| JOURNAL PAGE 20 NEXT PAGE HOME March 27, 2001 Hey what's up! Well, yesterday was probably the worst day I've ever been awake for! Where do I begin? Well, while I was at school everything was OK, I was actually in a good mood while I was there! Shocking, I know! But, I got home......and I was told some very bad news, and it was basically from my answering machine. I found out that my mom's friend, Tyrone, was killed in a car crash, now we don't know all the details, but that's basically what happened. There were like 4 or 5 people on my answering machine either crying or talking about it. I called my mom asked what happened, and she told me...I broke down right there on the phone, I just was completely shocked! So, I was really upset about that the whole night, plus I got into 2 huge fights with my mom, she was being a pain in the ass, and I know I shouldn't have fought with her at the time, but I didn't start it, and I was just ready to explode! Plus, I found out that Greg can't go to the prom, so I was kind of upset about that, but I've recovered cause I'm going just for my friends, THAT'S IT! I'm not entertaining anyone else! Josh is there for decoration, or for the picture, whatever! So, today was a little better....my mom's still upset about Tyrone's death, and I am too, but life goes on, and I understand though! What I don't understand is why he had to go so soon! He was an INCREDIBLE person, and so loving! I had known him since I was in diapers, and he was always so much fun! I'm gonna miss him, I haven't seen him in awhile, but I have alot of memories of him, thank God. But this is the kind of shit that makes me think is there really a god??? Why the fuck would he do this!!! Of all people on this earth, why him!!! I don't really want to get into this cause it'll make me even more upset, so I'm gonna go! I have a LONG day tomorrow, and I gotta wake up at the friggin crack of dawn. Please pray for my mom, and for Tyrone and his family! :) Thank you! Princess Gina March 29, 2001 Time to vent!! and you know what, it's about my mom and I don't give a shit if she reads it!! I am getting so sick and tired of her constantly bringing up this fuckin prom!!! I don't even want to go, and I told her the only reason I'm going is because I want her to shut up, but obviously she doesn't understand that!! I really really don't want to go at all, and my dad says once I get there I'll have fun, but I don't think that's the case! I'm gonna have to friggin babysit my date who doesn't even wanna be there!! So, I won't be having fun! I'd rather go to an after party and that's it! My mom says she has a feeling that on prom night Sarah's gonna go pick up Josh and he's not gonna be at his house and than I'm gonna have no date! I have that feeling too, but I really don't give a shit! If I don't go, then oh well!! It's not like I haven't been to the prom before! All this is is another night for you to get dressed up in an uncomfortable outfit where u sweat and get tired! but u have an extra person u have to entertain, which is something i refuse to do! and I know that my attitude wasa little different 2 days ago, but now I'm just so fed up with it all that I don't want to go, so much stressed would be lifted from me! i don't want to talk about this anymore! Princess Gina March 30, 2001 Well, today has been alot better than yesterday! No headache today! And guess what! I called my mom during music to apologize to her! I know, it's crazy! I don't apologize for things, and seriously none of this was my fault, but I had to do that because I was getting sick of fighting, and I knew I would have to be the one to say sorry. So everything's better! AND listen to this! Josh is up at Penn State this weekend, so I won't be able to get in touch with him until Sunday! I was a little pissed, but not really cause Jim, John, and Chris can talk to him, and maybe even Greg too! So anyway, I'm better! :) Thanks for caring! So, tonight I am staying home! And I'm really happy cause i haven't stayed home on a weekend in awhile. My godfather is coming over and me, him, my dad, and my brother are gonna watch Remember the Titans! And I think we're getting pizza too. I saw RTT on the bus on the way to see Aida......omg wait, did I tell you about that yet??!!! NO, I didn't!! OMG!! Best musical I've ever seen! :) :) I even bought the original cast soundtrack! That's all I've been listening too, the music is incredible! So anyway.....guess who I saw! Carson Daly!! No, I didn't meet him or anything! I saw him through the windows in Time Square! We were outside the Palace Theater waiting for the buses, and through the windows I saw him, but only for a split second, well and when we went by the studio!! I was being such a pain in the ass cause I really wanted to go down there and scream and yell, but it was impossible!! I begged and begged but they wouldn't let me! Soooooo.......my trip to NYC was great! I really wanna go back too! I'm gonna go....damn! there are really long entries on this page! Princess Gina March 31, 2001 Hey, what's up. I'm bored.....I'm actually sitting here listening to all these britney remixes i downloaded! OMG! and u know what I am soooo obsessed with! I don't know why, but Britney's Pepsi commercial song! It is so kick ass for a commercial song....anyway I keep listening to that too! It be nice if they turned it into a song! A friend of mine actually thought it was a song when I showed him the lyrics! I like it though! Ok, so nothing really went on today. I just stayed home, cleaned, did homework, wrote a paper, watched tv, came on the computer, that's about it. You know what I noticed, I don't talk on the phone as much as I used to! See, one of my friends doesn't like talking on the phone so I only call her now every once in awhile, and lately I just haven't felt like talking to anyone, mainly because they bring up the prom. but ANYWAY! tomorrow I have work, oh yay. I so don't wanna go, BUT after tomorrow I don't have to work for another 3 weeks, so that's the advantage, well....Chris Johnson is working and he's so adorable so I'm happy about that! Ok, I'm gonna go! TTYL! Princess Gina April 3, 2001 Hi! Sorry I haven't updated, but I'm making a rule now that I'm only updating when I really have something to say. I don't feel like going through my day and shit! Know what I mean? Anyway, ok well I have some news! Josh, the guy I'm taking to the prom, finally got his tux yesterday!! Alejandra called here and left a message on our answering machine, and I was sooo happy! So, I didn't bother calling him after I tried a thousand times to find out he wasn't home, and Alejandra told me the news. She didn't even ask him, he saw her in the halls at their school and told her!! Craziness! So yeah, I feel alot better about the pron stuff, and I was freaking earlier about my dress cause I personally think it doesn't look right anymore, but whatever! I don't care, I just want my makeup and hair to look good that night! Hmm....anything else...oh! Ok, so Lucille's boyfriend from Cali that she met online is here this week, and all they've been doing is screwing! That's my Lucille! LOL anyway, she wrote in her online diary that they're being bunnies! They're nuts! But I'm excited to see her tomorrow, cause I KNOW that's all she's gonna talk about! So, I'll let you know what's been going on with her! Princess Gina |