I am seeing more and more butterflies these days. Whenever I go outside I see one floating gracefully on the wind. Many have even landed on my arm, hand, or head. I always feel touched by my Mom's loving presence whenever I see one. She loved butterflies when she was here on Earth and now that she has passed to Heaven I can still feel her loving spirit touch my heart when a butterfly glides by. I think that she must be riding down on a butterfly's back every so often to check up on me. I have no doubt that she has become an angel in Heaven. She was always like an angel to me while she was here on Earth.
I am sure that most of you know more than one person who has been like an angel to you at times. I know many people who have been like angels to me although they would never admit it themselves. The truth is that each and everyone of us has the qualities of an angel within us. We just don't choose to use them, share them, or grow stronger in them. Look deep within yourself. Look down to the very core of your being. Look past all the pain and scars of your thoughts and feelings to the very center of your soul. If you look deeply enough you will see the angelic love and joy that still lies within you. It is up to you, though, to choose this love and joy, to bring it out of yourself, and to share it with the world.
We are all angels. We are all children of God. We are all beings of love and light. We can deny this truth or we can welcome it into our hearts, minds, and souls. We can forget who we really are or we can become the wonderful, glorious people God meant for us to be. We can live in misery and despair or we can choose and share love and joy for all of our days. We can ignore the angel within us or we can be an angel on Earth and later in Heaven.
The Angel in You
You don't see her, but I do.
Each time your eyes twinkle
I see her in you.
Every time you open your heart
With your kind and gentle ways
I see in you an Angel
Sent to smooth the way.
I don't know what I did
To deserve such a friend.
I thank God for you, my dear sister
My Angel until the end.
I hope that when you look
To me for comfort and for Love
You see in me an Angel
Sent from up above.
as time is the perfect now,
healing all doubt of yesterdays,
It's the part of us that's giving,
The part that's so refined
The part that's made of only Love
The part that is Divine.
We are Angels to each other
Whenever we lend a hand
Or dry a tear or sooth a wound
It's all part of His plan.
Reach inside your heart
And you will surely find
Part of you that is an Angel-
So loving, warm and kind.
(two weeks later)
Aloha dear sister Karen,
It was wonderful chatting with you and
feeling your energy. This time I needed
your love and light. Sometimes I so
miss all of you thinking how wonderful it would be to heal my depression and to
be able to speak my love to you. I just
couldn't seem to break thru to that side of me.
I just finished a sculptured art piece
that is of my lifetime when I was with
Jesus. He is standing with a crowd of
people all dressed in long robes. I learned that when I was with Jesus, I must of
lived in a cave and would do wall sculptures where the images would shift and change as the light from the fire would reflect on the wall.
All these years, I was looking for something that I am just now beginning to understand. The art is of a sunburst..
like a sunflower, yet at night it changes
into amazing images that is always
changing and reflecting new images.
I decided to entitle the art "BEING THERE"
as indeed I was....imagine a girl from
Kansas being from ancient Jerusalem and Mother Mary was indeed my mother.
How humble is that!
For a long time I saw happiness as a huge banner across the finish line of a long race. I felt that only when I accomplished certain things could I finally relax and be happy in my life. Most of the time I felt like the tortoise hoping that "slow and steady would win the race." At other times I would act like a crazed hare trying different side roads at breakneck speeds hoping to reach that banner a little faster.
Gradually, though, I began to see that no matter how long I raced towards it, the banner was never any closer. I finally decided one day to sit down and take a break. It was then that I saw my happiness sitting beside me. It had been with me all along.
Amazing how the things that are truly
important to us is when we have the
courage to be ourselves. As I looked
into the image of Jesus that came from my soul, I witnessed how Jesus sees me in all my profound love and light, my compassion, and delight in just being.
I no longer judge myself for being a mystic and
patron saint of our time.
On occassion, I remember
the profound intimacy we shared
in the ancient days and then there was the time that Jesus shared his essence
with me at 3:00 in the morning. Upon hearing the energy of his arrival, I awakened and set up in bed
thinking Jesus rarely comes into this dimension in real time.
His energy was that of a beloved friend.
Interesting, I just read in "Stillness Speaks" that "Reincarnation dosen't help you if in your next incarnation you still don't know who you are. How true is that of our denials.
Indeed, with profound intimacy, Jesus
reminded me of the abundance of communication
we can experience when we shift our perceptions in the moment. Seven years later I realized that his message was intended to create a miracle of healing my depression and
and pain from my denails of a soulmate relationship.
Wow....he was listening to me all the time...
I have so many treasured memories of my childhood. One of my favorites is my love for nature and the profound beauty of experincing mother nature and snow.. that perfect moment in time will always be with me.
Other beautiful treasured moments of our spontanity is of us catching fire flys and putting them in a jar to keep.
Who would ever think that I would save that memory. And too, there
were times that were not so pleasant as
the disappointment at not passing the 5th grade and considered myself as ignorant. For some reason,
I kept that one too.
Now in my 70's, I realize that too is an illusion.
For years, I have had many meaningful conversations with the Lord while scrubbing somebody's toilet or running the vacuum. Many times I have detected the sweet breeze of his presence hovering around me while I dusted and polished. It touches me that God is humble enough to hang out with us in the most humblest of circumstances.
Then I think of Janice as I remember the
time Mom was resting on the sofa pregnant with our new sister. It was a warm day and as I touched Mom's belly, I felt only love for the child yet unborn.
It was that moment in time that Mom shared with me her name. From then on she was a person to me. It was only yesterday.
I was excited that I could be part of her
birth and arrival. I know now that she
is part of US and that she is an angel
here on earth, surely as we all are.
It seems only like yesterday to me
as I held each of my sisters in my arms.
Over the years I learned to love each of you for just who you are.
There is an old Chinese proverb that says, "Tension is what you think you should be. Relaxation is who you are." Perhaps we all should stop our race towards the perfect life we think we should have and rejoice in the life we have now.
I know now happiness will never be found under some banner far away. It will be found in your own heart, soul, and mind. It will be found when you realize that God loves you just as you are and that you can choose and share love and joy as well.
When it comes to your happiness, be a playful puppy and carry your stick of joy with you everywhere you go. Take yourself out of the race and realize that when it comes to love and happiness you are already there.
May God bless you with sweet dreams.
- Daily Ezine Meditation
