friday, november 15
"the only one" - cademon's call

agggh, mixed-feelings day. that would be a really good domain name. mixed-feelings.net/org. once i buy one i think i'll name it that. that or acid-ecstacy.net/org. & check out my calendar thingy! thanks nat!

i did really good (i think) on my devotion. it was about worrying (which i've been doing a lot of lately). and i impacted someone's life. i feel so angelic now. hehe. singing test rocked. ah, my group's the best! muhahah! j/k.

anyways, out of the pure randomness of the moment i decided to go on neopets and started posting stuff on the message boards. yeah, i'm weird, i know. but, i got into this conversation with this girl about how she was ashamed to like this guy, and that he was an ugly guy by the standards of the rest of her friends and if she told her friends she'd be really embarrassed ...awww. how sad is that! *sigh* history repeats itself.

ok! its like, one day you're friends with him, and then he tells you he likes you, and then you tell him that he's not that bad looking (and he wasn't) but not really the top of your list because you're afraid of what your friends will think, and then he gets all sad and mad and starts dissing himself, and then you have to make him feel better but you feel bad because you kind of don't mean it, and he starts to ignore you and is openly mean to you in a group of friends but is still really sweet and nice online.

but you still can't bring yourself to delete his e-mails or IM conversations because they're really sweet, and you know you can blackmail him anytime with those. agggh, it's not fair! why do you have to care about what your friends think of you?

was i talking about myself? whoops.
no! i'm not being defensive! heh.

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sunday, november 10
theme song: "moment in time" - me

coolness. good day today. well, sort of. first we went to church which was good, and i finally got to talk to cole (since i haven't talked to him in like a month) and he finally unbleached his hair! omg! cole, it looks sooooo much better!!! seriously, dude. and i caught up with desirae, and katie, and kaylee, and annette. and one more thing that's bad, is that brighton and i have been making each other do really stupid bets. it's the most retarded thing. but it's still funny. grrr brighton!!!

on a much sweeter note:
Meg has returned!!!
yay! meg is back, with a sweet layout and yeah, so go give her lots of love!

happy early birthday to allison!

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saturday, november 9
theme song: "sk8r boi" - avril lavigne

yay! the guestbook has finally been fixed thanks to the wonderful people at pick-me.net! you can go ahead and sign it now. and i promise to return the favor and sign your guestbook as well. phew. wowsers, over 2000 people! you guys are awesome!

anyways, i had a good day, and i did some major shopping at the nordstrom half yearly sale. i got all these cute sweaters and this really adorable roxy sweatshirt in the girls (little girls) section. LOL. i am so glad i can still wear stuff from the kids section (because it's cheaper) and i can still wear stuff from the teen section. ah, the best of both worlds comes from the fact that i'm short, and proud of it!!! anyways...yeah. that's basically all i did, which reminds me, i need to finish that chemistry junk, so laters.

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friday, november 8
ok, i am officially having guestbook issues. so don't sign it! well, actually you can't, because i didn't realize this, that when you sign it after previewing it, it keeps going back to the preview page over and over and over again. thanks brighton for telling me this. the problem will be resolved eventually, once emily gets back to my e-mail. no wonder...i was wondering why no one was signing my guestbook. LOL.

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theme song: "mambo hot" - some guy lopez

wooo hoo! a new layout. i got kinda bored of the orange one, and it kinda hurt my eyes late at night. lol. what do you think of the new layout? for some new stuff to the site, i have a megabook now, kindly hosted by emily! so please go sign it! the old guestbook is still up for viewing, but don't sign it. also, i added two new poems down in the "nerves" section. *points* yeah. down there. "space locker" is about my friend sarah's locker. she covered it in tinfoil, and the rest of the story is in the song. LOL. "because i'm weird" is about this person not talking to me because i'm weird. pretty self-explanatory.

today was the PLAN test. ugh. i hate everything about standardized tests. sitting in alphabetical order, how it's deathly quiet, and having to listen to some old teacher telling us how to perfectly fill in a little bubble. ugh. it wasn't actually that bad. it was kinda easy, but knowing stuff like that, i probably missed some really huge detail. and i'm really glad that we have a four day weekend!!! yay! we get tomorrow off, because there's some drama play and monday off because of veterans day. ahh, a nice relaxing weekend.

go varsity boys soccer team!!!!!! oh yeah! they're goin' to state!
go daniel, scott, ryan, jon, kyle, toshi, and jason! whoo hooo!!! and anyone else i forgot. :P

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saturday, november 2
today's theme song: "it's been a while" - staind
wow, its been forever since i posted. probly about a week. but for those of you who actually keep track of the *sarcastically* dramatic happenings of my life, eh. who are those people??? anyways, i've been totally swamped with homework, plus midterms. ugh. i think i did ok, but not totally spectacular in Pre-Cal. ugh, i hate that class. but! i kicked some major butt in the Bible midterm. 179 out of 150!!! i put soo much extra credit, lol. choir midterm was easy. then we had a half day. the next day, which would be friday, was a half day, since we have midterms. and we have our 3rd block and 4th block classes and just a half day. anyways. what's funny, (i actually heard this from matthew) is that our band teacher, since he never comes to any of the teacher's meetings, didn't know that friday was a half day and forgot to show up!!! LOL!!! anyways. i don't think i did that well on the chemistry midterm. there's just something about that class that makes it soo hard. not that i have anything against the teacher, she's a nice person. just the class is tremendously boring.

on a not so boring note...
i didn't really do anything for halloween, because of midterms and i ended up hanging out at allison's house and watching for trick or treaters. and there was only like 2! the whole night!

according to them, here's the explanation of my name.

"Your first name of Jessica has given you a responsible, expressive, inspirational, and friendly personality. Expression comes naturally to you and you are rarely at a loss for words; in fact, you have to put forth effort at times to curb an over-active tongue. Self-confidence has made it easy for you to meet people and you are well-liked for your spontaneous, happy ways. You sincerely like people and do not often experience loneliness; your work and home-life are likely filled with association. You enjoy music and could have a fine singing voice; however, the study could be somewhat difficult because you do not find it easy to apply yourself to concentrated study for long periods. In this respect, this name is not altogether constructive; it creates a somewhat scattering influence which makes it difficult for you to finish what you start. This name brings disappointments and emotional involvements through being too sympathetic and easily influenced. As a result of your active nature, you have an appetite for quick-energy foods, which you could consume to excess. Health weakness appear as skin conditions, or as ailments relative to the liver."

and here's my alter ego's name analysis.

"Your first name of Jessie has made you a hard worker with a meticulous sense of detail. You have a great deal of patience and independence, and you can be relied upon to complete your undertakings. You are stable, trustworthy, homeloving, and logical in practical matters, but rather unresponsive to suggestions from others. You resist change. This name does not give you great ambitions, vision, or imagination. It frustrates the expression of your softer, feminine qualities in that you find it difficult to express the depth of your feelings for those you love. It limits you to practical matters of the day, filling your life with detailed routine. hard work, and monotony. Weaknesses in the health could affect the intestinal organs, causing growths, ulcers, constipation, or glandular conditions. Problems from head tension affecting the eyes, ears, sinuses, or teeth could arise."

how ironic. lol.

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friday, october 25
theme song: "skittles and combos" - relient k

first, how bout a friday five actually on friday! heh.

1. What is your favorite scary movie? probably...uhm, i'm not really into scary movies. i don't like any. they...scare me.
2. What is your favorite Halloween treat? candy corn! mmm!!!!
3. Do you dress up for Halloween? If so, describe your best Halloween costume. i don't. because i'm going to my youth group's harvest party. but, if i did dress up, i would want to be a pink bunny. or something cute like that. or a piece of cotton candy.
4. Do you enjoy going to haunted houses or other spooky events? pfftt, no. unless i'm watching a scary movie in a dark theater and i'm sitting by josh. heh. heh.
5. Will you dress up for Halloween this year? no. i will not.

and today i'm posting from allison's house. whee hee! she's really nice, and one of my best friends from school. :) go give her some love. and i'm really happy for her, because this guy that she loves, is back in the US! and i think he really likes her! it's sooo cute! he TOTALLY likes her! anyways. school was ok. heh. math sucked. mr. barbar wasn't really explaining ANYTHING right. and it was really angering me. grrrrrr!!!! the skittles song was stuck in my head all day, and it inspired me to by a bag of them at lunch. (tee hee) which was the only bright point in my day. oh well. i have to play for pep band at the homecoming game today, and i don't really want to. maybe i'll prank call joe and mr. davis and daniel like i did last game. *grins*

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wednesday, october 23
theme song: "jerk" - me
tomorrow is our playoff game! i'm so excited and nervous at the same time. i want to have fun. but i know that this one is the big one yet. *smiles* but, momentum will keep us going. plus God's on our side as well. oh yeah, and star at star.star-gazers.net made me a nice little sign thingy! i love it!

thanks star!

oh yeah, and GOOD JOB! to the boys team! they're the first undefeated boys soccer team since 1972? or 1971? anyways. yeah. don't know why i'd really care, but i do.

AND! my "favorite person" came up to me today and said how good i did in the game yesterday. hah! like she was even there! maybe my mom told her. they've been talking A LOT lately. suspicious. and she said how cute i looked today. LOL. she likes to compliment me on my clothes and how cute i look and that i should give her son some fashion tips. heh. laugh laugh laugh.

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tuesday, october 22
theme song: "everywhere" - michelle branch

WE WON WE WON WE WON!!! WHOO HOOO!!!! *screams at top of lungs*

yes! we beat them! and now we're going to playoffs! praise the Lord! i am soo happy, and i almost took my extremely tall defender out....heh heh heh.

i hope the boys won their game. if they did, they'd be the first undefeated team since 1972.

anyways. yeah. i hope i got a better grade on my math test. arrh. my bible project is not going well. glen and jacob have no work ethic! why are they even in my group??!?!? oh well. they're my friends, and they need a good grade. hah! oh yeah, we found out our concert choir groups today, and mine's pretty cool. but i need to finish this bible Jonah project. and yeah.

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monday, october 21
theme song: "can't get you out of my head" - kylie minogue

oh yeah, and i've been having issues with the button links *points* (at the bottom, under "loved"), and in my browser, they don't popup in a new window... is it the same for you? please leave me a comment. i'm using IE 5.

when did life get so stressful. argh, its not fair. not fair not fair not fair. BUT! i got a better grade on my math test. 3.5! whoo hoo! instead of 8! ok, so i'm a weird person. oh well. bible class was really ovewhelming because we have all these projects due in a row. which really sucks. arrrghhh!!! i'm not really worried about jazz band or choir, they're both actually a nice break from this mayhem. CHEMISTRY SUCKS!!! i got a really bad grade on the quiz about polyatomic ions and junk like that, and we have a huge test, plus a paper, and then midterms (which is a whole 'nother story). soccer is also putting some more pressure to the load. i'm a starting left forward, and my shins have been hurting like heck for a while, and if we lose tomorrow's game we dont get to go to playoffs, and i really want to go to playoffs and i'm really nervous about that. plus all the issues with josh. it's kind of hard to ignore him. i tried!!! really i did!!!! but it's rather hard. *sigh* if only josh was easy to ignore, then my life would be less complicated. but, he's not. i don't know if that's starting to bother me or not.

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saturday, october 19
theme song: "big star machine" - superchic[k]
ahhh, my eyes hurt. today i did nothing but homework. chemistry sucks! i hate all this ionic junk. and i had to work on my bible poster all by myself *sniffles* while jake and glen frittered away all this fun at jake's b-day party. grrr. by the way happy birthday, jake. i hate having all homework days. well, not really, as you've probably noticed i did finally change the layout. layout changes take such a long time....but i guess they're worth it. and it's named after one of my fave songs by superchic[k]. superchic[k] is such an awesome group!!! i want to see them in concert soo much!

could someone help me comprehend
how my wanting to have friends
is now this monster that i feed
it's popularity i need
when people think that i'm the deal
it helps me feel like i am real
but i think i've lost the need
looking for the star machine
i dont want any part of it
everything is here today
gone tomorrow, big star machine
ricky martin or menudo
big star machine
VH1 where are they follows
big star machine
how could i have been so shallow
big big big star machine....

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saturday, october 12
theme song: "sweet misery" - michelle branch
pretty princessy dress. $399.99.
hair, makeup, and nails. $52.50.
tickets. $0.00
the coolest homecoming night ever. priceless. for everything else there's my loving father.
heh! or i couldn't go and decided to save all that money for my trip to Europe and not get my dad mad. yeah, it pretty much amounted to that. i just sat and watched all the Indiana Jones movies since i haven't seen them in such a long time. LOL. not that i'm really mad that i didn't go, and ashley didn't win!!!! noooo! i wanted her to be homecoming queen soooo bad!!!! she should've won. but sarah won, and she was like, 5/9 on my list of who should win. oh well. today's blog will be extremely short, because i didn't do anything. heh.

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friday, october 11
theme song: "we are the champions" - queen
coolies! we actually won tonight's homecoming football game! woot! last year they killed us, and half the team got concussions and junk like that, and i had fun cheering for Ben! go Ben! i think you're the coolest!!! you totally rock! anyways, having to be there for pep band (ah, the shame) wasn't that bad. depsite only missing like 5 songs (during the touchdowns) i didn't do that bad. even on "Chameleon" which i hate. oh, and cell phones are a wonderful thing. me, Joe and Mr. Davis all had our cell phones and exchanged numbers, and then walked around the track and started prank calling each other. LOL! hilarious! and i even got Daniel and Jacob to sing in my phone and Mr. Davis took 2 quarters to figure out who it was. Not Matt!!! funny funny. anyways, thought i'd actually do the friday five on an actual friday when i had time to spice up my blog. heh! as if it doesn't have enough already. by the way, keep your eyes peeled for a new layout...one is coming soon, when i have some more time on my hands. heheheh! AS IF!

TODAY'S FRIDAY FIVE....ACTUALLY ON FRIDAY FOR ONCE
1. If you could only choose 1 cd to ever listen to again, what would it be? actually there's two...but anyways. both of the relient k CDs (Relient K and The Anatomy Of the Tongue In Cheek). they both are totally awesome. matt thiessen rocks!
2. If you could only choose 2 movies to watch ever again, what would they be? most likely Kate and Leopold even though its kinda of a sappy movie, and i'm not into sappy movies, i actually like this one. for other reasons, and that it was cute! and the other one would be ocean's eleven. just because i think its a cool movie, and because someone looks exactly like Brad Pitt. LOL.
3. If you could only choose 3 books to read ever again, what would they be? my most fave books that i will read over and over again are: The Lord Of The Rings series, Tupsu: The Squirrel Who Was Afraid, and The Diary Of An Incoherent Writer.
4. If you could only choose 4 things to eat or drink ever again, what would they be? mmm, hard decision. not really. the top one would probably be a slushie, a florida slushie from disney world, then my grandma's beef stew, which is awesome. and i cant forget Oreos, and lastly, hot chocolate...
5. If you could only choose 5 people to ever be/talk/associate/whatever with ever again, who would they be? JOSH JOSH JOSH, Amber, because i miss her sooooo much and i need to call her in the near future, Matt Thiessen, because i think he's cool and is awesome in Relient K, my mom, because she's cool, even though she laughs at me sometimes. and lastly but nowhere near least, i've always wanted to meet God and Jesus and ask them, "Why is the sky blue? and not orange or pink?" and thank Jesus for dying on the cross for my sins.

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wednesday, october 9
theme song: "if we get F's, i know who i'm gonna kill" - me
ha ha ha ha! we won our soccer game today, and i was really happy despite the sucky-ness of today. lets see, got all my math homework done. :) whoo hoo. now i dont have to do any. bible class we worked on our Colossians project, and i dont know why i have Glen and Jacob in my group. we have no work ethic. Glen and i end up getting mad at Jacob and then we argue and dont get any work done. which kinda sucks. sometimes my guy friends bother me. like today for instance, trying to find me a date for the banquet? *shakes head* what was up with that? and no Ryan, i will not go with Daniel or Jon. *rolls eyes* if (and that is a very big if) i have a change of heart, i'll know who to call. Allison, i feel your pain. really. and i sympathize. arrgh. it hurts. IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS....and i'm less happier than usual (DuH!) which is "throwing off my groove." and is really sucking. because my friends are starting to notice. and i try, i really try to stay my happy go lucky self, but sometimes it's hard. and people think i have a perfect life since i'm usually happy. uh, no, i have problems and all that junk, but i try to stay positive in the situation. this time it's been pilling up. i'm not doing that good in pre-calculus or chemistry, or soccer, and my parents and i have been "talking loudly" for the last few days, and i don't have a heck of a chance with Josh, and i wish i did, but then i wish i didn't, because i probably wouldn't have any time. *heavy sigh* but mostly i've been walking around in a dead stupor chanting "it's not fair....it's not fair" in chemistry class to my oblivious friends. but i guess in time this hurt will pass, and then i'll think Josh is ugly and a total nerd and i won't talk to him and the rest of the world will be jolly, like when i could've cared less. you know what, when i have a bad day, my soccer games go well. odd.

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sunday, october 6
theme song: "pointless" - me
ah, a nice yell at myself weekend. not really, i can't really yell at myself at sarah's house...they would think i'm weird or something...as if they already don't...lol. anyways, i hung out at sarah's house for the loooong 4 day weekend. and we saw the veggietales Jonah movie on friday. and we were the oldest people in the theater (LOL). but it still was a pretty funny movie. i totally encourage you to watch it. now back to the dreary part of my weekend.

i really wanted to go to the homecoming banquet this year because i didnt go last year and i've never been to one and And AND! this one's going to be held at this really pretty mansion thingy. and after i saw the brochure with the picture of the place on it i really wanted to go. and chris, and julie, and allison and brent (i think) all have dates to the banquet. and i don't. is it because i'm a jerk? am i a jerk? and in my mind if the girl asks the guy, then she must be really desperate. heh. one thing that i try not to do is go against my own weird reasoning and i dont really want to ask someone because i'm also totally shy at this type of junk. which makes me laugh. i suppose i shall be at home like last year, writing songs, strumming on my guitar, having a sapfest (watching sappy movies) with Ashley (lol, like we planned, right?), and talking to the other banquet-less people on instant messenger about how much we hate banquets.

REASONS I CAN'T GO TO THE HOMECOMING BANQUET
-dont have anyone to go with.
-all my guy friends think the banquet is stupid and a waste of $$$.
-dont have a dress at the current moment.
-homework. heh.
-overprotective father.
-people think i'm a jerk!?!?!
-i am shy.
-my weird reasoning.
-there's 1 person i'd really really want to go with but the chances of him asking me? heh.

REASONS I CAN/SHOULD GO TO THE HOMECOMING BANQUET
-i've never been to one.
-socializing!
-the place they're having it at is pretty.
-peer pressure. (j/k)
-cause i want to.

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wednesday, october 2
theme song: "breathing" - lifehouse
i am hanging on every word you say
and even if you don't want to speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
cause I want nothing more than to sit
outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
is where I want to be...

i love that song.

i didnt talk to Josh today, for some odd reason, so the song kinda goes, and makes me think of on the plane ride, and just hearing him breathe was comforting in a reallly weird and odd way. can't explain it. anyways, i did awful on the chemistry test, and i'm still sick. and when i sing my voice squeaks, my vocal range has dropped 2 octaves, so i basically sound like a junior high boy going through puberty. LOL. Katie says my voice sounds cute. no. it doesn't. sorry Kates, i cant agree with you on that one. math sucked. as always. and mr barbar is making me really angry because he's such a bad math teacher! (5 mistake and above is D!!!! lol) and for the sake of randomness....

JESSIE'S ANALYSIS OF CONCERT CHOIR SONGS
"Hosanna To the Son of David" ~ HATES - i always always always get lost in that song, and my section is always 5 beats early, and we have to play it over and over again and it makes us look like retards in front of everyone.
"I'll Hear the Trumpet Sound" ~ LIKES - now this one i can actually get my part right.
"Tomorrow Shall Be My Dancing Day" ~ HATES - the words to the song confuse me.
"Christmas Lullaby" ~ LIKES - it sounds pretty.
"Sanctus" ~ LIKES - ditto "Christmas Lullaby"
"Praise, Praise, Praise..." ~ LIKES - its super easy.
"I Know I've Been Changed" ~ LIKES AND HATES - it sounds cool, really cool, but it gets stuck in my head ALL day and then it gets annoying.

and one more thing.... i am officially worth $2,000,890,657.
who wants to take me to the homecoming banquet now??? heh!

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sunday, september 29
theme song: "the busy song" - veggie tales
yes! BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY! we have our Japanese exchange students here this weekend, and they leave tomorrow :( ! they are so sweet and cute! i love 'em. anyways. i've been sooooooooooo busy its not even funny. with soccer games, loads of chemistry junk, trying to maintain somewhat of a social life, and keeping on track with God, it gets tiring...which gets you sick. and i am sick. my throat hurts and i cant sing, which is nearly impossible so i end up messing my throat up even more, and i didnt want to play for the football game on friday, since i was sick and yeah. i was kinda mad at that to begin with. and all those e-mails about Josh?

1. to the youth group people (katie, kaylee, meg, brighton, nick, joel). NO! not Josh, Daniel's brother! NO! No, no, no, no. LOL.
2. to everyone else. his name is not really Josh. it's kinda like a nickname, or a pet name. and its also because i think he'd make a good Josh.

well now that that's all cleared up...i can get on with my life. or not. i could just sit in this tiny beam of sunshine and not venture out into the darkness....because tonight is the RELIENT K CONCERT!!! whoo hoo!!!

but i can't go. because it starts at 9! (yeah, can you believe that?)
and brent (please for the love of God) get me MATT THIESSEN's autograph??

Jessie's Current Thoughts Of the Moment
MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN JOSH MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN MATT THIESSEN

lol. i need to get out more. :P

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monday, september 23
"failure to excommunicate"
today was a jolly day! hehe! eheheheh! Josh gave me a present! he is so sweet! I got a nickel from him! LOL. it was in band class and then Brent was harassing my trombone (dont ask, its like when he went out with a chair). so Josh was like "sorry you had to go through all that (Brent being weird) and here's a nickel for your trouble." LOL LOL LOL *falls over laughing* and you know what i'm going to do? i'm going to put the nickel in an airtight safe so i can keep it for the rest of my life until i die so it doesnt decompose with all the carbon and junk in the air. or i could melt it down and make it into something like a ring or a pendant for a necklace (lol). take the poll! and comment which one you think i should do with the nickel. or i could also just keep it in my wallet for the rest of my life and spend it on something really cool like a slushie. oh well. :)

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sunday, september 22
"oops"
i forgot to do the friday five on friday, so um, yeah, sunday five! and i changed the font because i was in a weird mood...like everyday.

1. Would you say that you're good at keeping in touch with people? mostly. depends on who. if i knew them really well (like amber, or aves, or melissa) i would keep in really good communication with them. if not, then forget you! lol.
2. Which communication method do you usually prefer/use: e-mail, telephone, snail mail, blog comments, or meeting in person? Why? i think meeting in person is by far the best method, because everything else seems impersonal. :)
3. Do you have an instant messenger program? How many? Why/why not? How often do you use it? i have aim and msn messenger. i like instant messaging programs. they rock. and that's the only way i can keep up with my friends (at least some of them). like, some people i only talk to online and i never talk to them at school. i guess that's what it's for.
4. Do most of your close friends live nearby or far away? most live far away :( Amber lives in California, Melissa lives in Arizona, Aves lives in North Carolina, Deanna lives in Seattle) i could go on an on.
5. Are you an "out of sight, out of mind" person, or do you believe that "distance makes the heart grow fonder"? mostly the former. if i dont see the person staring me in the face everyday, i usually forget them. there are some exceptions....

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friday, september 20
"could've been better"
being shy really sucks. really! i'm not a shy person. my friends will testify to that! i'm outgoing and talkative around everyone, except him. grrr! why me? why him? why are things the way they are? i can't talk to him, and now he probably thinks i hate him (which i dont). and i certainly do not want that impression to come across. *sigh* hey, it's not like i have anything relevant to say anyways, LOL. and here's today's song for ********.

In the car I just can't wait,
to pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
I'm too scared of what you think
You make me nervous so I really can't eat

Let's go, don't wait, this night's almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever

When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that i'm probably gonna miss

Let's go,don't wait, this night's almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever......

jessie sang out at 9:44 PM - - guestbook