Best Ever

22 November 2000


We’ve just met and we are introducing ourselves through touch. Whispering our life stories between kisses Small talk is usually awkward and not very interesting But as each piece of clothing is removed I want to know everything. I want to know his favorite color, dream, time of day So I can fall in love with him – Just for tonight. Fall in and out of love before the voyeuristic sun peers in the windows, Watching us wake without guilt because it was for love.

This… Feels… Right…

And we’re tumbling into bed. Nothing matters right now but this feeling. We’re pulling each other closer. Almost afraid the other might just disappear.

This… Feels… Too... Right…

Like a good dream right before you wake up. You want to hold onto that feeling for the rest of the day. Try to make it into a memory But here wrapped up with him and blankets and thoughts…

This… Feels… Right…

I am still dreaming because he - He is a porch light to find home, when his uncovered flesh glows in the shadows His fingers trace the path on my spine, my neck, and up to my lips And it feels right, if feels so right. We are pressed so tight, I am ready to let go of my body to get that much closer. We are moving together slowly, easily It is all so natural to us- like we invented touch and sex and lust

He stares down to me and releases a small smile

“Wonderful,” he whispers. “How can this be wonderful?”

His words fall like sweat from his face to mine. I don’t know how this could be wonderful but it feels right.

This… Feels… Right…

This… Feels… Right… NOW…

In the dark of my bedroom, we’re sharing everything but love. Lying there afterward, we’re bodies, just bodies He asks me if I would ever write about him. I said I only write about people I don’t know.