I had waited so long to see your face. So when the time had came to see you, I wanted everything to be perfect - like out of a fairytale. Beforehand, I ran through all of the lines I was planning to say to you. The things I had to say because they had been clouding my mind for a long time. But, when we stood face to face, I became breathless. All the words to express the frustration I felt seemed to drift away. I was losing my friend and I was beginning to realize that with each silent moment that passed. All the while in the back of my mind, I knew you had better things to do with your time then chat with an old friend - although I did not. Even though you claimed nothing had changed between us, I could see it all over your face. You had moved on and I was living in the past. As we sat by ourselves there was a eerie silence. All the magic we once had faded away like stars from the sky. As you looked at me like I was a stranger, I tried to glance away trying to hide the anger and disappointment." Why did he have to let go?" I asked myself. I searched through the depths of my confusion and no answers but silence resulted. Although we were together, we were so distant like we were both alone. All the while I just wanted you to hold my hand or something to show you cared. But for two people who were strangers it was out of the question. Had you become tired of me? Had I just been a phase in your life that you had grown out of? Was that really all I meant to you? All these questions…all unanswered. They probably will remain that way because we rarely share secrets like we used to. And to be honest I miss that the most. I miss that bond between us! I like thinking that I could trust you. I felt like you were the last good male on earth, but now I know there is no such thing. I can't be remorseful but only sentimental. Although I went through some sad times with you, this was the best year of my life and now I know it is impossible to keep on loving a well known stranger.

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