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Wednesday, April 21, 2005


Love,
Tiffany Marie

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
God...so life sure can change in a year, can't it??? I haven't updated here in over a year and my life is a hell of a lot different than it was then...I am still with Eric, we now live together and I know that he is on the verge of proposing!!! I will say yes, obviously!!! I got accepted to nursing school at Lower Columbia College...finally! I am now a VEGAN, believe it or not!!! Please go to peta.org and check out the vid "Meet Your Meat"...I think you will become vegan as well and if you don't after watching that, where the f*ck is your concience? Ok, so a little dramatic, but sorry, I am finally passionate about something other that just *me*...so deal with it!!! Anyways...so, life is going pretty good for me, unlike some people in my family...you know who the two of you are and I hope both of you know that I love you soooo much and I am always here for either of you, for whenever you need me or whatever you need...remember that, ok girls??? I'll try and update more later...

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Tuesday, Febuary 10, 2004
So, my goal is to weigh 124 by May 20th, right? So, for some inspiration to my self I am putting up my virtual models of me at 136 and my goal of 124...thought maybe it would help me out a little! Wish I had more time to write more but I gotta go to work!

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Monday, Febuary 9, 2004
So, I had SOOOO much fun at my little sister's 18th birthday party that I just had to share some of the lovely moments with all of you. Here they are, for all of you to enjoy! I will write more later but I am kinda busy right now, just wanted to share really quick!

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Thursday, Febuary 5, 2004
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY AIMMEE!!! Brett!!! You finally get to come down tommorrow!!! I'm SO EXCITED!!! We are going to have so much fun! Can't wait to see you!

Anyways, I made my fitday.com journal public so you can all keep an eye on my "get fit by May 15th" journey...hopefully it'll keep me on track since I know people will be watching! But depressingly, somehow I put on 5 pounds yesterday!!! I weighed in yesterday morning at 131.5 (I had only had 500 calories the day before so that probably has something to do with it...) and then ended up eating almost a whole medium cheese Domino's pizza (yummy!) and a piece of cake (God! You would think that I thought I was never going to eat again!), so I know in my head that it is mostly water weight (each gram of starch you consume holds on to four grams of water in your bod!) and that it'll all be gone in a couple of days, but damn! 5 freaking pounds in one day!!! But anyways, according to fitday.com, I need to lose .84 pounds per week to make my goal of 124 pounds by May 15th...I can soooo do this and then I can be super hot come summer in my bikini!!!

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Tuesday, January 27, 2004
I'm just sitting here feeling sorry for myself...Eric is out of town working! He was only supposed to be gone until tomorrow night but something happend with the work van today so they didn't get to the city they are working in until after 5pm tonight so no work gone done today which means he will be gone an extra day...HE WON'T BE HOME UNTIL THURSDAY NIGHT!!!

This will be the longest we have been apart (one night is the longest so far...) since the beginning of September! What am I going to do with myself??? I have talked to him 4 times already today! I totally trust the boy, (hell, he may be the most faithful man on the face of the earth! He was with his last girlfriend for 4 years, of which the last year or so he knew it was over between them but still never once cheated because of the fact that he still did have a girlfriend!) because I know how he feels about me, I know that he loves me more than anything, I can tell just by the way he looks into my eyes after he kisses me...but still, I have such trust issues (um, maybe this comes from being cheated on before, ya think?!). When I was talking to him he kept reminding me that I need to be good...duh! I have no worries about myself being faithful, I just think I don't trust guys in general. Anyways, I know he is going to be good...I am in fact only the third girl this boy has kissed in all the 24 years of his life and we are going to be married in a couple of years, so yeah, I know he is going to be faithful to me...forever.

Sorry, I totally just rambled, but whatever, I'm a girl and I'm allowed to be emotional and all that stuff...but thanks anyways for listening!

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Sunday, January 25, 2004
Yay!!! I was looking at my old fitday.com journal and realized that I am 15 pounds lighter now than I was at this time last year!!! I didn't even really try to lose the weight!!! Obvioulsy I realized I was losing weight because I slowly went from my usual size 7 jeans to a size 5, but I didn't realize how much I had really lost! I am now 134 pounds...my goal is 124 pounds. According to fitday.com I need to lose .885 pounds per week to reach 124 pounds by April 25, 2004! Totally do-able!

Anyways, I updated this place the tiniest bit. I kinda updated "My Favorites", "All About Me" and "Loves/Hates". I temporarily took down "Lucky..." because I really need to work on that. I also took down "CD Collection" because it needs some MAJOR updating...anyways, hopefully I can put a little bit of time in here each day (I really need to get rid of all the Taylor Hanson and Justin Guarini pics!) and get it completely updated (god, this sounds sooo familiar, huh?) in no time!

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Sunday, January 25, 2004
So, Leona brought over some pics from that awful night (read the previous entry!)...I only have one scanned in here so far. The guy on the right is Eric, my boyfriend (sigh...) the girl to his left is Leona (she's freaking goregous, huh?) and the girl kneeling down is Melodie. I have to remember to bring the rest home from Eric's house and get them scanned in...and everyone can see some really embarrassing drunk pictures of me and the girls... I wish I had more time to write more (and update because, um, the links on this site are real old, a lot has changed!) but I gotta go get ready, Eric's brother's baby is coming home tonight!!!

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Wednesday, January 21, 2004
BRETT!!! I thought you had completely abandoned this place (like I really have room to bitch about it though...I have updated all of what, 5 times in like a year???)!!! Anyways, your pic is back up and it's also in the file manager under brett.jpg. And, um, yeah...lets definetley go "snowboarding"...what color was your board again? And your outfit was what color??? Sounds like so much fun!!! Everything is ok after New Years, but thanks for your concern! And call me sometime because I really miss you and want you to come down...maybe we can have another "barbeque"!

So, I am never ever ever drinking again. I have barely drank since this summer (when I was drinking like a god damn fish!), but there was a big party at Eric's on Friday night so I figured what the hell, I'm gonna have some fun! I started drinking at about 9 pm, before barely anybody had even shown up. I was having a good time, only having a couple of shots of Yager and Southern Comfort here and there, but soon I was pretty lit. So, everytime someone would come in I was all "Hey, wanna take a shot with me?!", by about 11:30, when the party was just getting started, I was in Eric's room, praying to the porcelian god. When I woke up, passed out with my head on the bathroom scale, wearing one of my clubbing outfits (which I still can't remember out how I got into...I was wearing jeans and a little t-shirt when the party started, but I was later informed that I got mad because some girl was wearing a halter top and I wanted to be the cutest girl there so I put that on...um, embarrassing!) I figured I had been out for only a half hour or so. I somehow managed to stumble my ass to the bed and realized it was 3 am...I had been out for 3 freaking hours! Eric came in and layed down next to me cause he was pretty drunk himself. I then started to dry heave (my stomach was COMPLETELY empty from puking so much!) for about 2 hours...When I finally woke up the next day around noon I had the worst hangover of my life. Eric's cousin who doesn't drink let me know that I had had at least 15 shots...at least thats how many he counted! Um, 15 shots is a whole entire fifth!!! I figure that I had a pretty good case of alcohol poisoning, so I am laying off the bottle for awhile, which isn't hard because I barely ever drink anyways!

Anyways, thanks for listening to my sob story...I'm gonna get off my butt now and go running and then go tanning (Gee, you think anyone knows I fake and bake? It's winter in Washington and I look like a hawaian!).



Love,
Tiffany Marie

Thursday, January 1, 2004
HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!

So, I definetly had the worst god damn New Years Eve in the history of New Years Eves. I was planning on going out with my cousin Natasha, but that fell through so I decided that I was just going to party over at Eric's house. It seemed like a good idea because: 1) It was going to snow and I can't drive in the snow. 2) I wouldn't be at any risk because I wouldn't be driving with all the dumb ass drunk drivers on the road and 3) I would get to spend New Years Eve with my boyfriend. Anyways, yesterday while I was waiting for Eric to get home from work I got this idea in my head that I didn't want to stay at Eric's for New Years, I wanted to go out and party with my friends (um, PMSing just a little!). So, Eric got home from work and knew something was up because I wasn't overly extatic to see him as usual. I told him that I wanted to go home because I was crabby and would end up ruining his evening. I really hurt him because he told me he didn't care, he just wanted to spend New Years with me because he loved me...I wanted to go home. Around 9 last night he was driving me home and started telling me that he knew I wanted to go out with the girls and that it made him sad. He was just going to go to this place called Rocky Butte Point, the tallest rock in Portland, and just think about everything instead of going back to his place and partying with his friends. I started crying hysterically because that was the very first place Eric and I had ever gone alone and also because I suddenly realized what a complete bitch I can be. I told Eric I was really sorry and please take me back to his house because I would rather be with him than my girlfriends at a club where every random nasty ass guy hits on you.

We went back to his house and ended up having a sorta calm party. I got pretty lit (off only 1 Bacardi O3, 1 Sour Apple Pucker and Vodka in a pounder and 4 shots of Bacardi O, which is really sad because 3 months ago that would have been nothing to me...my ability to hold a ton of alcohol has really decreased since I quit drinking so much!), as did Eric. We went to go to bed and ended up getting into the biggest fight we have ever been in. I'm not going to go into what the fight was about, but it was pretty bad. At one point I was going to go sleep on the couch, but ended up curling up completely on my side of the bed, with Eric completlely on his side...we usually cuddle all night. I was pretty pissed because Eric said some pretty mean things to me which is weird, he has never said one mean thing to me in the past 4 months.

Everything is ok today, we sorta talked things out and everything is going to be fine, but god, our first New Years Eve together was just absolutely awful! At least I got my kiss at midnight though, right???

Love,
Tiffany Marie

Currently:
Date: April 20, 2005
Time: 9:15 pm
Feeling:
Talking to: No one
Listening to: TV
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Diet Coke
Thinking: Everything has to work out...sigh
Surfing: Peta.org