I know I've said it time and time again
But these wounds still wont mend
This wound of betrayal, this wound of pain
Making it feel as though it was all in vain
And even though I know I've been conned
It's still not easy to move on
I've tired to drink my pain away a lil at a time
But I can never get drunk enough to get it off my mind
Those times which I thought would last forever
That have now become my lasting endevor
For this pain is mine
Which has not healed with time
For in this world there is real and make believe
And it felt real to me
After all this time you'd think I'd be over it
But it still hurts just as much as when I first took the hit
I still find myself running through the memories
Only to be reminded of the fatalities
I wake form the dreams that cause me anguish
Only to find that a single breath is what for I wish
For I wake with the feeling of a thousand pounds on my chest
Instead of the feeling of a good nights rest
I fell as if my heart is in a vice
Even though i have already paid the ultimate price
And it just seems like no matter how much I try to escape
I am bound to a struggle that seems is a never ending debate
Night after night I lie in bed wide awake
Wondering why I'm the one the world decided to forsake
Why i am the one to go through this ordeal
The only one to understand how this feels
No matter how much I try to surpress
It comes back to create this mess
And although I may seem fine
It does nothing but rain inside
I am nothing but a remnant of a much stonger man
For this broken soul is now what I am
No longer the one who was once strong and knew what to say
For the rain has washed him away
So as I wait for the day the rain overhauls
I just sit here as the rain falls
