~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~You are everywhere I look now. Why can't you just leave me be? Flaunting what you have, that I can't see into you anymore. It never was and never will be. Why can't you just let me go, let mourn in peace? Perfect by nature you are. Is that why I hate you so? You don't know how betrayed I am. Take your perfect chaos back to the heavens, be the Goddess again. Don't expect me to be your Osiris. I know the truth now, Iwon't be everybody's fool. I take my love away from you my Queen and I leave you, am gone from your devine influence. I will no longer sacrifice myself for you. You will never see me, you've shut your ears to my prayers. I won't bow down and stare in wonder as I wait for you to find the answer lost inside your mind. No more looking to the stars waiting for the lies they tell with false hopes. I can't find the you I love, the you I long to hear from inside this other-worldly vessel. You're other-worldly. Go there now so I can say goodbye to the Goddess of my Rage. Goodbye to my World, my Sun and Stars, goodbye. I leave you now for a new life. New Gods. I stand now and look the Queen in the eyes. Banish me from your beauty. I beg you.Farewell.
For Amanda Wright