Secrets

When I look around and see
All I am and ever be
I wonder if my life is good
And I don't know if I could
All these secrets that I keep
They just make me want to weep
But I wish to be alive
So perhaps I'll take the dive
Into this murky life
That can hold so much strife
And now I see why it is
Why it's so hard to live like this
Keeping secrets and telling lies
About how you really feel inside
No one knows the real me
Because I won't let her be
Around at all because it's pain
And there's nothing to really gain
At least from what I can see
But then again, who is me