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Name: s h e e n a
Birthday: march 20, 1983
Location: California
Expertise: laughing
Hobbies: dancin hip hop, poppin, chillin wit friends, meeting new people, eating!
Email: laydeexsav@aol.com
Feelin: content
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| dope kutts: Sometimes -Noreaga
aiite..so for those of you who hella know me should know by now wut the deal is wit me and my life. right now im stuck in making a big decision that will hella affect my life. actually, this decision has come up more than ONCE but never came through. so let me jus take you back a little bit. my friend crystal and I were planning on renting out this place in south city cuz we wanted to live on our own cuz of "personal problems" at home. we hella planned everything out and i actually thought things were gonna go down, but then crystal last minute told me she wasnt down anymore to move out which hella disappointed me. everything was set too. soo..i gave up. i said, 'fuck it i'll jus stay home'. there was NO WAY i could afford a place of my own. plus, crys ended up movin to ARIZONA where she has a place of her own there. i miss that gurl! anywayss.. NOW i found a room to rent. $400/month, utilities included. I WANT IT! i have it all planned out. imma go to skyline college cuz tha respiratory program is there and the room i wanna rent out is in daly city. i'll save up and buy tha end of this year..imma move out. sounds good right? im jus hella scared i wont be able to survive on my own. AND..i dont know how to tell my parents..
[posted @ 10:14PM] |
| dope kutts: Never Leave You (Remix) -Lumidee feat. 50 CENT
sooo today was a coo kick back day for me. i went out wit aris and his homeboys to santa cruz and it was hella funny! me and aris ran toward the water and once the water touched our feet we said,"oh hell nah!!" it was hella COLD! vuahaha! but we said fuck it and went in but ran back to tha beach where cliff was at. then jon and d came from playin arcades and d wanted us to dig a big ass hole so we can bury him in tha sand. so fuckin funny! we hella dug and the outcome: D had big ass boobs and a dick! vuahahah! ppl were lookin and hella laughin and smilin. it was a work of art. hehe! then, we went back to tha water and there was this big ass wave that engulfed me lol. freakin jon jus looked at me and was like,"where she at?" hahahah! but..JON got it bad though haha..tha wave got him too but three times straight vuahah..he was like,"OH SHIIITTT!" you had to jus be there! hehe! ohhhhhhh! and wussup wit this..we went to rinse off and there were these little boys butt naked.. needle dick, needle dick! hell no..even though yer a lil kid..dont show that shit man..especially in public!
soo..this FRIENDSTER thang is kinda coo however, i still think its like a competition on who knows the MOST HEADS. its a cult i tell ya! hahah..nah, but tha good thing about friendster is that im meetin hella ppl that i havent seen or talked to in 6+ years..its hella crazy! everybody is connected to each other i swear!!! if yalls havent joined it yet and are interested.. FRIENDSTER.COM..CLICK HERE..for those of you who think its hella gay..dont join it..simple as that. freals though, you reunite wit hella ppl u havent seen, even ppl back in grade school and high school. thats tha main reason why i like it. otha than that..ppl are so addicted to it that i think they're hella crazy hahah..dude calm down!
[posted @ 11:52PM] |
| dope kutts: Rock Wit U (Awww Baby) -Ashanti
i have so much to talk about so here i go..i went out wit trish's friends and i met hella coo ass people.. TODAY'S DESTINATION: Santa Cruz Beach..5 guys, 5 gurls, 2 rides. CONTESTANTS: guys vs. gurls..trish's ride was her '01 civic..perry's ride was his "limited" '01 toyota 4runner. (had to put limited cuz perry insists on EMPHASIZING that, haha dork) anyways, we were racing but ended up stuck in traffic haha..but of course the GURLS won! suckas! smoked ya! our original plan was to just swim at anna's place but the guys wanted to go to tha beach. so it took us quite a while to get to santa cruz, but once we got there all of us hella ran toward the beach..i was hella cracking up cuz perry was so freakin excited that he forgot he didnt know how to swim and once he couldnt touch tha ground he yelled,"OH SHIT!" and we all saw his two hands flyin around..trish's boy mark went to SAVE his ass vuahahah!! well actually..mark jus threw some floating device and said,"grab on to it nigguh!" perry was hella cheesing as if nothin happened..i swear we were hella scared. how can you FORGET you dont know how to swim?! but yeah..we had body boards and we were racing each other..the "small" waves pushed me off the body board and i panicked so i grabbed on to tha closest thing i could reach.. JEFF'S HEAD..vuahaha. i started to crack up so bad that jeff started to hella laugh and he was tellin me to shut up cuz he cant swim while he laughs. we didnt stay in the water too long so we all jus chilled on tha beach and trish's homegurls were hella coo. i already met anna and niomi, but i met some chick they call cha-cha. vauaha..iono? they were all hella nice though, they didnt make me feel left out. we watched the sunset and we all got hella quiet until mark's homeboy, C farted! vuahaha! man..hella ruined the silence! jeff and anna are the most cutest couple, i swear! that was my day..
last weekend, we went to LA which was planned hella last minute. i had fun, but i was hella missin aris. he went on a camping trip wit his friends and it was his birthday on the 21st...*sigh* i wish i was there wit him..
[posted @ 11:58PM] |
| dope kutts: Enemies -Wayne Wonder
updating my site..im too lazy to post pics of my cruise..but im promise i will..peace
[posted @ 5:30PM] |
| dope kutts: Crazy In Love -Beyonce Knowles feat. Jay-Z
GUESS WHO'S BACK!!! yup yup..IM BACK! i have so much to talk about! all in all..my cruise was soooooo FUN!! i'll have pics posted soon..
[posted @ 4:35PM] |
| dope kutts: Where Is The Love -Black Eyed Peas feat. Justin Timberlake
4 more hours and im out of here! woohoo! ill be chillin, relaxin, gettin mah grub on, and partyin! i hope this cruise will be dope. im goin on a cruise to mexico where ill meet PACO, RobeRRRtO, CarRrlos, Miguel..vuahah..im so fucked up..yea i got jokes! my sister and her boy rented a car so we can drive down to Long Beach and we got the coffin car. vuahha..you know them PT Cruiser Cars..im skurd haha. anyways..hey ROX imma Monk-NAP one for you..deng actin like imma be in a jungle or somethin vuahahhaha..but if i cant ill just get you something FAT and UGLEE! vuahaha! take care guys! PAYCE!!!!!!
ARIS: i'm going to miss you so much u dont even know..im gonna try my best to get a hold of you while im gone kae. i love you.
[posted @ 11:05PM] |
| dope kutts: Make Me A Song -Kiley Dean
this just in: I LOST MY CELL PHONE! my cousin told me he was going to call me cuz we were talkin online..so i was waiting to hear my cell phone ring..i swear it was in my bag..but it's NOT! what else can go wrong in my life..im just waiting for somethin else to happen..fuck this!
[posted @ 12:43AM]
sometimes i wish i could just move away from everything and everybody. i just wanna start brand new. my parents treat me like im in elementary school and im fuckin 20 years old! ppl tell me,"as long as yer living under their roof..they can say anything and tell you to do anything.." WELL..I HATE IT! i swear..the only person who actually KNOWS how my parents treat me is aris..everbody else has no idea. aris can actually say he's heard how my parents put me down. i swear, i get verbally abused EVERY DAY and i aint even lyin about that. maybe thats why i have a low self-esteem. im not talkin bout this so ppl can feel sorry for me..cuz if you do, DONT! im just tellin yalls how it really is. MY LIFE. MY STORY. NO JOKE. i moved out of my house last year becuz i couldnt take it anymore, but then my parents begged me to come back home and PROMISED that things would be different and we'd work out our differences. did we? fuck no we didnt. well the first TWO weeks was coo, but after that. back to being verbally abused. what was their fuckin point of makin me come back home?! why do i feel as if im the only one that has HELLA STRICT ass parents and everybody else has coo parents that lets them go out and do wutever and encourages them to do good in school? i consider myself i really nice, caring, and loving person so shouldn't i deserve at least ONE good thing in my life? but i've come to a conclusion.. nothing good happens to me.. in the past month..what have i gone through?? fuckin PAIN, HURT, A BROKEN HEART, LONELINESS..and now im having problems at home! GRAND FINALE: I ALWAYS GET SHITTED ON IN MY LIFE.
[posted @ 11:53PM]
whoop whoop! tiiiiight!! u like? hehe..anywayss..so im debating on goin back to dancing either tahitian or hip hop..i dunno yet..im getting sleepy. peace.
[posted @ 12:13AM]
| dope kutts: Moment of Truth -Gangstarr
so im talkin to my homeboy right..and he asks,"aye sheena.u know how to roll a blunt? u wanna smoke wit me one time..please just ONCE?" my response: "why the fuck are you askin me that question? DO I KNOW HOW TO ROLL A BLUNT? do you know who yer fuckin talkin to? you know i fuckin dont do that shit OR even tried any kind of illegal drug! do you know how much of a turn off that is to me? are you crazy? yer seriously askin me that question?!" i swear..i dont like that stuff even if you are just my friend and you do that shiet..dont even mention it to me or even do that in front of me. how gross!! i find it very unattractive and disgusting. kae. anwyays..so i ended up closing at my work which was ok cuz i had nothing else planned after work so yeah. i got home and i thought i was gonna go out wit my sister cuz she told me she wanted to go out, but she turned out to be a flaker. fucker! haha..its ok cuz im tired anyways. shes in downtown, frisco havin fun while im at home not doin jack shiet! nobody is home and im goin crazy cuz theres nobody to talk to! and to add to it im so fuckin hungry. excuse my profanity. maybe i should cut down on cussin. yes i shall. one more day of work for me and off i go to a fun filled vacation! woohoo!! just 5 more days! i miss aris.
[posted @ 9:31PM]
another day of goin to work..im workin at 12pm and i aint excited about it but hey..as long as im makin dough then its all good right? yesterday i spent the whole day wit aris hehe. it was like old times and i loved it. it just feels hella right and i can't think of doin this wit anyone else except him. waking up from a 3 hour nap and to see you next to me was the best feeling..im hella happy again. oh, and thanks alot babe for tellin everyone my nickname on your website! vuahaha! im out. one.
[posted @10:01AM] |
| dope kutts: Love Ya Mom -Noreaga
im at aris's house right now and hes doin his homework so i dont wanna bother him..and noo we're not together if u guys are wondering, but we're workin on that. anyways, i was just thinkin about the old times like during my high school years..the ppl who i hella miss the most are roxanne, crystal, adrienne, and erika. i swear, you guys have always kept it real. rox: dude..you were one of my best friends in high school and i hella regret having that stupid ass argument we had back then..but its all good now huh vuahaha!! i havent seen you ever since we graduated back in '01 and when we kicked it on saturday, i thought it would be like hey whats new..blah blah..but then we just hella clicked and talked and laughed so hard til our stomachs were hurting. vuahah you are the best! we were bumpin "WHOS THE BOSS" theme song in my car and we just hella cracked up vuahahah! we gotta kick it again cuz yer my billionare partner. crys: deng gurl..i dunno if u even read my website but if you are..i hella miss you! even though we havent been kickin it as much, when we did it was hilarious especially if rachel came in the picture. vuahah! me and you always saw eye to eye on things and you really kept it real. hope you're doin good in Arizona. i wont forget the "lord of the dance" steps you and rach did and yer elephant impersonation. adrienne: i still hella remember the very first time we met each other at ndb. you were so freakin shy i thought you were mad when i tried to talk to you..haha..i really do miss you a lot though even though we dont talk or see each other anymore. i hella hope yer doin good at irvine. whenever i read yer blog and you talk about life and love, you choose good ass words to describe how you feel and im like,"dang good shit.." haha..we had our ups and downs, but we're getting older and its squashed, and i hella appreciate the friendship that we have. erika: my good old buddy who likes to party and get crunked..haha..i love you so much! you and your frat and sorority stories..hehe..freals though, you are a true friend of mine and thanks for always bein there for me especially during my "rough" times. kae, thats it for now. |
| dope kutts: The One -Royce 5'9 feat. Eminem
soo..i was reading aris's website and i read what he was thinkin about and this is what he put:
- Listen, I know I haven't been straight forward with my feelings. I don't know how to say it, and when i do let it out it comes out wrong. I tell you that my love for you is stronger than ever, and I want to prove and show you that I do. I'm trying to. Having you, was the best thing that ever happened to me. It was the happiest time in my life..I want to let you know that I hella love you and this type of feeling just doesn't go away.
my response: everybody knows how much i love aris. we've been together since we were 16 years old and its not just "puppy love". we had something special and i dont just tell any guy that im with that i can see myself growing old with him. being without him makes me feel empty. yes, i do have my fun moments when im out with my friends, but in the back of my mind its always aris that im thinkin about and missing, and wanting to be with. sometimes i tell myself to just move on becuz i dont want to get hurt again, but i know for a fact that if i do, i will lose someone special to me..someone who was literally always there for me. i know i will lose my best friend..when i think about the time aris broke up with me i get hella sad becuz i did try to save the relationship so badly. i asked and asked,"are you sure?..are you REALLY sure?..maybe we just need space..you dont wanna work it out?" but the answer i got was,"no..i feel choked..we're too dependent on each other..i missed out on my friends..i dont want to be with you." those words..it stabbed me in the chest so hard that i felt hella vulnerable. it took me a while to let it sink in..and it took a lot of strength and help from friends to get me back up again. now that i think about it, i dont look at this breakup as somethin negative, but positive because we BOTH realized that we shouldnt take each other for granted. we BOTH had our mistakes, we BOTH learned from it, and it just made our love for each other even STRONGER. im just scared..he tells me that hes trying to prove to me that he loves me and wants to work things out..but how do i know that if i do get back with him, he wont change his mind a week from now or even 5 months down the road..or how do i know that if we argue, he wont try to run away from the problem and just say fuck it?..ppl keep tellin me its all about taking chances..but its easier said than done..RIGHT NOW..all i know is that i love aris..i love you so much aris..im so scared to lose you..
today: so yesterday i went to battlefest which turned out to be dope. rox and i couldnt control our laughter. vuahahah! the dance group called Gen 2 were hella dope. their routine was hella clean and what made it hella coo was that they not only danced hella dope, they were entertaining, and had two little kids dancin. that shit was hella cute. of course they won first place. i'll post up pics later from battlefest. ill blog later cuz im hella sleepy. i only slept for 4 1/2 hours. one.
thoughts: i feel violated by this one nigguh. when i think about what happened on friday..i get hella pissed. fuck him. oh yeahh..crys moved to arizona. im happy for her. ALSO.. its almost gonna be a month of being single..i miss having someone..let me rephrase that..i miss bein wit someone named ARIS. this sucks.
[posted @ 12:11PM] |
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