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BY MARY LOUISE |
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IS IT YOU |
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THAT NIGHT |
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I saw him today not in presence in my mind his blue eyes |
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Three years ago I married this man I wanted to love him and be his biggest fan. I vowed to have honor and respect, and to cherish him to the fullest asspect. |
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The need, the want, the crave, the feel, the touch, the save, To touch you once then let u go is like freezing in the snow |
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We danced that night I fell for you your eyes were longing your personality so true. |
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We concieved a child then, then two, then three. I felt they were a symbol of love between him and me. I wore a vail on our wedding day one that would continue to shield the reality away |
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how they stared into mine once promising he would love me never to leave me they seemed to look deep |
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To kiss your lips then walk away is painmuch more than my pay to want your love and not have it in you too hurts till my heart wants only you. |
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You held me close that night you smiled at me begged me for a kiss I fell deeply. |
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Hiding me from the unwanted trueth and pain, that would block the ugliness that would forever remain I was happy and beautiful in my make believe life, there were smiles and laughter for I was a Wife. |
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searching for love to see if it remained yes, it is there always there it will stay. |
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To know, to think, to want you more, To believe, to care, to want you more, The thought if never holdong you, makes me wish you were never true! |
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we met that night you and I our first night together never thought I'ld cry. |
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I cleaned the house and cooked the food I took care of the home that was the job I thought I understood.' Everyday the children were fed and robed he did this with his job on the road. |
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That smile I did see not a true smile one that looked concerned curiouse to know |
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11-22-91 |
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You were different that night a man I do recall mature and handsom the beauty had to fall. |
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He took care of the bills and family I took care of the children and home willingly. Growing up I always believed this was the woman's place that was all I needed to bring beauty and smiles to my face. |
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is it love? His eyes can see his smile can tell I love him yes, |
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Under my vail I thought he was happy too, until slowly reality begain to rein true. I could not honor and love him the way he saw fit soon all that I was vanished bit by bit. |
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We made love that night I barely knew your name you said you were shocked I was the same. |
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WHERE'S THE LITTLE GIRL |
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I always will now I look with wounder in my eyes will he ever love me??!! |
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Somehow it happened I became unvailed being slapped with the reality that I failed. He revealed that there just was no real Beauty telling me all I refused to hear or see. |
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4-23-92 |
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Where are the dreams from childhood years where are the hopes of never seeing tears? |
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You told me that night we'ld be together long everything ends even the words to this song! |
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Soon I forgot how to laugh or smile the happiness would come and go once in awhile. We promised that day to stay married till death not to part till we've taken our last breath. |
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Who is this failure before my eyes? Its the vision of my own life. |
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5-11-92 |
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I've learned that you can die in more ways than one there is the death of the body and mind to name some. But what is to become of the death of the soul when all that you are is now an empty hole. |
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ALLTOGETHER ALONE |
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Three years ago I married this very man I tried to love him the best I can. I no longer understand the meaning of honor and respect what I thought to be true had an opposite effect. |
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Where is the smile that once was bright where is the laughter of that beautiful sight? |
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I've climed the highest mountain jumped the tallest tree and they say that makes me free! |
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BARLEY AN ADULT |
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Now these three children we watch grow day to day are all that remind us why we must stay!!
4-13-99 |
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Who's is this face that frowns down on me? It is the vision of my own that I see. |
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I've swam the largest river flew in the darkest sky and they say it gives a natural high! |
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Here I am barley an adult watching my life fall apart Turning in directions I've never known trying hard to never be alone. |
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But through it all though it hurts to the bone I'll always be....Alltogether Alone!!! |
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Giving my heart freely only listnening to my feeling doing it once than again never able to find the end. |
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Where's the little girl with high hopes and beautiful dreams who once believed, she could do anything?? |
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1992 |
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1992 |
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Woundering why it has to be what is wrong with me letting it happen everytime then learning my heart is only mine. |
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ALL I ASK |
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IT'S TIME |
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Feeling low and cheap inside letting my sexuality out so not to hide feeling used yet still spreading my legs letting out the fever that begs. |
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Could you spare a moment to take my hand in yours to hold me close to you, and pull me from pain's doors? |
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I never said forever and neigther did u we said for now so lets be true. |
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Never understanding I'm like the rest always saying from them I am the best not mature enough to know until like them I begain to grow. |
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Do you have the extra time, to whipe my teary face, to kiss my red, sore eyes, and protect me from this frightning pace? |
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To fall in love I didn't know how you plainly refused but what of us now. |
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Looseing my sanity everyday trying to live life my way yet not knowing true love at all just catching others while I fall. |
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Would you take the day off to sit and have a chat to laugh together and show our love all I ask of you is that!!! |
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I know your heart was battered and bruised mine was treated the same but I never refused. |
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How long till I learn to live to earn my own before I give to look both ways before crossing the street standing clear of men I meet. |
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8-11-93 |
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We had our fun playing our game I begain to fall deep you did the same. |
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When will I stop selling myself short and believing in my own sort Instead of pretendingin who I am not and start loving me that is all I got. |
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HEAVEN
Heavenly love not pearly gates no true angels above just heavenly love.
Heavenly smiles no fairytailed unicorns not gold streets for miles just ever lasting heavenly smiles.
Smiles and love not heart aces not tears up above just true smiles and love!!!
1991 |
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Now we say "Love" is it something we keep I believed in the word to my heart it was deep. |
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I love you yes I am sure You've heard now its time for honesty in your word. |
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Because here I am barley an adult watching my life fall apart. Woundering why it has to be what is wrong with me!?! |
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You say "I love you" you're like a mime, repeating what you hear out of time. |
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1992 |
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What is your "love"? The trueth I fear but now its time for me to hear.....! |
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GLIMMERING NIGHT
Oh how I long to share the glimmer of the night, wrapped in your arms and holding on tight.
Unable to resist the sparkle of the star shining in your eyes from way out far.
I am longing to feel the touch of your lips like the touch of the moon on the mountain cliffs.
Waiting for the moonbeams to embrace our heart and tell us of the night when it comes to depart.
Hold fast my love to the glimmering night for it too shall vanish leaving behind an empty light!!
1999 |
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