme see, Kristen called to say that since they've had trials she's gonna come but train here in the meantime and Whitney said she doesn't know yet. Meghan,Casey,Charky and Katie are coming for sure. Carson said he wouldn't miss it for a million bucks and Leah said she has that week off cuz she just competed in a big international meet in Brazil and she's gonna stop here on her way back instead of going back to Vancouver and then coming here.
I should really go now for real lol
Luv yaz!
*Marzy*
November 13
YO journal!!
Well, there's nothing real big going on here, oh yea that's right,
trials.but I'm not too nervous, I'm Yoga-ing like crazy and meditating a
lot too. The grls don't get it so I'm throwing a Yoga-Meditation party so
they can all experience it! lol! That 70's Show has got to be the
funniest show ever. Shut the CHUKKA up LMAO!!! OK, gotta go!
Buh bye!
Marissa
November 10
Hey Journal!
Well here's the news of the day! ME AND EVA ARE 1-2!!!!!!
YAY our dream is finally coming true and WE WILL both make that olympic team!! Don't worry bout that, you'll finally be the Journal of an Olympian!! Well I finally made all my routines official and connected all my moves together. I usually just practice my Ricna,vaults, Cappuciti, double layout to punch front and full in but I got all my moves together and submitted my routines today. I've been practicing them for a while now but I always forgot to submit them! I called mom and dad seperatly for the first time lol. It's pretty weird and sickening but I'll get used to it, it just uses a lot more of my precious time. I also talked to Meghan on the phone and she says she's probably gonna get to come and watch trials!! YAYAYAY!!! I'm so excited! I left a message for Eva in her mailbox cuz she's not here today, she's coming back tommorow! I can't wait, I really miss her!(IRL too, hehe!) I'm listenin to Alicia Keys, a Woman's Worth and it's so good! I think my dad is trying to feel good about the seperation cuz he bought me and Meghan cell phones and he got me DSL on my computer here and he got all kinds of different lil things for everybody lol. He doesn't understand that we don't hate him OR mom for divorcing, everybody in this world gets divorced and we were just lucky to still have a family even though it WAS a weird one lol. Like the whole thing with my mum and dad and then mum dying with Casey and Charky's dad and us keeping Charky and Casey and then dad marying my mum(Cheryl) and then getting more sisters like Leah, Katie and Meghan and Carson coming along. I never told you about Carson, right? Well his dad was my real mom's only and twin brother and Carson's mom left a long time ago, well my uncle died in 1989 I think and Carson's been with us ever since. He was just like 4 or 5 and he doesn't really remember well. Did I tell you how great DSL is? I downloaded a BUNCH of songs!! In like 3 minutes lol!!
Well my dad got me Adobe Photoshop on here so I can make graphics! Right now I'm still using my old program cuz I don't really GET Adobe yet and I have no time to stop and try so I'll get used to it someday. I went to Nicole's place today to work on french cuz I know lots and lots of french cuz I did french immersion back in RD. So I helped her with our french project cuz I did my part already. Her mother reminds me of my mum, she's so cool! Well, look at the time!
Gotta jet, luv yaz!
*Marzy*
November 9 #2
Hey Journal, wassup?
Well I'm bored, Eva is gone for her mile run and I decided to never ever go back with her cuz she runs SO fast and I can't run that fast especially not with my knee and everything! I'm happy bout the new rankings cuz eva's first and it means that I haven't gone down or anything cuz I'm still technically at the same spot I was cuz it was Jess and me and now Eva's in first and I'm in third so I got pushed down, but I didn't move down by myself ya know? Alicia Keys' CD is so cool, I love Jane Doe,A woman's worth, Girlfriend, Caged Bird and Fallin. The other ones are still to get used to lol.
I spoke to Carson on the phone and him and Katie are moving to Calgary this weekend. So no Wilson kid is living at home anymore lol. Where ever home is. I still call Houston home...but I can call Edmonton home too cuz it's so close to my old home, Red Deer. Well ya see, there's Edmonton up north and then RD and then even lower there's Calgary. So Cars and Katie are pretty far from mum. But it's ok, Katie used to live all the way in Atlanta and mum and dad lived in Houston so she's used to it. Cars may find it weird cuz he's never been away from home like us. I don't know why our whole family is everywhere and stuff...I know it's cuz of sports but I don't know why we all have different sports. I wonder why our entire family wasn't a gym family. Probably cuz my mum was never into not letting us express our identities and stuff. So that's why when Leah asked for a belly button piercing, mum gave her the money AND went with her to make sure she was going somewhere neat. I can have one when I'm 14.I've dyed my hair once, to brown, well light brown. My sisters decided that I should "drop the cali look" and dyed my blonde hair to brown lol.It was cute though but it bugs me cuz I don't look the same in my gym pics sometimes I'm a brunette and some other times I'm a blondie lol. I guess having so many older sisters made me older faster kinda. I'm still very immature but they made me try stuff like dying my hair when I was like 10. Carson and me are real close though. Closer than any of my sisters and Carson. I'm close to all of em really, I guess being the tiny lil sis got me all this. Having my sisters and my bro is the best thing. They're everything to me and sometimes I feel like they're more important to me than my own parents or stuff. My friends are great too. I had so many great friends back in RD but we were so young I guess it wasn't the same. My Houston friends are really important too. Karissa was like my own sister! Me and Katie and Karissa used to hang out ALL the time. But then Katie and me, we both moved out at the same time. She moved to Atlanta and I moved here. Casey and Charky have been gone for ages, I don't even remember real well the time they were still home. It's cuz their volleyball thing wasn't like for elites only, it took em from the begining and formed them. I had to wait to be elite to come here and so did Katie. Meghan moved to NYC for ballet like 5 years ago. She's really good. She's sooo tall, she's like a foot and a half taller than me lol. She's also like 4 years older too and never did anything that would hurt her growth cuz she wanted to be tall enough to be an elegant ballerina. Kris is like 5 feet tall and Whit is close to that as well, I'm by far the shortest at 4'2"! Katie is like 4'11" and Casey and Charky are like...too tall lol. Both like 5'6"!
OMG it's way too late I gotta go!
Buh bye!
*Marzy*
November 9
Hey Journal!!
Well great news round here, EVA IS FIRST!!!! OMG!!! I stuck with the
same position behind Jessica who is 2nd so I'm 3rd. OMG I just got a cell
phone!! YEAH my dad bought it for me cuz now he says I'm hard to
reach!! He's way harder to reach lol. Well I should go cuz I still have to go
workout and eat and go buy new batteries for my CD walkman cuz they're
ALREADY dead!!
Buh bye!!
Marissa
November 8
20 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! OMG this is sooo exciting!!! Well I went
and conditionned with Eva and we figured that I'm arms-o-steel and she's
tummy-o-steel. I won handstand push-ups and push-ups and she won V-ups
and crunches. I talked to my budz from home on the phone, David and
Crystal, Jennifer and Kenny! They were my budz from school back when I
was still in Tx!! I also got a call from Sheila and Larissa, my budz from
back home in Alberta!! It was such a flashback night! lol I miss em but
I'm gonna go see em now that my mum lives in edmonton. Yeah, she moved
yesterday. Sickening. I gotta go write letters to my bro and sisters
about this crap. Buh bye!
*Marzy*
November 7
Hey Journal! 21 days til my bday!! I'm so excited, I'm finally
gonna be a real teenager!! Well, thank god for Eva she's so cool. She's
like, my 2nd best friend here. But we hang out a lot. Like we do
conditionning together everyday!! Today, we did conditionning AND trained
together so we spot each other and it helps me a whole lot!
OOH and I almost forgot I went an ran a MILE with her!! OMG I am not
good at running!! lol
I got letters from Meghan,Kris and Carson!! LOL me and Eva talked about
how boys are stupid lol She's so cool really, she reminds me of Katie
or Karissa back home, like how we used to agree all the time and now I
don't see em so much and I guess Eva is just the perfect replacement! I
miss Karissa though cuz we were like the best of friends and now she's
like never there cuz she has her own sport and I'm always here training
like a crazy fool. School is getting so hard I got my report card today
and I got A in pre-algebra ,A in advanced french(I speak it fluently
from french immersion in RD!!), A in history and As in my half periods:
english and science!!! I feel SO smart! So I'm staying on the honor roll
AND I'm doing awesome in my honors classes!! But I don't get no sleep
cuz I have SOOO MUCH HW!!! It's horrible really. I'm talking to Karissa
on the phone right now and she says her back is still weird. She hurt
it real bad at baton(her gymnastics) and she was in a back brace!
for ages.
WOAH g2g!! I got some HW to do!!
Luv yaz!!
*Marzy*
November 6
AHH JOURNAL!!! I'm 2ND IN THE RANKINGS!!!!
I'm so happy right now it made me forget that my mum is moving out this
week! I went to watch a movie on friday with Eva and OMG when we went
to see the rankings we were like jumping up and down and hugging like
crazy fools. Then we went to the mall and I bought Alicia Keys' CD and a
new pair of Tommy Jeans and they totally rock my world!!
OH I gotta go now and get some sleep!
Luv yaz mah journal!!
*Marzy*
November 1
UGH I promised myself not to let mum and dad's divorce affect
me but it's such a big deal. I'm not letting it affect me in a bad way
though, I'm JUST as social as I was and I'm doing great in school AND
in gym. Mum's coming to trials and dad's trying to get off work. All my
sisters exept Kristen are coming cuz Kristen's trials are at the same
time as mine:) SHE MIGHT GO TO THE OG!!! OMG this is sooooooo exciting!!
Mum and Dad said they'd come here cuz Kristen told em she didn't care
as much as I did. Lara is gone to the winter cup and I competed in the
SA meet with Sarah. Me and Sarah are becoming great friends...me and Eva
too!! Eva is so cool, she's like my idol:) It's fun that she's like
close to me in rankings cuz we're not competing or anything...ok it's NOT
FUN but it's fun for now...it's weird, being back alone in the dorm...I
wish Lara was here, I miss her!! But oh well, I'm really happy she got
to compete..I hope I get to compete soon:) Well...maybe I should!
n't compete before the olympics cuz everytime I compete, I get hurt.
Well anyway, I gotta g now but I'll bbl!! FRIDAY TOMMOROW!! NO SCHOOL!!!
YAY, huh?!
October 29 #3
Hey Journal,
My parents are divorcing. It's official. I wondered why when we went
home, my dad let me sleep in my mom's bed. LOL now I know why!
I'm sad but I'll survive, the bigest thing about this is where to stay,
who to stick with, My dad is my real biological dad and my mum isn't
but I can't dump my mum for that, she raised me! And what about my
sisters now, they all feel real even though Casey,Charnalle and Meghan are
from my mum and Katie and Leah are from my mum's husband that died in the
car crash with her. OMG it's 12 and Lara's sleeping, don't wanna wake
her up!!
See yaz!
I'll tell ya more bout this whole ordeal after.
October 29 #2
Hey Journal!
So ok, I go to school and Bradley is there, waiting for me and he says:
"Marissa, I think I don't like you anymore" so I'm like "hmm...well
maybe you should make up you mind" and then he said well, maybe I do like
you and it went on and o n I coulda fallen asleep. I think I'm better
off without a bf cuz I called Meghan and she was crying cuz her bf
dumped her. She went out with him for AGES I swear and then he just dumped
her like last night's supper leftovers?! NO WAY I'm not gonna be like
Meghan. I'm gonna be like Leah cuz she's totally dedicated to rowing and
she said she's gonna get married ONLY after she's done rowing. Ok, I
g2g, I'll write later!!
October 29
Hey Journal!
OH WOW, I am soooo sleep deprived these days!! Lara and me stayed up
til like 4 talkin and I think it's bad for my health(mental and physical
lol) but I love love love rooming with her. I think we're gonna
redecorate soon cuz me and Alexa never did so my room is still white and ugly.
I'm 12th and it's disapointing but I guess it kinda lit a fire inside
me and it pushes me now to get higher and higher.2 meets were scheduled
and I'm still not competing and I guess it gets on my nerves. I need to
get my ass out there and compete and train a lot too. OOH BTW, Carson
told me my rents wanna buy the lil tan house...I sure hope they don't
cuz it's ugly and small. I think they wanna get rid of all of us to get a
tiny house. YUCK!!
OH well, I g2g now! I'm at school, on my laptop!
Bye!
October 26<
AHHHHHH!!! LARA IS WITH ME!!!
Ok, I think you knew that already but still, it's THAT exciting!! UGH
my new laptop has a weiiiiird keyboard. OMG Bradley told me he likes
me!! I think we're goin out!! YEAH It's exciting. I'm real tired though
cuz of all the HW I've been gettin cuz of honor classes and extra
workouts...I can't wait til I get a lil sleep! Not before the olympics
though!! I'm goin, don't worry!! Sana called and she's havin fun in PEI and
she said Kris is one of the best in the whole gym!! I'm so happy for Kris
so maybe later she'll get a scholarship to college and compete in gym!
Whit is not having fun at Windmill though...I'm sad:( But Whit never
loved gym like me and Kris so maybe she's not happy cuz she doesn,t
wanna be happy. I dunno. I better go check if I got some mail from Cars!!
See yaz!
Marissa
October 25
Hey Journal!!
Sup man?! Well the deal is today, I have a crush on a guy that's in my
class. His name is Bradley and he's really cute:) I don't think he
likes me though...I think he likes Sarina. But it doesn't matter if he
likes her, I can't force him to like me. OMG Winston told me he likes
me...well I'm sorry I like Bradley...can't like 2 guys at the same time,
huh? I still haven't heard from Carson, I think he's scared to write back
cuz he's still with Taneigh. YUCK. OMGGGGG I'm with Lara now!! Yeah,
Alexa's gone and Lara moved in here!! Isn't it GRAND?! IT IS!!
I'm so happy, excited, name it!! We did conditionning together and it
was So MUCHO fun. I've been workin on my website too, I like it now.It's
hot pink!!! YAY, huh?!
Ok, I g2g but I'll bbl!
See yaz!
October 24 #2 2001
Hey Journal!!
Sup?! well, here I'm pretty busy these days!I'm training like a
fool,going to therapy between school and training,writing to my peeps,trying
to be social here at the gym...I'm busy that's all I can say! lol Well,
mid terms are coming up real soon and I'm spendin all my extra time
trying to study so I can keep my grades as high as they can be:) I spent
last night in Sarah and Moranda's room and I'm trying to find out with
who I'm sleepin tonight! I talked to Eva and we both decided we should
make the olympic team...I SO wanna make it.My sisters are all pretty
happy and it's so cool, Charky's ankle is still hurt,Meghan is back in NY
doing her ballet thing,Leah is on the rowing national team in Canada,
Katie is doing great in synchro swimming, Casey is still in Cali with
Charky doin their volleyball and Kris and Whit are both training in
gymnastics:) Carson is SO weird, he was going out with Eleni, my friend
Soula's sister(eleni trains at International Stars, she's a senior elite!
) for like 2 years, dumps her, goes out with this blond bimbo and then
decides to get back with Eleni only she's not real ready to take him
back cuz he just dumped her ya know so he goes out wth like 5 different
girls in like 3 weeks and now of course, Eleni wants him back but he
won't cuz he's "in love" with Taneigh, a girl from home who I hate cuz
she's always been mean to everybody. WHERE IS MY BIG BROTHER, the cool
guy?! Ok, I'm done. I'm gonna go write to my cool bro and try to influence
him into leavin that witch and goin back to Eleni...or anyone else!
See yaz!
Marissa
October 24 2001
WOW I competed in the squad meet and OMG I got the highest
vault score!! I'm real happy bout this and I gotta go now!!
See yaz
later!!
October 23 2001
Hey Journal!!
OMG I am such a lazy bum!! I haven't written in here since
like...before I got hurt!!
AGES I swear, AGES!! Ok, what's been goin on in my life...I had an
appointement with my orthopedic surgeon and we took off the brace and I
just need to tape my knee when I train now...he said no big spectacular
dismounts and stuff but I'm ok.I am so excited!! Kristen now trains at
Summerside Gymnastics Training Center in Prince Edward Island!! She is
sooo lucky, PEI is so cute and cozy.But, I'm an Indiana girl now! lol
Whitney's been havin probs at Windmill(she's not getting the emails) and
Charky hurt her ankle playin beach volleyball...volley freaks! lol OMG I
got a letter from mum and dad!! I was sooo happy! I'm still mad they
went to Red Deer without me! OMG Alberta(my home province) got snow
today!! AHHHHH!! I kow isn't it weird?! I miss my good old snow...do we get
snow in Indiana? I kow we don't in Texas..this is my first winter out
of Texas or Alberta...I've only had extra wintery winters(Red Deer lol)
or extra hot winters(Houston). I think Indiana's interesting though!
..it's like stuck between Houston and Red Deer! OMG I forgot to tell
ya, my mum and dad are gettin a new house!!
I'll write more later, gotta go eat!!
Luv yaz,
Rissy
September 28
JOURNAL!! MY BDAY IS IN EXACTLY 2 MONTHS!!!
I love you!! I love everyone!! I MISS CARSON!! I MISS MY SISTAHS!! Well
this is a short story cuz I am now going to go get a snack in the
cafeteria and then go watch a movie with the girls!! OH and I may have to
get surgery on my knee!:(
September 25 2001<
Hey Journal,
How's it goin,Marissa? How are you taking it? Are you sad? UGHHHH. YES I AM SAD.
HOW AM I taking it? How CAN I?! I'm super happy for everybody who did make the team but I'm so disapointed in myself. What did I do wrong? Why did I have to hurt my knee? Why did I have to rush back to training and hurt it again? I almost got sick to my stomach when i saw the results...I missed being the alternate by like 0.05. I wanted to make the team so bad...I guess it would've made me feel more part of the group. I'm sooo happy for Arika,Jess,Sarah,Maddie and Morgan(is that the team?) but I'm so angry at myself for being such a geek!!
I should've known that I would never make my mother proud! You'll see, journal, I'm gonna make that olympic team for mommy even if I have to walk through fire. I'll be 13 by then. I may have to go for surgery on my knee because it still
hurts and it bothers me all the time.I called home to tell them the bad news and Carson is on his way to come to see and comfort me. He's home-schooled so he can take that time off to come to see me.I talked to Eva and we both decided that we're gonna make the olympic team together but what if I get hurt before? WAH life is so hard when you want something and you can't control if you get it or not. I know some peeps say it's all up to you, train hard and you'll get it but I DID TRAIN HARD!! I trained my hardest and I still didn't make the team so what if my skill level is just not high enough?! I never expected to make worlds until everybody started adding me on their list...like they thought I had a chance but did I? I mean, I now I finished JUST out of the team but I dunno...I'm just trying to find a way to make myself feel better about this. Well gotta go eat!
Luv yaz and DON'T worry I'll BE ON THAT team at the Olympics!
September 21
Hey Journal!
I'm not as tired as yesterday YAY!! I gotta do workout though! I worked on my site a little but I'm slow..like turtle-slow. I guess I'm too tired to even think of a layout and stuff. I went to school today and a guy in my class said he likes me...and I think he's cute but I don't have time not even for a cute boy. Well I gotta go now!
Luv yaz!
September 20
Hey Journal!
I'm tired. I just came home from school and I guess thursdays are worst than anything else! I worked out this morning but I still have to do extra workout and maybe even dance. I dunno, I still have to write to Kris and Leah and I gotta go get some batteries for my CD player and go eat lunch! AHHH all that PLUS homework!! UGH UGH UGH. Homework is really bad these days and I'm just in 6th grade! I can't imagine what it's gonna be like when i'm like a junior or a senior! Kris has decided that she's gonna go to UCLA but not on a gymnastics scholarship or anything, she's just gonna go as a student. Sh wanted to go on a gym scholarship but she tore her ACL and she's not really back to the shape she was in a couple months ago and she has to go to college someday, injured or not! Leah is still rowing in Vancouver and having the time of her life! She's gonna go to the University of British Columbia after she graduates. Meghan wants to skip college and go for the American Ballet Company. I'm not really sure if I'D do that though, at least in gym you can get scholarships and still get an education.I'm scared of college, I'm not sure if I wanna think about that right now.I still have 6 years of school left, so I just DON'T have to think about college. I'm working on my website cuz the other one well, it's kinda boring, I'm gonna do one that's a little more exciting. My dad is sending me a new laptop BTW and it has some awesome stuff on it! And it's a Mac I think...yup...I'm really excited! Well, I gotta go now but I'll try to write more often!
Luv yaz!!
September 19 2001
Hey Journal!!
I'm at school!! I HATE my laptop, I want a new one..remind me to call Dad so he can send me a new one. Morning workout was ok I guess, but I'm so scared that the little pain in my knee is gonna grow into a big ol wonking monster!! UGH!! I'm still 4th, very excited and I can't wait til weekend!! I g2g now!!
See yaz, Luv yaz!!
September 18th 2001
OMG I'm in 4th!!!!! I've never been happier than I am now!
Arika is still in 3rd right in front of me, Jess is 1st and I think
Caitlyn is 2nd. Eva is right behind me and I just hope I can make the team. I
really don't know what to expect cuz i don't know what hey're looking
at to choose the team, is it a competition format or ar they going to go
with rankings? Journal, I am so lost and excited and nervous and happy.
Mixed feelings ALL OVER!! I miss Carson and Kris,
Whit,Leah,Megz,Casey,Charky and Katie!! OMG our family is being so successful right now, Katie made her synchro swimming A team, Casey and Charnalle are on the junior national volleyball team, Carson won his last meet in like 4 of
his events and was accepted to a great swimming club he never got into
before, Meghan is home cuz her ballet school was WAY close to the WTC AND
she was like a block or 2 from it when it went down and Leah made the
national 8 team. She's a rower and she's like SO buff like not my!
kinda buff I'm small and buff she's like 5'11" and like has MAJOR
muscles. Her arms are the size of my waist! LOL
Woah it's late I g2g write a letter to Ma and Pops! Luv yaz journal!!
Rissa
September 17th 2001
OMG, I feel like I'm on fire these days...someone just made me realize
how close the world trials are...I don't know if I should be thinking about
them but I'm in 8th right now and I'm gonna work my butt off. I'm also SO
happy that my knee is fine now..I guess it just needed a break! I was s o
scared that I'd need surgery and wahtever cuz that would just be the worst
thing right now.I feel so bad for Krista cuz she's out til oct 1. I'm so
happy to be here though it's so much fun I feel liek I'm at a permanent
sleepover with all my best friends!! I miss Soula and Ekaterina and Anna but I
have so many great friends here!! Lara was at KP but she was my best friend,
she quit:( I hope she made the right choice and that leaving the gym makes
her happy cuz after all, it's really no fun to be doing something you don't
really wanna do.My other friends are Eva,Alexa,Arika,Lindsey,Marie,
Sarah,Jess,Moranda..well everybody really!!I just love all of em cuz they're all so great and even if they're all my age, they were all like big sisters
when I first came here and that meant the world to me cuz I was SO scared
that they woldn't like me or just ignore me cuz I was brand new but
they took me right in and I love em for that!! My sister, Meghan, lives in NYC
and she was like a block from the WTC when the planes crashed so she made our parents liek GO OUT of their minds. She called later and now she's home for a week or 2 cuz her teacher said that it would bother her dancing or something. I miss all of em, I wrote a letter to Carson and I just wanted him to be here cuz
I need a hug from my big bro and I called Whitney and she said that she's not sure if she likes windmill or not...she's thinking of moving to a new gym.