In front of you, I’m a happy girl,
I have no fears, no pain, and my smile shines like a pearl.
I like to make believe everything’s fine,
Especially in front of you, my spirit has to shine.
I’m usually joking, and very hyper at times,
But little do you know they always quickly sublime.

The minute you’re away and out of my sight,
My smile fades, and my spirit takes on a flight,
I don’t know why seeing you makes me feel this way,
And it seems like the feelings worsen day by day.
Maybe it’s because I know this is the end of the road,
And maybe in our story, this is the last episode.

Whatever it is, however it hurts, I can’t let you know,
Because it’s the only way you and I can both let go.
Seeing me happy, seeing me glad can help you move on,
Or perhaps your love for me is already long gone.
Who knows what you’re thinking of right at this moment,
Are you thinking of her? Do you even recognize my presence?

Perhaps she’s the reason why I put on a mask,
To show you I’ve moved on, so u needn’t ask.
Perhaps she’s the reason why I’m cold and bitter,
To withdraw myself, so it’ll be forever just you… and her.
Perhaps this is why I shy away from your friendliness,
Knowing that my heart is still what you possess.

My voice, my actions indicate you’re nothing to me,
My emotions, my longing, you’ll never see.
Forgive me if I hurt you, and avoid your dreamy eyes,
For you and for her, I can only put on this disguise.
My apologies u fully receive if I give you the cold shoulder,
Cause right now, my role in your life is only the great pretender.