hello people.on hiatus for quite some time ha? got nothing interesting to tell pun.still the same old thing. bosan ngan my job, my attemp to find a soulmate/husband/boypren/bestfriend. but this time, i guess i'm quite used to it. so, takpelah. my time hasn't come yet. saya masih perlu banyak bersabar dan berdoa. *wipes her own tears*. oh, saya dah kurang menangis juga. actually sebenarnya, ada yang inspire me to become what i've said above.before this i was busy telling everyone i'm dying kan? i talk less about dying too. ah, blessing comes in disguise this time around. and hands down love, you win again.

am i in love. very much so. with whom?. someone.

am i happy? OMG, yes & no. why?.hehe.

orang lain dah tukar bofren 2 million times, break up and make up, bertunang and putus tunang, but eventually got married. me? ahahhahhahahhhaha.....see aku dah bleh gelak. kelakar nak mampos rasanya. *tolak kepala sendiri* aku macam ni lah jugak. my mom dah tak larat nak bising suruh kawin. mak, i found someone and he already met u. u like him kan? mak asyik tanya , "kawan hang tu ada lagi?" "ada mak.....". just to check my status. tapi mak, i will be the one yang akan decide will he be the one.if only i could tell her that i wanted him to go away.i want him to leave me. he didn't deserve me at all.

i told him already. he's upset. sayang, i'm upset too. can't u see it? of course u can't. why? i didn't show any kind of expression on my face. macam ini benda paling senang nak buat di dunia. haha.

entahla. dulu kalau tengok cerita korea/japs, slalu tak faham kenapa a guy and a girl yang obviously in love with each other, duduk side by side, tengok langit and bercakap and bercakap and menangis but still they couldn't express their love to each other. and me as the one who watch the drama religiously will be like "hek ele, cakap je la bodoh, ko suka kat dia la.....eiiii bodohnya......dah jumpa pun tak reti nak cakapppppppp".

guess what? inila yang aku buat sekarang.

MAKKKKK.....

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