Last Saturday, Marcia J. and my mom helped move me into 217 Brown in Thompson Point at SIU-Carbondale. When they were about to depart and I was saying goodbye to my mom, she broke down into tears and started telling me everything that she had been holding back the entire summer. She said that she hardly knew me anymore because I was almost never home and that she couldn't believe that I stood with my dad and his new wife (my step-mom) at their wedding in Wisconsin. I tried to make her realize that I'm 19 years old and I'm not going to sit around at home when I can be out with my friends having a good time (doing whatever illegal things we can think of.)
She also thought that I had been "fucking everybody" while I was back for the summer, bringing up my "seeing" (or whatever the fuck you want to call it) Katie for a few weeks. I quickly reassured her that I did not have sex with Katie, nor any girl for that matter, not stating the fact that she was still fucking her lunatic ex-boyfriend at the same time.
After a while she finally calmed down and things were ok for the most part. She went on her way to go see the Psycho Slut before she headed back to Dwight and I went to pick up Timmy G. to go pick some shit up at Wal-Mart. That same night me, Timmy, Ryan W., and Josh R. went to a house party and got obliviated.
The first week of school went by fairly quickly. I really didn't pay attention much in any of my classes. I can already say that my R-T.V. class is going to be shitty because once again it covers a lot of bullshit that I'm not interested in. My other classes should be fairly easy though, so hopefully I can pull some more good grades out of my ass this semester like I did last year.
Last night I was surprised to get a call from Eleya. We talked for about 45 minutes, for some reason I feel like I can talk to that girl forever, she's just cool as hell. Who knows what's going to happen with that situation. Eventually me and Timmy G. went to the house parties, it was shitty. I ended up spending $14 on 4 cups of beer, 1 rum and coke, and a sub from Wise Guys that I didn't need (trying to lose weight and tone up so I can increase my chances of getting me a hot ass girl.) So me and Tim came back to my place, smoked, and watched Don't Be A Menace. Another exciting evening in Carbondale.
Today me and Wahly went to Giant City and played some frisbee. It was pretty fun, Wahly is crazy. We went to the Chinese Buffet and talked about old times, little league and all the stupid shit we used to do. It was nice to reminisce, though it made me wish that I was still that age, not having much to worry about. But that's life I guess.
Later on my roommate came up to me and told me he needed to tell me something. He nervously told me that he was gay, which kind of blew me away, and was just hoping that it wasn't going to be a problem. And though it's going to be a little different, I told him it's not a problem, since we get along well anyway. Now I just got to make sure to catch myself when I'm about to say something is "gay" or someone is a fag.
Other Shit:
Last Thursday night was fun, though very sad. I went on a road trip with Grizz, Meg, and Katie. It was great being able to hang out with them one more time before I left and I told them how I had had a great time with them over the summer. When it came time to drop them off it really hit me that the summer was over and that I had to go back to school. Meg and Katie gave me hugs and kisses and said their goodbyes. Katie said that I was going to make her cry and that she was really going to miss me. I really don't get that girl or what she's trying to do. All I know is that she needs to get her priorities straight and grow up a little bit.
After the girls left, me and Grizz sat by our cars for a while talking about all the shit that happened over the summer. I realize now that this summer was by far the best of my life, no matter how drug and alcohol-induced our fun was. It was great to hang out with that grizzly bastard again, we became great friends like we were back in junior high. It seemed like we always knew what each other was thinking over these past few months. I tried to mellow his ass out as much as possible when he would get crazy (about Meg, usually) and he would always be there to watch my back and help me out whenever he could. We're kind of like brothers from another mother. All I know is that it feels good have a true friend out there that isn't a family member. He gave me a big ass bear hug and went on his way to getting drunk.
I went to Eleya's house at the end of the night. We sat out on her car for almost two hours just talking about various things. It sucks that we just started talking the last couple of weeks that I was home. There's just something about that girl, I don't know...I used to have a thing for her in high school and those feelings were starting to resurface again before I left. She's just cool as hell. We started holding each other and kissing a little when I was getting ready to go home. I really don't know what her true feelings are about me or what she wants. I just know that her and Curtis are still kind of...something, I don't know what, and that she doesn't want to be in a relationship with somebody 250 miles away. So who knows what's going to happen there.
Also, Lynsi was pissed at me because I didn't go see her the night before I left. She was out at G's and I didn't really feel like driving out there all fucked up at 2 in the morning. Oh well, she's over it. It was great hanging out with her all summer too, I had a blast in Wisconsin with her. I just hope she finds what she's looking for, if she even knows what it is she's looking for. For all I know, G might be "the one". It's just funny how she was in love with Joel, waiting impatiently for his phone call, just days before she slept with G. It should be interesting to see what unfolds.
To End With: Girls are crazy...I got to take a shit...and smoke a few D-Rods...I'm out
Didn't really do shit else the rest of the night, sat around listening to music, fucked around on the computer. Took a shower in the dark, still don't have lights.
To End With: I need to get a job...to support my drug habit...shit's expensive...Peace