I thought this day would be wonderful, I thought it would be fun,
I thought you were going to be same, but now I wish it to be undone.
So many nights I’ve dreamed of it, and so many days I’ve waited,
To do what I wanted to do, so you know my feelings weren’t to be wasted.

When I saw you I wanted to die in your arms, but I tried my best to hide the surfacing emotions,
Instead I greeted you with a casual hi, and hugged you lightly without devotion.
You reacted just the same and returned the heartless affection,
But no, it wasn’t even affection, it was merely a touch of notion.

I pretended it didn’t bother me, and wore a spurious smile,
I asked about the casual things, and listened once in a while.
You were in a bad mood, I could tell from the look on your face,
But you said it was nothing, and just picked up your pace.

Following you, I was ready to break down but I hid it too well, you couldn’t even see the difference,
So to cover up, all I could do was keep talking, but to me, the words didn’t make sense.
As we walked into the dark theater full of people, the surrounding fell upon me, and familiarity returned,
And as we sat down next to each other, my body ached and my hands burned.

The movie started and I look at you, your face in the faint screening light looked so cold,
It wasn’t like the days before, when we laughed and talked, with me in your arms to hold,
But this was different, it was unexpected, and it hit me hard like a runaway train,
Because you were so close, yet so far, and I laughed at the movie for no reason, to ease the pain.

Then you talked to me in the same gentle voice, and I couldn’t help but wonder if u still care,
In fact, I know you still care, but why hide it and distant yourself, then put me in despair?
Again we drift in silence, as I review this situation through my head,
The movie didn’t matter, the world wasn’t there, for my soul was dead.

I tried paying attention to the movie, so the hurt and damage wouldn’t sink in,
Pain was unavoidable, because slowly, bit by bit, they crept in.
I teased the characters in the movie, as if trying to make believe nothing was wrong,
But I already knew the last bit of happiness, joy and pleasure was all gone.

I moved in closer, thinking this was just a nightmare, and you were still my sweetie,
You didn’t move a muscle, not even an expression, and knocked me back into reality.
I look away from your face, trying not to look concerned, and stared into blank air asking myself why,
Like a desperate person hanging on to their life from the edge of a cliff, I struggled hard not to cry.

They say a person can only take so much because my feelings couldn’t be contained any longer,
So I put my head on your shoulder once again, and to my heart immediately, was a rush of tender.
That tender was short lasted, since it was quickly replaced by self-pity and hurt,
And as old memories returned, warm tears overflowed from my eyes, and dripped on your shirt.

I cursed at myself inside, for letting go, and letting my wounds show,
I quickly turned away, wiped the wetness from my face, so you wouldn’t know.
But you heard me crying, you saw the tears and you showed deep concern,
I hid my face, shook my head, and didn’t even bother to turn.

I couldn’t face you, I couldn’t talk, and the tears seemed to flow endlessly,
You said you hated seeing girls cry, cause you never knew what to do, but why did you comfort me so gently.
Why did you do this? Why did you make me fall, then help me up?
Why were you so aloof, so unreachable, and when your feelings show, try to cover it up?
Yea, sure, you don’t belong to me anymore, but you say the feelings are there,
Then why can’t I feel it, and why do I feel like I’m dangling in mid air?

As I think of all this, you turned to face me, and asked me what was wrong,
Your voice echoed deep in my head, like a repeating love song.
Your actions, your expressions and your words all seemed so light,
As if afraid there might be the tiniest edge, that’ll cut me, just like a knife.

The delicate touch from your hand tells me everything’s going to be okay,
I wish I could believe you, but I knew you weren’t going to stay.
You told me time will heal, I will be fine and we could still be friends,
It’s easier said than done, because after all, this feels like the end.

The movie kept playing, and time seemed to go in slow motion,
The music, the darkness seemed to heighten my every emotion,
So again, those pathetic fluids uselessly escaped from my eyes,
As I think of what will become of you, and I.

Silently, you studied me closely, and I knew you felt bad, but that wasn’t my intention,
I didn’t want to make you miserable, nor did I cry for attention,
Yet still, you looked into my eyes, and your gaze glimpsed through every bit of me,
Just then I realized, how pretty your eyes can be…

I’ve never felt what I felt then, when I looked into your eyes before,
This time, your eyes tell me something different, something so much more,
They showed love, sadness, pain and longing mixed altogether,
It made me want to freeze that moment, and remember it forever.

Time flies fast, the movie ends, and the next thing I know you had to leave,
I’m left with three words in my mind I wanna say, but they sound so naïve.
So I just walked with you through the parking lot, tired and out of it,
Then to my surprise, it starts to rain a tiny bit,
I hate rain because it’s depressing and made me sick,
But then I didn’t care, after all, my life was being such a prick.

You finally found your car, after several times of walking around,
I didn’t want you to leave, but I can do nothing about it so I just frowned,
You said you didn’t want me to walk all the way back, and offered a ride,
It’s been awhile since I’ve rode with you, so I climbed inside.

After a minute or two in your car, we pulled to a stop,
“This is it” I told myself, but my heart felt like it was going pop,
I leaned over, gave you a hug, and there was my chance,
All I had to do was whisper in your ear, but my mind had me in a trance,
The words almost escaped my mouth, then in the moment away they fly,
So instead, all I managed to say was “bye…”

You tell me to take care and feel better in return,
And I walked out of your car feeling down and stern.
You didn’t drive away, and while I was walking, I could feel your eyes on me,
After I walked into the busy mall again, I took a glimpse behind,
And I see you slowly driving away, then I knew, you were one of a kind.

That day was actually the best and worst day I’ve spent with you,
The best, because I knew your feelings, and they were true,
The worst because I cried, and never been hurt that bad,
But that only explains how much you mean to me, and how much I treasure what we had.

Hey who knows, maybe one day I will tell you what’s on my mind, and say it right,
And maybe, just maybe, someday, we will reunite,
For now, I’ll be waiting for that day, and believing in that day,
But also hope these tears and pain will quickly go away.