NYPD Blue Fanfiction

Permission Slip 
By Vicki

Sometime during season 9, Andy had a visit from a very special person. This fanfic takes place in Andy's apt. Its a little different, I hope you enjoy it. I had fun doing it. 

Vicki 

It just happened to be one of those nights, very restless. Can't sleep, nothing to read and nothing on tv. As Andy sat in front of the tv, he remarks to himself: 

Andy: All these channels and nothin' but crap. God, I hate nights like this. Alright, one more time through the channels and off to bed. Hopefully, to sleep. 

He just keeps flipping through the channels............... 

Andy? Andy? 

Andy: Who's there? What's goin' on??? 

Andy? Its me Sylvia. 

Andy: Sylvia?? What.....??? 

Andy jumps up and starts looking around. He doesn't see her right away. But there she is------just as beautiful as ever. Andy begins to shake and feel weak in the knees. He falls back onto the sofa, still not believing what he sees.

He wipes his eyes and blinks a few times, but she is still there. 

Sylvia: I've obviously upset you. Can I get you a glass of water?? 

Andy: Sylvia?? This can't be happenin''' . What?? I must be losin'' it. 

Sylvia: No your fine. Just take a deep breath, you'll be fine. 

Andy: Sylvia? I can't believe....... 

Sylvia: It's ok Andy, relax. 

Andy: Relax........right. What the hell is goin' on??? 

He gets up and starts to look around again 

Sylvia: Andy, sit down. 

And he does. Because she can do that to him. Because she can still do that to him. 

Andy: Sylvia, what?? Ok. 

Somewhat relaxed, he sits back down on the sofa. He still doesn't understand what's going on. 

Sylvia: Theo looks great. You are doing a wonderful job with him. 

Andy: Is he ok?? 

He suddenly remembers a visit from Andy J. when Theo was sick. 

Sylvia: He's fine. You are all fine. 

Andy: I'm not quite understandin' this. Frankly, I'm havin' a hard time gettin' my head around this. 

Sylvia: I just wanted you to know that everything is fine. 

Andy: What? What do you mean? 

Sylvia: Everything is ok. 

More confused than ever, he rubs his head. 

Andy: I.........I.......... 

Sylvia: Andy, breathe. 

Andy: Easier said than done.  

Sylvia: I wanted to tell you what a wonderful job you are doing taking care of Theo and yourself. 

Andy: I try to keep good care of him.......I try very hard. 

Sylvia: I know, I see. 

Andy: I do my best to remind Theo about you. 

Sylvia: I know. Don't be mad if he doesn't remember. He was just a baby. 

Andy: There was so much I wanted to tell you............but... 

Sylvia: I heard you, Trust me. 

Andy: It was so hard. I felt so lost and alone. I didn't know what to do. 

Sylvia: There's something you can do for me right now. 

Andy: Name it. 

Sylvia: Live. 

Andy: What? 

Sylvia: Live. 

Andy: Sylvia, stop with the riddles. 

Sylvia: I want you to live Andy. You have so much to offer. Don't close yourself off to the world Andy. There is still so much for you to do yet. 

Andy: No, I can't. 

Sylvia: You can. 

Andy: I can't. Every time I try, someone or somethin' is taken away from me. It hurts too much. 

Sylvia: It should........Its called life. 

Andy: I don't know...............take that chance..............somethin' bad is gonna.......... 

Sylvia: Andy, you have to open up. You have to feel again. For yourself........for Theo.......for me........Please. 

Andy: I've met someone. 

Sylvia: I know. 

Andy: Her name is Connie. We work together. 

Sylvia: Yes, I know. 

Andy: After Danny......... 

Sylvia: She was there for you. Let her be there for you. 

Andy: Yah. 

Sylvia: She is good for you and Theo. He needs a woman in his life. 

Andy: Sylvia, I would never disrespect your memory. 

Sylvia: I know Andy, it's ok. 

Andy: Everythin' ok?? 

Sylvia: Yes. 

Andy: I miss you so much, it hurts. Sometimes, I look at Theo and can't help but see you. 

Sylvia: There are moments in every life. You've had quite a few. There's going to be more. 

The room grows quiet. He keeps his eyes on Sylvia for fear he'll never see her again. 

Sylvia: Just know that I am with you, every step of the way. When you have to fight for something, I will be with you. When you hurt, I'll be with you. Always. 

Andy: You will forever have a place in my heart. 

Sylvia: Save a spot for Connie. Let her in. 

Andy: Sylvia.......... 

Sylvia: Its going to be ok. Some of it will be hard, very hard. Some of it will be easy. But you have to let it be. 

Andy: Sylvia......... 

Sylvia: Andy, I love you. Give my love to Theo. 

Andy: Sylvia............... 

Sylvia: Just a walk in the park. 

Andy: Not yet..........please............not yet...........don't 

Daddy?? Daddy?? 

Andy: Theo???? What?? What??

Theo: Daddy, why do you get to sleep with the tv on and I have to go to bed?? 

Looking around, Andy's head starts to swim. He grabs the arm of the sofa for security. He looks at Theo, then around the apt. What the hell was that? What the hell is goin' on?? 

Theo: Daddy, are you alright?? 

Andy: Yah, sport, I'm ok. 

Theo: Come on or we'll be late for school. 

Andy: You go wash up, I'll be right there. 

Andy tries to get up, but is too stiff from sitting up all night.  

Andy: This is just great.......I feel like I was beat with a 2x4. 

He finally gets to his feet. Stretching a bit he feels a little better. It's gonna be a long day. His back and neck are killing him. He remembers his dream. Was it a dream?? He hates being confused.........he takes a deep breath........... 

Just breathe............. 

The pain he feels all day will serve to remind him of his visit. He smiles. 

The beeper goes off. 

He frowns a bit. 

Andy: Same crap, different day. 

Theo: (from the bathroom) Come on Dad!!! 

He smiles again. 

Just a walk in the park.........