"Well thank you" I smiled taking the little girl, who couldn't have been more than four, in my arms.
"And my brother thinks you’re sexy" she said pointing at a pimple faced teen boy.
Poor guy, he looked mortified. I grinned at him and put her down, thanked her for coming, and it was time for the next in line.
**Meanwhile**
This was the first time that a Meet And Greet took place before a show, and Alyssa was basking in the glory of it. Every time she turned around, she was praised. 'This I can get used to' she thought. Across from her stood A.J. Good old sexy A.J, wearing his traditional wife beater. He looked up, saw Alyssa checking him out, and winked at her. She giggled. Damn, he was a flirt, but so was she.
Nick let out a fake laugh. Why was it that fans always thought that telling lame jokes was something he liked ? The girl was hot, he admitted, but nothing like Eli. NO-NO, mustn’t think of her... Oh, but, there she was, in all her... No, she's not worth it.
"Earth to Nick" Brian said, snapping his fingers infront of him "Time to go"
Nick had something to look forward to though. In a few weeks, his brother Aaron would be joining the tour. It had been a while since they'd seen each other.
**Later**
After the show, I brought all the girls with me to the Backstreet dressing room. We were going to begin watching a movie when Howie stood up.
"I have the pleasure to announce, that Angel" he began passing out envelops "REFLECTION, and The Backstreet boys have been formally invited to the big celeb bash which will be taking place tomorrow" and then stood smiling-...waiting.
"What?" Kevin asked.
Howie sighed "Ok, fine, I tried. To cut it short, we've all been invited to some dress up party, happy?"
"Oh" everyone exclaimed.
"So, us too?" Kristy grinned "But, we're like, still nobodies"
"No we're not" Laurel protested.
Nick laughed "Yeah, you are"
Laurels brow pulled together angrily "NO, we're NOT"
"Oh, then who are you?" Nick questioned arrogantly.
"We're getting there, Ok?! And even if we were nobodies... I'd rather be a nobody than be a somebody like you!"
"Oh real nice" Nick commented sarcastically "I applaud your effort, really I do"
"Ok, that's enough" Howie interrupted "Nick, quit being so immature"
Nick glared at Laurel "I just don't like it when little kids think they're big"
"Oh, little kid am I?" Laurel hissed.
"Nick!" I snapped "Shut up"
Both youngest members sat back in their seats. Nick was upset, and just felt like venting his rage on a younger target, but Laurel, who had always looked up to Nick as a roll model shuddered. How could he be so rude?
"So we're gonna party!" Naila cheered.
As they began to watch the movie, A.J and Alyssa began to exchange looks and burst out into laughter.
"What's so funny?" Naila asked annoyed.
"I remember that boat... and Jack, oh Jack" Alyssa mocked spinning around.
A.J sighed "Come on guys, how many times can you possibly watch TITANIC?"
"Ditto!" Nick said slouched in the seat raising his arm.
"Well if you don't wanna see it, then leave!" Laurel snapped
"What if I don't want to?" Nick spat.
Laurel twisted around "I was referring to Lyss and A.J" she snarled
"I was referring to Lyss and A.J" Nick mimicked.
Alyssa had just about enough of it "Ok, we're gone. Coming A.J?"
"Yup" A.J laughed following her out of the room.
I watched Nick for a few moments and turned back to the screen. Brian and I were in each others arms, and quite happy. I couldn't understand why Nick was being such a jerk with Laurel. Sure she's a little hyper, but that's no reason to be so coarse.
My thoughts returned to the movie when Brian gave me a gentle squeeze.
**Same Time**
"Hey, thanks for joining me" Alyssa said to A.J once they got to REFLECTION's dressing room.
"Trust me" he said "I should be thanking you"
She smiled and sat on the floor. 'she's cute' A.J thought. If he didn't have a girlfriend, he'd most definitely be going after her.
**Same Time**
Amanda sat in the bean bag in her friends room totally out of it. They were approximately 8 people, all shot up. Her friend, Kent, offered her some sort of yellow/white pill over a half hour ago.
"Kent, honey, what the fuck is this shit you gave me?" she laughed
Kent, who was groping with a girl on the floor, got off her and went over to Amanda
"It was ecstasy" he said "Like it?"
Amanda smiled widely "Makes me wanna give you a hug" and fell into his lap
"Ecstasy, huh?" she repeated kissing the tips of his fingers
"They don't call it the hug drug for nothing" he said feeling himself grow hard beneath her. He'd always had a thing for the dark haired beauty.
Amanda thought a while. She had something to say... if only she could clear her mind long enough to think of what it was "Oh yeah" she yelled triumphantly "You are the one for me, you are my ecstasy, you're the one I need" she sang fully amused.
But she was the only one. The rest of the room turned to her, puzzled, and resumed what ever they had been up to.
Still in a fit, she managed to get off Kent. That song made her think of someone, but who? She kept on forgetting. Oh yeah "A.J" she said as Kent stood up after her.
"What's an A.J?" he asked
Amanda laughed hysterically "Come on, let's get out of here" she took him by the hand and lead him out of the room with her. Then, she signaled for him to bend down "I think that the people in there were a little egged"
Kent rolled his eyes. This was the first time he had given her Ecstasy, and knew no one else had ever provided it for her before. He muffled a laugh as he watched her skip to his room instead of her own. God, she was so hot.
"Come baby, I wanna go to your room" She smiled and started to knock on it
"Hello, hello?!" she turned to him with a shocked expression "No ones answering"
"You're acting like an idiot, I hope you're aware of that" He said unlocking the door.
Amanda ignored the comment and ran in immediately jumping on the bed. It looked like any other man's dorm room. A stinky, filthy mess. Delighted, she continued to bounce gitily.
Kent made his was to the washroom where he knew his room mate kept his stash. The guy was fucking loaded, and could afford everything. So he wouldn't think he'd mind if he "borrowed" some crack. So he did. The effects kicked in a few minutes later, as they usually did.
He walked back in and found Amanda on the bed rubbing her head
"What?" he asked sitting down next to her.
She looked up a little woozy "The sealing was closer than I thought"
"You're such a stupid slut" he slurred
She didn't really react, mostly, because she wasn't all there.
Kent felt that feeling of crowded boxers return. Conscious now gone, nothing was holding him back, so with out further thought, he jumped her.
Caught off guard, Amanda fell flat on the bed and felt Kents slimy tong circle her lips. She attempted to push him off "Get off" she giggled thinking this was some kind of joke.
Feeling her begin to resist, he pushed her against the bed, holding her shoulders down as he continued to try to kiss her.
"Kent no" she screamed trying to break free.
"You know you want it. Parading around campus in those short tight skirts, you've had this coming"
She closed her eyes fighting back tears as she felt hands tugging on her skirt until they fell around her ankles.
"No! Please." she whispered as all that was happening sank in.
"Did you say something?" Kent said as he began to pin down her wrists
"Please, No, stop, please." she pleaded. Amanda tried to free herself from his grasp once again, uselessly. Kent was a quarterback on the foot ball team, strong as an ox. A thousand thoughts passed through her mind as he felt him pin her down.
Kent began to lose patience "Would you shut up?" he yelled "You fucking owe me bitch! All that shit I've paid for you... drugs aren't free honey."
"Kent..." she trailed already starting to cry.
"Quit bitching! Sit back and enjoy." he ordered, pulling off her top and slipping it over her head.
"STOP!!!!!! NO!!!!!"
She began screaming as loud as she could when she felt a hand roughly move over her mouth.
"Shut up, I said SHUT UP!!!" he bellowed furiously shaking her by her shoulders.
He continued to jerk her head, pounding it into the pillow. She started losing energy to fight him off, and worried that if she'd resist any longer, he'd hurt her. So she stopped.
"Good girl" Kent said calmly before continuing what he'd wanted to for so long.
**Meanwhile**
"Good night baby" Brian said as he gave me a final kiss before letting go of my hand.
"Good night" I smiled before I left the room.
We were to be performing 2 nights in the same town, so we actually spent the night at the venue. The buses and hotels were swamped by fans, so this was our last resort. I could have spent the night with him, but thought there would be too much tension.
There was now only Brian, Kevin and Howie in The BSB dressing room. Nick had disappeared, and A.J was still chatting with Alyssa.
Howie puckered his lips at Brian "Oh, look at you. All lovey dovey"
Brian opened his mouth to say something smart, but laughed instead "Ya, well, a gal can do that to a fella"
"I'm happy for you cuz" Kevin said patting him on the back "You deserve it"
Brian smiled once more, and proceeded to sleep.
**Later That Night**
Amanda lay inert in Kent's bed too frightened to even move. He'd fallen asleep over an hour ago, and she was still clutching on the pillow. She opened her eyes, and observed her surroundings. Kent lay nude next to her, and she was quite certain she was the same way. As the events of the night replayed in her mind, she was hit by a feeling of nausea and disgust and ran to the bathroom immediately puicking her guts out.
Once she was done, she let herself drop to the tiles and started to cry. 'This is all my fault' she thought bitterly. If she hadn't been so stupid- if she hadn't taken those damn drugs, none of this would ever happened. This wasn't rape. This is her fault. She had gotten herself into this, and she would have to get herself out. Then she thought of A.J
"Oh god, how can I face him after this" she began wiping away her tears "How can-" her thoughts interrupted, she noticed the stacks of crack next to the sink. In an angry fit, she stood up, grabbed them, tore them open and scattered them everywhere as she shouting hysterically. As the last bag ripped, she fell to the floor out of breath and looked around her. Her heart began to pump wildly as she took in the sight.
"No-no" she cried crawling on all fours "I can't hurt him." and began sniffing up the floor with a tinny paper tube. She sniffed up almost every last drop, then all of a sudden, the room began to spin. The walls began to close up on her, her eye site hazed, felt nauseated and then.... it went black.
