"Beth, you've been mighty quiet. What's all this about?"
"Just wait till we get in the house, Jeff. We're here now."
"Is it good or bad?" Jeff asked as Beth pulled into his driveway.
His gut instinct alarm was going off and he had the feeling that this wasn’t what he wanted it to be. He had been with way too many girls as friends, and lovers, to know the look on her face and he wasn’t sure that he liked it.
"Come on and find out."
Jeff and Beth got out the car. Jeff looked at his volcano in his lawn to make sure none of the neighborhood dogs had messed with it. He followed Beth, who already had a key, into his house. After she closed the door, the two just stood there in silence while Jeff's dog, Liger, sniffed them to see if they had any food. Jeff put his hands in his pockets and stared at the ground nervously waiting for Beth to say something.
"Come on, let's go sit down." Beth broke the silence.
The two sat beside each other on Jeff's leather couch. He looked into Beth's eyes waiting for her to speak. He had an idea about what was going on, but he was very curious to see what she was going to say to him, because he could never be sure.
"Jeff, this is real hard for me to say. Very hard." Beth said as she nervously bit her bottom lip as she was prone to do, fear apparent in her eyes, not of him however, of the inevitable.
"Well, just take your time, honey. It can't be that bad." Jeff said laughing a bit, hoping to ease the tension that had built to a knife cutting rate.
"Yes, it is. I don't know if you can tell but I'm real scared right now. I don't know how to tell you this."
"You ain't pregnant, are you?" He asked again with a touch of humor in his voice, which was met by a glare from her side of the couch.
"Jeff, are you even taking me seriously?"
"Yes, I am. Now, just tell me what's bothering you."
"I think we need to break for a little while." She quickly said as she turned the other way so that she wouldn't be facing Jeff.
"What?" He asked, his heart breaking as his suspicions were confirmed.
"You heard me. I think you and I should break up for a little while."
"Why?" Jeff's voice cracked a little.
Beth just sat there turned the other way in silence. Jeff looked at her with confusion in his eyes waiting for an answer. The mood in the room had totally changed. Liger even felt it and walked out to go to his room. Jeff could hear Beth sobbing. He went to go touch her but she finally turned around to him with tears in her eyes.
"I just can't deal with it any more. Your schedule is driving me crazy. I just miss you so much when you're on the road. It's like, my heart is so weak and it feels like you're taking it too easily."
"We've already been through this, Beth. We talked about all this when we first hooked up. You should be used to me being on the road by now."
"Well, you're wrong. Just because I don’t show how much I miss you and how much I wish you were with me doesn’t mean that I don’t feel it. I do that to keep your spirits up, to let you know that I care and that I’m waiting for you when you get home. I love you so much, Jeff. I really do. The love I have for you goes deep, man. I wanna be with you everyday. I want to spend every moment of my life with you but I've come to realize that since you're a WWF Superstar, that isn't possible and that just makes me feel as miserable as you can imagine. I feel worthless and I can't deal with that feeling anymore." Beth sobbed, trying to wipe at the tears pouring from her eyes.
"I can retire, honey. I will retire. Just give it some more time." Jeff said desperately hoping that maybe that would change her mind.
"Time isn’t on our side, Jeff. Not anymore. I've tried for two years to believe that, but my faith is gone. This is where I have to draw the line. You have no idea how a girl feels when her man is gone all the time. You give me a sense of stability. You give me peace and so much more but when you're gone, I don't have that."
"What did I do wrong? You know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you."
"Stop it, Jeff. This is hard enough for me as it is. I wouldn't do anything to hurt you either. That's exactly why I know this isn't gonna last. I know you really love me and I do too but your popularity has skyrocketed. I'm real happy for you about that but I know you're gonna be more busy than ever. I don't want to be depressed about this relationship anymore. I'm sorry, Jeff. I really am." Beth wiped the pouring tears from her eyes and blew out a shaky sigh.
"The Team Xtreme thing will get played out eventually. Beth, please don't this to me. You have no idea how much I love you. You may not see me on the road but I'm always thinking about you. I'm always wondering if you're doing alright. I mean, can't you see how happy I am in my eyes every time I see you?"
"Jeff, I know you love me. I'm very aware that. You tell me everyday."
"And I mean it from the bottom of my heart. You're the one who doesn't see me as a WWF Superstar. You're the one who doesn't see me as a famous person. You're the one who treats me like a human being. You're the one who treats just as I am...normal. Do you understand that? You and wrestling are two of the most important things in my life."
"Jeff, the last thing I want to do is to make you choose between me and wrestling. I can't do that to you. Wrestling has been in your blood forever. It was your first love. I refuse to interfere with that, Jeff. I love you too much to put you through something like that. I would rather be the one to walk away than make you choose." She said caressing his cheek as he tried to make her see the way he felt.
"I thought everything between us was good. I never imagined in a million years that you and I would come to an end. Are you sure we can't work this out?" He asked grabbing at straws, anything to make her see that he loved her.
"You are such a special person, Jeff. You are a real good man. You wouldn't hurt a fly. I struggled everyday to survive when you were gone and I just can't deal with that anymore. You living your dream and wanting me to support you is killing me. I love you so much that I can’t find myself anymore. I need to be Beth for a while without Jeff to find out if I’m really as strong as I like to think I am. If you really don't wanna hurt me...then just tell me that we can be friends. Nothing more, nothing less. Lord knows I need you...but not as a boyfriend."
"If this is what you want, I'll do it. If you need me to be your friend, I'll do it. If you want anything, you just say the word and I'll do it." Jeff said as the tears began anew.
"I don't know who was meant for you, Jeff. I don't know who was created in this world to be your woman but whoever she is...she's real lucky. I know that from experience. She's out there somewhere. You just be yourself and be patient, okay? Don't look for her yourself though. She'll come to you." Beth cried as she ran her fingers through Jeff's hair, who was crying worse than she was.
Beth pulled Jeff into her arms and just held him in silence. She knew it would be awhile before she would ever hold him again. Her mind drifted off to the first time she saw Jeff's face. The first time that he smiled at her. The first time that he called her house. The first time he took her out. The first time they kissed. The first day they had an argument. The first day they had sex. The day that they fell in love with each other. These thoughts brought some contentment to her. Then, it was as if Jeff had read her mind because he had stopped crying. He just sat there in Beth's arms and her in his arms.
"I love you, Beth."
"I love you too, Jeff. I love you too and nothing is ever gonna change that. I will always be here, anytime you need me."
We're in a world that's a ball of confusion
The feeling is gone, still we keep holding on
To love, that it's just an illusion
Fall to the back of the line, love will call you in time