I'm Elif, a 26 year old female from Turkey. I was diagnosed with bipolar
back in high school (it was like a nightmare). Recently I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have refused to get my Lithium from time to time, saying I don't want it and need it.

Actually I think all these illnesses even Schizophrenia are based on the insecurities we learned starting from our childhood. My yoga instructor, (if only I didn't give up practicing yoga in my depression periods), who happens to be an MD, agrees with me. We are the controllers of our minds it doesn't control us. The chemicals don't determine our moods, but we, deep inside feel what we feel, then our brain chemiistry is effected.. Anyway this can be widely discussed later..

Right now I'm going through a depression - you might ask, why don't you apply what you already know? I don't have the desire to live much, but it's because I'm fed up with all this and past failures,etc..The very significant symptom of my Borderline PD is my intense fear of abandonment. I would like to know how you deal with it...

Looking forward to hearing from you soon.

Elif.