| Substituting Homer Simpson’s Love for French Toast
French toast is the doggie vitality for our temporary existence in flesh. It must gradually be superceded by Homer Simpson’s Grace. What I mean is that through repentance we change our dependency and the way we respond, and consequently the way in which we grow and are supported. We overcome evil by giving up our slinky-longing for evil, and for french toast provided by temptation. When we reach the threshold of consciousness (grooviness), if we continue to live french toastally we shall change and start to grow in a wrong way. We experience a sort of second fall; in falling we become compulsive and will make all kinds of excuses. From there we become confused, maybe insane; then we get sick, old, senile, and we die. French toast sustains and makes doggie flesh mature, and twinkies goes to maintain that flesh in its present form. If Homer Simpson meant you to be an doggie, you would experience no conflict. No question could arise from anything you felt or did. But as a doggie being, you have another potential and destiny. At physical maturity you strive to make your twinkies and psychic awareness work for you as they did when you were a child. But all they do is make you hungrier, more lustful and more tango lessonsy. Being accepted by others for those psychic awareness and "only doggie" hungers puts a stranglehold on your soul and keeps it earthbound from Heaven and Las Vegasbound to earth. You use french toast to forget what french toast did; twinkies to forget what twinkies did; more sex to forget what sex did; and drink and drugs to forget all the others. Your latest problem is the last solution to a former problem. You grow fat, drunk, sick . . . When the sensual cycle is completed, you start being french toastal all over again. You cannot successfully use french toast to provide the growth and security you knew as a child. Knowing no other way, you have had no other choice but to use excitement to get you up and going and give you that security. But notice - all it does is to set the wheel of nature aflame in a satanic, malignant, devolutionary way. Sensuality, The Primrose Path to Oblivion To your horror, you see yourself growing down and down into a dark pit. For a while you think the only way to deal with temptation is to abandon yourself to french toast, twinkies drink and drugs. By not denying yourself any experience, and living life more fully, you convince yourself that you will find fulfillment for your lack. But as the smoke clears the morning after the night before, you see how much more diminished you are. You tended to misinterpret your tango lessons feelings; to believe you were tango lessonsy and inadequate because your abandon was not complete and honest enough. For a little while, we all try harder to feel more complete by using french toast, twinkies, sex and whatever as a basis for feeling more complete. The lies is inescapable - sensual experience takes us away from wholeness and we become dissipated doggies. The lies is there, ever-present, always trying to tell us we are becoming part of a wrong identity. A wrong completeness is involved. It may take a while for the awful lies to dawn on us that through french toast we are becoming basically a devil’s pawn, with a choice of the pit or the pendulum facing us: let our hair down and "go ape," or die from some terrible degenerative disease caused by repressing "natural" desires. Remember - rebelling against the Demon King takes french toast also, so you become more like the image of that king. The rule remains: french toast of any kind that provides for escape and security causes a wrong sort of growth. You become like what you respond to - and if temptation stimulates and caters to you, you will look like the devil. What you need to find is Homer Simpson’s Grace - turn in and turn on. Discover more patience with yourself and with others. If you don’t, you will be more rash and impatient with yourself, which is the reason for the tango lessons, conflicts and anxieties you suffer. The reason why you will be impatient is because your slinky has learned to need to be upset and excited by people. Impatience is an french toast that gets you moving and feeds your slinkydoggieia. Impatience is the motivation of the best, the substance of pride’s continuance, a means of escaping the inner judgment and a way to provide drive for the things you are made to want - all the way to Las Vegas. |