Idiot behind the Site

That is what people around me think of me. Few have expressed it openly, others expressions has told it indirectly. Some times, I feel I am one, some times I feel I am not. When I look at myself in relation to the world we live in, I feel I am, when I look beyond the known to the unknown, I feel I am not. The struggle was a continuous process, looking for the verdict to come from some one.

My friends and well-wishers called me idiot, when I took some of the most challenging aspects in biotechnology from ill equipped and unrecognized lab. They changed stance when, through my hard work I made way into a multinational company. They called me idiot when, I left my job to return to my old lab. They called me idiot when I worked without even a scholarship. They called me mad, when on the eve of submission of my doctoral thesis; I walked out from the competitive world of science and returned to my village. Back home, I saw pains on the face of my parents, for they felt I broke their hope on me – even to them I was an idiot 

No body could understand me. It took quite a lot of time for me to understand myself. I was being torn between two forces, materialistic and conscious.  Whenever stress peaked, I always collapsed into the conscious path. I did not believe in running away, I was not running away from science as I left from the lab. I was just keeping the freedom to explore. My retreat home was only to take some rest. It so happened that in the interior village, covered by forest, with out any amenities of modern world like, current, communication, proper road and people uncorrupted by modern education, I discovered a laboratory to do my research. I did not escape from my responsibility to my family. I took the responsibility of a combined family struggled against odds and revived its crumbling economy built on agriculture.

There are times when materialistic force has pulled me deep into its vortex, but some unknown force has lifted me up to keep me in my path. My search was completed when I discovered, this Unknown Force, guiding me. Till then, I was very much after seeking a master to evaluate my works. With it, I found the Master and my path steadied it self, I found my duty and the principal actions to be performed by me in this world.  As I am on the net I am at it, rest is left to His Will