| DEAR TAYLOR, AS YOUR 3TH ANGEL DAY APPROACHES AGAIN THIS YEAR, YOUR MOMMIES HEART IS BREAKING. AS IM SURE YOU ALREADY KNOW, YOUR GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY ON 10/04/2004. IM SURE NOW SHE GETS THE PLEASURE OF HOLDING BOTH YOU AND HER SON IN HER ARMS. I GUESS IT ONLY SEEMS FARE THAT SHE WOULD GET YOUR TIME NOW SINCE SHE DID NOT GET TO SPEND ALOT OF TIME WITH YOU WHEN YOU WERE HERE. UNLIKE WITH YOU I KNOW WHY YOUR GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY, PANCREATIC CANCER. I FIGURE BETWEEN MY MOTHER AND FATHER WITH THE TYPES OF CANCER, THINGS DO NOT LOOK WELL FOR ME BUT I CAN NOT WORRY ABOUT WHAT IS IN THE FUTURE BUT ONLY WHAT IS GOING ON WITH TODAY. THIS IS MUCH DIFFERENT THAN WHEN YOU PASSED AWAY, AT THAT IME I HAD THE SUPPORT OF YOUR DADDY AND MY MOTHER, NOW I HAVE ONLY MY HUSBAND. I CAN NOT EXPECT MY CHILDREN TO BE BURDENED WITH WHAT IM GOING THROUGH. YOUR BROTHER STILL TALKES ABOUT YOU AND ASKS QUESTIONS WHICH IS VERY SWEET, I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT HE NEVER FORGETS. AND AS I GLANCED THROUGH PHOTO ALBUMS RECENTLY I SAW SOME PICTURE OF ASHLEY AND THE TOW OF YOU LOOK SO MUCH ALIKE. AND AS ANOTHER YEAR GOES BY WITH NO NEW BABY I HAVE HAD SO MANY THOUGHS, THE ISSUE IS WITH YOUR FATHER, HE SEEMS TO THINK ONCE HE LOOSES THE WEIGHT THINGS WILL IMPROVE WITH YOUR CHANCES. I HAD ORIGINALLY TOLD HIM THAT IF NOTHING WAS ACCOMPLISHED BY THE FIRST OF THE YEAR THAT I WAS SERIOUSLY GOING TO THINK ABOUT DONOR. BUT AS TIME GOES BY I JUST DON'T KNOW. NOW WITH YOUR GRANDMOTHER GONE AND IM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HER FURNITURE, ONE BEDROOM SUIT I WILL BE SETTING UP IN THE SPAIR BEDROOM, (WHICH SHOULD BE YOUR ROOM) WHICH WAS TO BE A BABY ROOM. I EVEN PUT ALL OF YOUR THINGS IN A STORAGE ROOM SO I COULD MAKE MAKE ROOM IN THE GARAGE FOR GRAMA'S CAR. I FEEL BAD EVEN ABOUT THAT, IM SO AFRAID THAT YOUR THINGS WILL GET DAMAGED, I KNOW THAT EVEN IF I HAVE ANOTHER BABY THAT I WOULD NEVER USE ANY OF YOUR THINGS. I STILL HAVE YOU AT HOME AND I GUESS THAT IS WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT. EVEN LITTLE THINGS LIKE FINALLY GOING TO A ATTORNEY TO START A WILL, I REALIZE HOW ALONE I AM IN THE WORLD WITH NO PARENTS AND NO SIBBLINGS. I HAVE TOLD YOUR DADY THAT WE MUST SIT DOWN AND WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN AS FAR AS LAST REQUESTS, HE HAS PROMISED THAT WE WILL. I KNOW HE DOES NOT LIKE TO THINK ABOUT DEATH BUT IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN EVENTUALLY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH BOO-GIRL |
| 3RD ANGEL DAY |