by Mexx

Rating: G
Spoilers: Surprise, Innocence, Helpless
Summary: Buffy's POV walking home from Angel's mansion in 'Helpless'
Authors Note: Songfic, song is 'One Year Ago' by Lene Marlin taken from the album 'Playing My Game' which is an awesome album and has some really great songs.
Distribution: Don't give a damn where it goes as long as you tell me and my name and email addy satys with it.
Feedback: I love feedback, it inspires me to write more if I think people actually read and like what I write.
Disclaimer: Not mine blah blah blah

She's walking there alone
No one by her side
She manages to fight the tears
But the pain inside
She can't hide
And all the tears she's cried
The moment she closes her eyes
She starts thinking of you
The dreams she had one time
Have gone away
Will they ever come true?
All she needs is, all she needs is you

All she needed was Angel.

The way they'd been last year. Now, although his love for her was evident, it wasn't the same innocent, relentless, passionate love they'd shared before. Nothing was the same, on the outside they hadn't changed. On the inside... Buffy still cried over the evil taunts of Angelus, over the pain she'd suffered after sending him to hell, over their love which was just unfair.

And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
Loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind
That it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared
It was true

When they had escaped from Spike, Drusilla and the Judge and fled to him apartment he'd been so gentle, so loving. They'd had no idea about the curse. As far as she had known, when she woke the next morning, it would've been Angel lying next to her, holding her. Not Angelus' evil taunts.

You never thought about it
What you made her feel
You promised you'd stay together
But the hope she once had
So unreal
And all she needs is, all she needs is you

Of course Angelus never cared about her feelings- or if he did he didn't care, but Angel... The way he made her feel when he promised he'd never let her go, she had been full of hope and love. That was gone now

And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
Loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind
That it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared
It was true

One night. That's all they'd had. One night, one year ago. They'd been totally, completely,   irretrievably in love. With everything they were they had loved each other. And the result of their love had been the ultimate sacrifice. But given the chance, she wouldn't have changed a thing. It didn't matter now though, it was in the past, one year ago.

The End