Forgotten Hope

So many things that I want to say to you
But I am unable to
I can’t bring myself to speak the words
These damning words
That would put my true feelings at stake
Put my heart on the line
And for no real good cause because I know
I already know you too well
I know your answers to my questions
Your thoughts on my feelings
The forbidden feelings for you because we’re done
I need to accept the truth
The horrible truth of my life, our choices
The choice of our death
We both made mistakes, sometimes real bad
But I can forgive
I still love you, still hate you, still need you
Depression’s my only friend
Since you left, since we were through
I can’t get you out of my mind
Out of my heart, out of my life, out of me
I remember still
I can remember that night, the wonders
The horrors, the greatness
And the hope that you gave to me
Only to have it stolen
Taken back when we were no longer
Hope is gone
Love is gone from my life
I cannot replace you