Soulmates Secret Garden

Following my Mother's passing, there was a searching of the unknown ~

In a strange and beautiful way, when speaking of the spiritual, to talk about the discovery of the ultimate truth of the unknown of the discovery, one that would bring my spirit a deeper understanding of what has not been revealed and bring into my completion.

My life was on automatic pilot, recovering from my own obsessions and my split personality of depresson. Deep within my soul, something was nuging me that my vision of my life on earth was not complete.

Rumi once said that any search takes us away from the object of our desire. He said the wisdom we seek is within us, already there, just waiting for our awakening.

There are so many things I don't need to know in order to love and fogive. Most of them distract me from the simplicity of devotion.

The simplicity of my life as the awarness of my divine love of God and my twinflame soulmate love continually revealed the depth of our previous lifetime with Jesus.

It is in the stillness that revelation is realized....for in the stillness is the greatest revelation of soul relationshis and where our personal belief is that spiritual practice enhances the physical, as the energy of love flows thru the physical spirit and soul, allowing the magical healing power of a higher understanding that enhances the physical... The body is old and wise, indeed, when freed from the emotional blockages that often traumatize the healing process.

My understanding of forgiveness is when time is aligned to the present, where the past is revealed and brought into the light thru the essence of the memory, where we experience our inner and outer realities of cosmic harmonizing. Thru our meditation, is where the physical healing is helped by the body chemistry of emotional soul clearing Love of the self is no longer a mystery.

After my heart surgery in August of 2003, I decided to approach my health considerations, as my relationships shifted away from unfinished work and towards a deepening spiritual partnership of oneness... I found that there was often an emotional charge from my soulmate's Sacred Sunday's inspirational messages over the internet....which has been continous for the past five years of my life.

The past cannot be altered. The past is held in a state of eternal suspension, the words and deeds live there forever, the events were and nothing can undo them. The past is like an old picture, it changes not. Only the present has power for change, and that change is only a breath as the present continually feeds the past. Events such as the assassinations of presidents Lincoln or Kennedy stare back at us like an old lithograph, and cannot be changed. The pages of history having been written cannot be rewritten. The past can be analyzed and interpreted over and over, but the one true happening stands until the end of time. Life is a chain of events. We exist because certain events did or did not happen. The past cements those sequences of events indefinitely. We may refer to them, reflect about them, reminisce about them all we wish, but we cannot change even one little thing. Our powers stop with this second, and cannot go back even an instant. The invisible gate locks and what has happened is secured forever. The past is sealed and we cannot interfere. What has occurred is over with, and though it may have effects upon the future, the specific action which took place can never be repeated again identically. Things will not be, and cannot be the same today as they were yesterday. Something is always different. Today grows out of yesterday, and today is always new. It is a rushing wave, this now, that sweeps us along unceasingly from birth to death. We are never really conscious of now until it is past, for by the time we have thought about it, now has become the past. We blink our eyes now, but by the time we have thought about it a few seconds have past, and that blinking of our eyes has become a part of history, and though a million years may pass the fact can never be altered that on a certain day at a certain time we blinked our eyes. It does not matter whether events are witnessed or not, they still take their eternal place in the record book of time in the universe. There is not a leaf that falls to ground, not an ant that scurries underfoot, not a pebble tossed in a stream, and not a drop of rain that does not have everlasting significance.

Memories of my experience of healing from cancer in 1991 and personal caution was on the forefront of soul attachments. These memories was pivotal in my present soulmate relationship as the fear of dying was replaced the desire to experience the divine love on the higher dimensions...and from this place of enlightment, I found myself surrounded by angels and that of their encouragement to dwelve into the interdimensional healing art...yet finding the world was not ready to experience art that allows one to soul travel and activate the soul of unconditional love.

I later understood the emotional attachments of a soulmate relationship that created the resonance and blockages for the cancer to enter into my body.

Often we are awakened from our dream of beliefs and perceptions that has separated lovers and soulmates to experience the divine love on the physical plane as free will still exists within our relationships.

When we speak of the divine God consciousness, we can quickly become irrelevant.... But when we focus on the divine manifestations people listen. Stories of beauty, where we have been, our life experiences, of personal friendships that never leads to disagreements, only understandings. Spiritual discovery is where all expression is known ~ what brought us together again brings the divine expressions of love that Jesus taught.

Being good, kind and loving is the highest sacred act, the highest teaching, the pure joy of life.

Our Search for Oneness

2003-2004
Thur online viewing of my soulmate's romantic relationship was the beginning of the end of fulfilling my monad karmic relationship with Michael. When relationships consciously or unconsciously honor their commitments to have a romantic or sexual relationship, there is an attraction there, as they have chosen to express it on the internet....and I could sense much of what was felt and embraced thru their physical experinences...

Feeling their internal drives, their outer emotional attachments... the illusions of their ego drives...and the joy of their physical attractiveness.

As Easter approached, the experience of a miracle..a precious moment of divine understanding, reminding me of forgiveness, of the truth of being witness to the death of Jesus where my purest essence and soul memories were awakened.

At this level, you are a ball of light and energy and exist with those you have known, in this life, lives past and those yet to come.

"Love one another as I have loved you."

My Soulmate's twinflame's Easter message of forgiveness drew me closer to understand the events of the past, of personal disappointment of the sense of defeat of soul relationships...and that of my emotional turmoil for 10 years of our karmic attachments.

The Paradox of Love

Sometimes loving God and experiencing His love is like walking through a beautiful scented garden, linking arms with a beloved friend, sharing our most secret hopes and dreams, plans and aspirations, as well as offloading our worries and our stresses. It is so easy, so relaxed, so comfortable. It just seems perfect, like Heaven would have it be. All the Scripture promises bounce into our minds at these times and they resonate with joy and delight. It is so easy to sing, and pray. We feel on top of the world with our relationship with Jesus.

But then at other times on our journey with God, we experience times when the going can get really tough. We feel as if we are crawling and groping through dense undergrowth in a dark bushy forest. The way ahead is totally blocked with thorny bushes and we cannot see where we are going. During these times it can be difficult to 'sense' God's presence with us, and we may feel abandoned, rejected, and deeply hurt by Him. Some of us find it hard to pray, or read our Bible, and can even lose direction all together during these times.

This is how it is with true human love. Only those who dream about it (or write the movie scripts!) imagine love to be all rosy and sweet plain sailing, but for those who have lived the way of love know that it is also strewn with thorny patches, and truly difficult times. This is not a sign that love has gone at all, nor in order to discourage or to kill love, but rather to test and to prove love and bring it to its full and most beautiful vintage quality. The trials show us how keenly we yearn for this love;how strongly we need it; how much we are prepared to give up in order to have it or to keep it.Young lovers do not usually know of this love, but after their first major argument, the first test begins, and that teenage heartache we all remember so well reminds of this time. Songs aplenty have been written about this heartache time.

This is not just the prerogative of young love - it just begins there. As any love union continues through the years, there will still be heartaches. They will come through breakdowns of communication; loss of trust; strong disagreements; day to day tensions - these are the types of trials and the pains, of which I am describing. It is at these times that, for all lovers, our hearts ache, and inside we cry out for that wonderful rosy love to be restored, but often we find it so very hard to find the words or the actions to fully express our desires. So our hearts ache. We cry, get angry, withdraw, feel rejected, and until we both sit down and honestly share that our love is the most important thing, not the issue, that we begin to communicate and reach a positive resolution, where love is not only restored, but enhanced, for we have learnt more about self-giving in the process, and more about the importance of our joint love over and above our personal opinions. So along with the delights and the ecstacies, the joys and the fulfilled plans, these thorny paths combine to create a union which is true love - one which will last a lifetime. In human love, this is not always possible, but so many couples give up so easily! With God's love it is always possible!

This paradox of love - the beauty and the pain, the joys and the struggles, reminds me of the paradox we see in the cross of Jesus Christ. In the Cross we see sorrow and love flow, we see hate dealt squarely with forgiveness, we watch rejection handled with quiet dignity; we watch insults handled without retaliation. We see the total opposite of what humanly we would want to do and react in that situation, and are compelled to face a completely new way of coping with life and its hurts.For each one of us to do what Jesus did, and react as He did, we all know that our whole personalities would have to be totally transformed, for that would not be our way!

To be really honest, we must all acknowledge how different our ways are to God's ways, and how totally different we are. Because only God is Divine, and we are human. This is the paradox that only the Cross of Jesus Christ can solve.To believe that growing in love with Jesus Christ will always be easy, and that the closer we are to Our Lord the more clearly we will see the way ahead is to deny the reality of the sufferings of people like Jeremiah, Job, Mary, and so many of the martrys of the Church right up till the present day. Jesus showed us this so absolutely when He was crucified. God loved Jesus, his own Son, yet allowed Him to suffer the agony of the death on the Cross.

So when the going gets tough, I do not doubt that God loves me, I KNOW that He does. I do not stop loving Him, either, for I have learnt, as in true love in a long marriage, that the hard tough parts make the sweet parts even more precious, and all mixed together make a wonderful 'vintage' love which will last. What I do know is that this is a time for more yearning for God, more willingness to give up my way in order to have that love relationship back not just the way it was, but even richer. It is a time to wait and be listen and communicate with God, and hear what He would say to me.

If you, in your journey with God at the moment, are groping about and not finding it easy to enjoy Jesus Christ, begin to pray that whatever it is, and whatever it takes, that God 's will would be done in your life. Continue to pray in this way, just as Jesus did in the garden of Gethsemane, and if you are truly willing to follow wherever He may lead you, and do whatever He may show you, then the Father will lead you through the thicket and the thorns, to a new place of loving Him in a new way.

Along the way some more of You will have gone, and some more of Him will be found within you. This is the journey of Self-emptying - the journey of the Cross. You will have a fuller love for Jesus Christ each time you process through this stage, but I believe it to be a life-long journey, visited and revisited. The more willing we are to pray like Jesus, and do the will of God the Father whatever the cost, the more like Jesus Christ we shall become.

Our journey of discovery intertwined with the very essence of Divine angels, of Jesus and the divine truth as revealed thru our soul to soul experience.

Think of each of our soul personalities as existing in layers, all present at the same time, all one and yet separate. At the highest, Jesus entered into the dream vision in which all are joined and this great source of energy contains the great truth that all is one, and in the end, the ultimate truth and heart of our very beingness.

At this time desiring to come to a rational understanding of painful episodes in my life. Asking the right questions of the soul critical and uncomfortable questions of my relationship with my soulmate. Were all the rejections and dismissals and the scars they left behind really necessary? Is there such a thing as meaningless suffering? By asking these questions you try to come to terms with both your own and others' pain and suffering. We all have to deal with them, because life will confront us with such problems again and again. And even if old psychological wounds cannot be healed by asking probing questions or by analysing them, it is natural and necessary that your intellect refuses to accept this. These are questions that you can only ask yourself, as others may find them unsettling and hurtful.

In a moment of revelation, soul to soul, the truth exploded within our souls..as we experienced the light of divine forgiveness. The dream vision revealed that we believed in" the illusion of a dream" unaware of being present in the physical body, separated with our profound love of God and our Angels.

When essence reveals the light of our search..not in words, as the information presented was given in understanding our souls are shared as one dream yet separate souls.."of our dream vision".

This miracle of our soulmate relationship revealed the truth of a sense of limitations on the physical plane...

When the light is released, we are free to share our essence with the divine love of our choice.

When the unknown releases the vision, it finds you if you are worthy.

Many wise teachers have taught us that when we learn to forgive, where we have been deeply hurt, of labeling our daily emotional drives, searcing for the themes of forgiveness rather than to continue to punish ourselves for what is contained in the very essence of our soul perceptions.

Looking into our past life experiences in this way can make you freer in your behavior, your close relationships and your relationship with your soul. It can also prevent you from hurting others as one approaches the unconscious motives and is revealed as essence is shared as one.

There is the promise of the Next Moment when the goal is that the awakened individual wants to be the one to usher in the unmanifest, the promise of the next moment ...as our participation in our evolutionary process of the revelation.... Perhaps the very words of Jesus "Forgive them for they know what they do" allows us to deepen our existing relationships that reveals our search of Divine Forgiveness.

One profound experience.. that the world hungers for and our souls are lifted and forgiven.

The miracle is that if you can dream ~ and not make dreams your master ~ you can create the change and risk it on one turn to start again at all your beginnings...yet never breath a word about your loss -as language has been our servant.... twisted by our beliefs...

Knowing every single act of hatred or injury toward another is an action that keeps us from harnessing the energy of love or denial of our own separation from Jesus and that of our healing the illusions of love.

Where divine truth allows one to hold on when there is nothing in you except the will which says to have faith in our dream visions ..for it is revealed in its own time and place

It was a most precious gift of rememberance..Desires revealed, a parable to awaken our vision with Jesus...believing in the dream of our illusions ~ as he so loved us ...in our oneness

Jesus spoke to Mericiana ...sharing the intention of the Aloha love...the third principle

Jesus reminded me that the Aloha love was the beginning of God's creation. Hence it follows, that to all eternity, or intent for our souls to ascend is to have a vision that merges the love of soulmates into the fifth dimension, to receive divine abundance of our Aloha love.

Thus it is so revealed thru the moment of our soul communication, the profoud intimacy of our soul to soul understanding, the unchangeable, overflowing fountain of abundance, that sends forth nothing but good to all eternity. Our divine love has fulfilled God's third principle of the Aloha love of the oneness with God... unmeasurable love, doing nothing but from love, giving nothing but gifts of love, to everything that he has made, but the spirit and fruits of that love, which brought them into being. Oh, how sweet is this contemplation of the height and depth of the riches of divine love!

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III. It Is in and through Our Souls that We Make True and Lasting Contact with Other Personalities, Divine and Human (those of our fellows who have self-consciously attained this level of realization, anywhere or anytime in the universes). As we ascend through the mind to enter into our souls and begin to interact with our fellows from this level of consciousness, we leave our materialistic ego selves at the door. In so doing, we are enabled to relate to others simply and directly as unique personalities sharing common Father/Mother parentage and in the context of the shared, common experiential character of our souls. To reach this place, we have been saved from the isolation of the materialistic self (the definition of Jesus' religion) and have come to know that our individual souls offer to each and all of us the experience of a common self, the Supreme Being. From this place, the soul, we can love others unselfishly as our self since these others are our self, and thereby experience the validating love of God. There is no more profound and lasting form of contact between personalities.

"When you once begin to find God in your soul, presently you will begin to discover him in other men's souls and eventually in all the creatures and creations of a mighty universe." (1733:1)