Have you ever been in love so deeply that nothing can stop you from feeling the way you do, Nothing can stop you from acting the way you do, and when your around that person you feel like you belong. Well, that's how I was with Amy, But I made the decision of not looking at what really matter and now Im left with Nothing.

Amy and I had the perfect relationship until I ruined it, yea I am taking full credit about it. I let fame get to my head, I stopped caring about how Amy felt, I only looked to the career and overlooked the Love I had for her, So I sit back now and I think about all the times I had with her, and All the times we will never have again.

Our first kiss, as sudden as it was had a lot of meaning behind it. I felt so strongly about her back then, I knew I needed to act on those feelings, and I was lucky that I did. Even more lucky that she ended up feeling the same way, It proves to me a little that maybe we were really meant for one another.

I'll never know now however, Im so stupid at times. I let the WWF get in the way of Happiness, I could have married her, I could have been the father of her children, but no what am I, Just a stranger looking in. Im the past to her, forgotten in her Future.

She ran to him when I upset her, She ran to him for Comfort for acceptation, for Caring and for Trust. All the things I stopped giving her. I do hate myself for acting the way I did to her, For making her cry, For breaking her heart. I've tried to apologize, but when I do she runs to him hiding behind him like a scolded dog.

How could I do this to her, How could I treat her like that push her away and only then realize how stupid I really was, Its too late now She's found someone else, A new love to treat the old wounds I left her with. Im happy that she is moving on with her life, Upset that its not with me.

I scream at myself everynight, Try to change Time, Try to get back Ten days into the past, I want to tell her I love her, I knew I loved her with all my heart. I knew she was the only women I could spend my life with, I knew if all but gave it all away.

She told me she loved me, I opened my mouth to say 'I love you Too,' but it didn't come out, What did, the Most hateful thing I ever said. I saw her heart breaking in half right before I slammed that door, I heard her break down against the door shaking and crying. I couldn't believe that I, Her Matthew, did this to her.

I heard his tracks stopping in front of her, Lifting her chin up, Talking so sweetly to her. She ran to him, holding herself together in his arms, Crying on his Shoulder, Whispering in her ears, His breath becoming intuned with hers, He was there to mend the heart that I shattered.

I don't hate my brother for what he did, I thank him. He helped the only women I ever loved, get back on her feet, start to trust again. I knew they would fall in love, I saw it in their eyes, behind the cold stares they gave me, there was this certain warmth only for each other.

The warmth is always in Amy's eyes, I saw it when I first fell in love with her, This warmth that could make anyone stay just a little longer, This warmth that could save the worst day in your life, and I threw it all away, I gave up on the greatest thing my life ever had. I threw Amy to the curb and walked out on her, I left her alone, broke her heart and crushed her spirit.

The only good that comes from this, I threw Amy into the Arms of my brother, I threw Amy into arms that would love her just as much or More that I did. Amy's lucky with Jeff, She'll be happy with Jeff, And maybe I will be able to her voice again, Her soft voice filled with kind words, and her full smile welcoming me back into some part of her life.

Amy knows I love her, She knew that's what I wanted to say to her, but I couldn't get the words out, I can stay them now, 'I love you Too', I say it every time I walk past her in the hallway, Everytime she cowers behind Jeff, Im say to her 'I love you', only she doesn't hear me, Its too late for my words to do any good.

The End