PART THREE OF "ANGEL IN DISGUISE"

**Allanah**

When Adam went to the WWF, everything changed. In a way, it seemed like a perfect life went to a worthless life. It's not like I wasn't happy for him because I was but I knew the schedule was gonna cause some tension in our relationship. When he told me the WWF wanted him, I was estatic and everything like that but he could tell that something was wrong with me. I can't really explain it. I was so used to spending every waking moment with him. We were always together. I didn't wanna see him leave me and I know Adam had some problems with it too. The last thing he wanted to do was hurt me. He knew I was gonna miss him terribly. He showed me the schedule for the wrestlers and I really had a problem with it. Adam would working on Sundays, Mondays, Tuesdays and Saturdays. That includes Fridays since he would have to leave early for Saturday's house show. I would only get to see him one dau a week. Despite all my insecurities, I wasn't going to stop Adam from doing what he's worked so hard for. I beleve that effort should be rewarded. The World Wrestling Federation is THE place to be in the wrestling industry and he made it. He would always lay his head on my shoulder and tell me his dreams of beoming a WWF Superstar. There was no way I was gonna hold him back.

I remember the day he left me. Well, I don't mean it the way it sounds. In other words, I remember the day Adam left for his first week as Edge. The car ride on the way there was the most quiet we had ever been. I was so sad that I actually didn't have anything to say to him for the first time in years. As the time got closer to his flight, one tear went to infinite tears. I had no reason to be crying though. I had just gotten accepted to a very prestigious college. I had finished paying off the payments for my new car. Adam and me also just celebrated our first anniversary and bought a house in Florida. Yet, I was still crying my eyes out. There's nothing worse than having everything and still feeling sad. That's how I felt as the time passed me by. I guess I didn't know that time passes you by whether you're ready or not. Denise was there too so she helped me gain some composure (even though she was crying her ass off too.) Adam held me in his arms and we talked. Eventually, the plane came and it was time for me to face the facts, he was leaving whether I liked it or not. Then, we had one of the most passionate kisses I had ever experienced in my life as tears ran down both of our faces. We hugged. "Look, you make me proud and don't forget that I love you." "Don't you forget it either, Allanah. I love you so much. I don't know how I'm gonna do this." "Look at me...you've worked too hard to turn back now. Go out there and wrestle to the best of your ability, baby. I believe in you, okay?" We said that as we stared into each other's eyes. I had already been through this with my brother, Sean. Mommy had a fit when he first left to become who is today...Val Venis. Now, it was my boyfriend. He told me he would call me. Then, he walked down the terminal to the plane. Denise and I stood there hugging each other as I cried harder than before since I missed him already. This was the start of the times that Adam would fly away from home to another place far away from me and my love.

**Jessica**

Chris is the sweetest person I have ever met in my time on this Earth. He will drop everything if he feels that something is wrong with me. He will sacrifice anything just to make me happy and safe. I have never known any guy to do that for me and that's what makes me love him so much. We have a bunch of fun together since he always likes to flirt with me and joke around. He loves to make jokes just like his character, Chris Jericho. They always make me laugh. Chris's profession is not only wrestling, it's also making me feel like a million dollars. But boy, I tell you when Chris gets in that ring, I feel like shit.

Chris was in WCW by the time we hooked up. He thought it was good career move since the WWF wasn't interested in him yet. The WCW schedule wasn't too consuming since they weren't filming Thunder yet. Whenever he would have to leave, of course I didn't want him to leave but there was nothing I could do about it. So we would kiss, hug and he would be gone. That was it. I'd get back in the car, go home and wait for his return. I have a life, you know. It's not like I don't depend on Chris. Oh, no. That's not in my personality. Anyway, I had to work on everything so I couldn't waste my time on crying over Chris being gone. That's just the way it was when you date a wrestler. I don't mean the way it sounds though, I missed him and everything but I couldn't stress on it too often. I had my own life and had to deal with my own share of problems.

**Beth**

Jeff has always been a part of the World Wrestling Federation so it's not like he wasn't used to leaving home but when he was my man, that's when it became a problem...for both of us. We were at my parent's house while they were gone watching "SmackDown!" when Jeff told me that he would be leaving the next day. I was a little surprised and asked him why. I just thought that Jeff worked on Mondays for Raw and Tuesdays for SmackDown but he told me about the house shows. I wasn't sad or anything like that. I just realized that I would only see the man in my life only one or two days a week. I'm a spoiled girl so when he told me, I was like "Noooooooooo!" and wrapped my arms around him tightly. Jeff just sat there and laughed at me. He always smiled when he was around me and Matt told me how Jeff acted when he was on the road. He told me he would frown, barely say a word, sleep and write most of the time. I knew he was gonna feel worse since I wasn't around. I asked him would he be okay and he told me he would get by until the next time we saw each other. I didn't believe him for one second. He just told me what I wanted to hear but I was seriously worried about him.

You would think I would be the one crying the day he left since I'm the girl but you're wrong. Jeff was the one that did all that. We had only been together for like a week so I comforted him to the best of my ability. Matt and Amy helped me out too. After we got to the airport, Matt and Amy left us so we could be alone. You know, I tend to look up to Amy when things like this happened because she was in the wrestling industry just like her boyfriend so she was pretty strong when it came to her parting ways to ECW and him to WWF. She's always been a strong-willed woman so she was a great friend to me when Jeff first introduced me to her. Anyway, we were in the car alone and we just started making out like crazy. It was crazy, man! We were trying to swallow each other whole! Y'all can picture that in your minds. Through lip langauge, he could tell that I was gonna miss him the same way he was going to miss me. When we caught our breaths, we got out and walked in the airport hand-in-hand with big smiles on our faces. That's become like a ritual for us every time in the car before Jeff leaves for Saturday's house show, we have to make out. Anyway, Jeff had to leave as soon as we got inside so we gave each other a hug and he left. I stood there by myself as he went up the escalator. That's when I felt like crying. I was no longer my happy-go-lucky cheerful self. I guess I never knew how much Jeff's presence meant to me. Now, I've had my fair share of dudes and I don't ever recall missing somebody as much as I missed Jeff that day only after a week of being together. Jeff wasn't like those other guys, he was different and I guess that's what hurt me the most when I watched the plane soar above my head.

**Amy**

When I started training with Matt and Jeff in February of 1999, they were already in the WWF and I wasn't dating him then so when he left, it wasn't like I was sad. Yet, I didn't want him and Jeff to leave since I wanted to do nothing but train! I was so addicted on getting in the ring back then so I did nothing but eat, drink and sleep wrestling. We got together in like late April and early May. Around this time, they were given Michael Hayes so their schedules were much more busy than before. They had to be on Raw and Sunday Night Heat all the time now since they were feuding with The Brood. (By the way, there was no SmackDown back in these days. But y'all don't know nothing 'bout dat.) I was pretty used to him being gone so it wasn't even that much of a problem while we were together.

I remember the first time I actually cried when Matt was wrestling once. Anybody that knows me knows that Amy doesn't cry since I'm such a tomboy. I'm a tough bitch but Matt took all that out of me whenever he got hurt. It was a little after my debut as Angelica. It was Fully Loaded and Matt, Jeff and Michael were taking on The Acolytes. It was an AWESOME match and Faraaoq did some kind of move on Matt that made my mouth drop open. I looked at the television with so much concern in my eyes and all of a sudden, I started crying. I don't know what it was, man. He just looked so vulnerable, exhuasted and tired. It was like I just wanted to reach through the damn television and smack the shit out of Bradshaw and Faraaoq for hurting my baby. That's another thing. Matt is my baby. I see a side of him no one else sees. I see the sensitive side. I'm the one that Matt flirts with most of the time. I know what makes him cry, I know what he's afraid of, etc. I could say a lot of things that would ruin his reputation as a tough dude. Basically, it's just the fact that Matt is a really soft person when he's with me and when I see him get hurt, it's like I'm a little girl in Kindegarden who lost her Barbie dolls. Now, that's serious and that's how I first felt when Matt went one way to his WWF job and I went the other to my ECW job.

**Denise**

I was so happy for Jason when he told me that he was going to sign a contract with the World Wrestling Federation. I had never seen Jason cry but he came over my apartment with tears running down his face saying "Baby, I made it. I'm going to the WWF." I was so shocked and I just held him in my arms until he stopped crying. I knew how he felt. It took a mighty long time for him to get there but it was definitely worth the wait. We were being serious that night because we both knew the good and bad things that would come out of this. He told me that Adam had reccomended him and they contacted him a few days afterwards. Sometimes, I didn't feel like Jason's girlfriend. I felt like his mother that comforted him when he felt sad, fed him when he was hungry, nurse his wrestling scars and everything like that. I told him that even though it would take some time for me to get used to the schedule, I wanted him to really represent Canada to the fullest. Then, we joked around a little and I told him that all the girls would just love him. (He didn't believe me but look at him now.) After that, we just chilled and watched some movies. We made it a goal to spend as much time as we could together before he had to leave.

I remember when Adam first left Allanah. She was going crazy. She really loved her man and I knew exactly how she felt now. Even though I saw this from the beginning because Adam told Jason a long time ago that if he made it, Jason would make it too. And Adam never makes promises he can't keep. I just knew that this was coming. It's not like I wanted to prevent it but I was trying to think of the best way to deal with my sadness and happiness for him. Another thing I knew was that he was really gonna get his ass kicked while he there. I can't explain it but ever since me and Jason started going out, it's been so hard to watch him in a match. Sometimes, I cannot tell the difference between him selling in a match and really getting hurt. I would end up crying on who ever was sitting next to me. That would really interfere with Jason's concentration on a match so it would be better for him in the WWF since I wouldn't be there as much.

The day he left was on a day in September. Apparently, he was gonna debut on some Pay Per View called Judgement Day. I was so sad inside but I wouldn't let it show since I wanted to support Jason in everything he did and of course, he didn't wanna see me like that so I kept it to myself. He continued to ask me if I was okay the whole time. Allanah had gotten used to this so she was there with us since him and Adam were leaving together. "You know I love you, Denise." "Yeah, I love you too." "Everything will be alright, I'll be back on Wednesday." "I know." That was the last conversation we had before he left to become Christian. We kissed and that was it. He was gone. As soon as he was on that plane, I cried my ass off. Allanah laughed and just gave me a hug. "I know, girl. I know EXACTLY how you feel. You'll get used to this after awhile." She was right. I got used to Jason leaving after awhile but no words can really describe how it feels when you are apart from a man you love dearly for the first time.

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