This is the first ingredient in the black girl stew. You will finally know the stew which is my life and how I feel about things, as if you care, but I know you do cuz you are reading this right now.
Hey!! Where are you going, okay sorry I was being pompus. Thanx for taking a spoonful of this stew.
N-E wayz, I bet your wondering what the baby clock is down there for, well this is cuz my best friend and roommate is having a baby. He will be my godson. Isn't that wonderful? Well the bad news about that is her fam is up here awaiting this kid's arrival, and these people are driving a sista crazy. I mean they have taken over the house, really. I can't even watch television in my own home. All I do is watch music videos most of the time
Speaking of which, have you found that new VHI-Soul channel on your cable or dish network. I knew I was gettin old (23 yrs) when I was hyped about this channel. They show all the old r&b from back in the day (like ninth grade- heehee) On the music front I have been buying cd's like a crazy woman. Some from BMG and others from Warehouse, cuz you can get cd's for like $8.00, and it keeps me still knowing that I am getting old, cuz I got excited about finding en vogue's first cd (cuz I saw the first en vogue video on VH1-Soul this weekend, see it all works together), and if I asked my little cousin who en vogue was, she would be like "Do they work for Destiny's Child?" But that's okay though, cuz she will be old one day too and it will be some new group out called "Caramel Revenge" or something stupid like that, and she will feel all out of date.
N-E wayz, my point to the 1st ingredient of the stew, a sista is gettin old. I know compared to others I am still young, but I feel old cuz I've done so much. And if people like Aaliyah can die this young and accomplish so much, then I know I am getting old. Also, at church this weekend(yeah I went, I couldn't believe it either, religion we'll talk anout that another day) Then on sunday, was I thinking about being married? YES I was!! I couldn't believe it, cuz I have the impression that I will be married more than once, cuz I am personally crazy.
See personally crazy is when you have these crazy tendencies which are quite hard to change. Plus me being this fat girl, got me trippin', cuz on some days, I am so happy to be a fat girl. I can eat what I like and no one asks why, people are intimadated by my stature, and you can always sit in the front seat during carpools to parties and stuff. But at the same time I get upset cuz people have these preconceived notions about why you are fat. Like I don't always have to sit in the front, I haven't had lunch today so don't act like I already ate cuz it's 1:30pm.
But back to me getting old, I am seriously looking for the relationship deal. And since my roomie is having a baby, I am thinking about having kids too. Whew, I need to stop cuz if you think it, they will come. I'm just saying, 23 is old, it really is, think about that.
Ornje
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