CHAOTIC RUMINATIONS



You are data traveling in a computer that is sitting on a desk inside a castle in the middle of an island on a planet that is five hundred times smaller than the head of a pin. Do you understand?

Your reference points are set on two grains of sand that you believe represent the first and last, beginning and end. Your band of comprehension is broken and incomplete - these are not two events but the same singular event.

You are not your mind or your soul. "You" are an illusion provided by a complex system that came about through false realization. It is an illusion that is inescapable by any permanent means other than death. There is no reason one should feel guilt or anger or weakness for this - it is an illusion burnt into our hardware and not meant for us to escape.

To embrace the "consciousness" is the only reasonable course of action - attempts to transcend it will leave you with only disappointment. To forget it is an illusion, however, is to remain a fool.

Causality does not exist. Period. End of story.

Your consciousness is a saved state.

The reason humans feel causality exists is because of the way we perceive time. The passing of time can be likened to a series of events. How we observe these events determines how long they feel to us. Just as observation greatly influences the quantum universe, it also affects the (apparent) length of an event. All temporal masses are of equal size, but the measurement of density is greatly affected by observation. Density in temporal masses is directly correlated to the observed length of time taken for an event. An event and a temporal mass are the same thing.

There are no "personal" temporal masses. All temporal matter is observable. It is our conscious narrative that selects which events to use and personalize to construct a "rational" and "logical" narrative. How we observe these events are related more to our minds than to exterior factors. No event is localized and each event is but one small part of a much larger state of the universe that is constantly evolving.

These events, then, are not separate but parts of one event - the current state of the universe. All variables present in the universe affect the part you observe. Due to our minds we can not observe this in its entirety, and thus break it down into a series of events, which we of course suppose are caused by events and are the cause of "future" events. We set reference points such as these because it is was evolutionarily in our benefit to do so in the past.

We can now set our reference points in much better ways. We can set the beggining and the end of any set of events at the same point, thus creating a causal loop. By making the cause and the effect as one event, we do away with all old notions of "causality", and we find that it does not truly exist in the universe.

Energy is conserved. When entropy increases in one area, it decreases in another. The idea of a universal entropy increase is incorrect, as we can only observe a very small portion of the universe (~13 billion light years of the diameter of the universe). It is fairly ridiculous to assume the material created from the big bang is the entire amount of material in existence. Perhaps another big bang occurred some 20 billion light years away from the center of our "universe"; we would not know it existed until 7 billion years from now.

Thus the universe is not expanding, or growing larger, we are merely being able to see more of it. The fact that this universal expansion is increasing in velocity is also an illusion -- it is actually an increase in the amount of dark matter, which ever greatly pushes galaxies apart from eachother.

Your expectations are created and fulfilled by your narrative. This "linear" timeline of events your mind constructs is a "linear catalog". However, reality can be described only as a "non-linear catalog", a holistic collection of variables. What we weave into our reality is far removed from a linear pattern of successive events.

Our consciousness is one big game of connect-the-dots - dots that have no real connection, but merely facets of a process of a calculation that is being run instantaneously ad infinitum. Your important life is a fabrication and the life of a flea holds just as much weight.

However, I must repeat, the denial of self is an inherently flawed goal. Individuals must exist and. as such, it is one's responsibility to affect reality how one sees fit.

What you are doing at this moment has already been done by you and is being done by you in the future and as such will be done for all known existence. You and everything you've ever known is merely an extension of a process of a calculation that is being run instantaneously ad infinitum.

Show me in anyway that this world in which we live is not a video game and I will show you a lizard that thinks like a human.

Your narrative is the closest to reality you will come. If you allow for all things than the closer to the truth your reality shall go. In other words, your consciousness defines your reality. The more you observe and the more you acknowledge the closer to real reality your consciousness becomes.

There are two games being played in this collectiverse. The game of mortals and the game of immortals. Simply because you are manifesting in the game of mortals does not mean you can not play the game of immortals. In this sense you are existing, as a force and an agent, but you are not independent of the whole system, and your function is an illusion. Nevertheless, you can control your function and thus your station in the system. The system is host to the games of the mortals and immortals.

Nothing exists solely as digital. Everything is analog. Electrons are just as real as grooves on a plate. Subparticles are full of real existence, spanning a a certain frequency. A belief in a simple on and off existence of anything is pure folly.

No interaction exists without "the other." All entities exist as individual beings, otherwise no interaction could occur. The "other" is any given entity whith wich one interacts outside and exterior to one's self.

All thought exists as words. While mental images and emotions exist in our minds as either backgrounds or auxiliaries to our conscious narrative. Language, in this case, is not just one's own internal spoken word, but also any symbolically representative constructs present in one's mind.

You can't run your own blade. The recursive nature of consciousness reifies itself far too often in order for one to cause oneself a psychotic break merely through the act of logical and generally rational thought.

The game of the immortals is primarily constructs. It is also the process of slow and steady personal enhancement. To structure one's surroundings in concordance with order is important in the slowing of any location's entropy.

Gravity is a force upon which our realm is affected by, but is in actuality a property of a dimension higher than our own. What we perceive are not actual dimensions but simply the matrices of the universe our brains can comprehend. As the quantum world of constant flux has little impact in our macroscopic world, so to our perceived reality has little effect on the larger schema in which gravity operates.

Gravity is but the shadow of a system we can not observe, we are powerless in its wake, just as a photon is powerless in altering its own wave.