May 1996:
Nat Bailey Stadium and subsequent
happenings
Life is a blur for me sometimes, looking back. By 1996 I was
living in Portland, still raising my son and working part time for
the US Navy. By May of this year, I was flying into Whidbey on drill
weekends, and had been issued flight suit, jacket and so forth.
The May weekend before the shows, I was supposed to do my first
flight as aircrew (stewardess) on DC-10s, which the Navy flies as
their own airliners, we would run down the coast and pick up sailors
off carriers in San Diego, and drop them at Lemoore, or Portland, or
Whidbey, where-ever they belonged. It could be quite interesting,
they traditionally let the "new daddies" get on the planes first, so
I would frequently see guys in their Whites, quite sober indeed, and
looking at pictures of infants with puzzled looks on their faces.
There is no describing the confusion of being away deployed to Sea
when the baby is born. No wonder Navy families are so squirrelly.
Anyway this weekend I found out some really profound things about
aircrew 1) aircrew does what they do because they get to chase nukie
in strange and new bars, without the spouse checking up on them. As I
get older, I see that this is more the norm than the exception to
many married folks. Makes you not want to even think about "true
love", it doesn’t exist maybe and 2) I CAN’T FLY WITHOUT A DRINK. Man
that was a scary revelation to make. I take my work very seriously,
and had no idea that getting on a plane cold stone sober would be
such a harrowing experience. They scare the hell out of you in flight
school, honestly. I’m a good swimmer, but that dump in the rolling
barrel and getting out of it blindfolded was pretty creepy. The whack
into the water knocks the breath out of you, and then the water
gurgles up quite rapidly…… glug glug…
The need to chase strange nukie did not outweigh my anxiety of
flying sober. After all the struggling I had done to get the
position, I turned in my wings. Right after I found out the CNO had
shot himself. [The Chief of Naval Operations and his "suicide" are
another story that is totally political Off Topic for the Moody
Blues. But suffice to say, it was not a happy weekend for me or for
anyone in my squadron. I was totally ready to run from the USN, from
life, from everything after this week. My values were totally turned
upside down].
With this in mind, I slept fitfully that night at Navy Lodge, and
packed myself out for Vancouver, BC the next morning to see the
Moodies. I’d never been to Canada. It looked much closer on the map,
and turned out to be a rather long drive up there, under rainy dismal
skies, and negative thoughts about my role in my country’s defense
battering around my brain all the way. Vancouver turned out to be a
pretty big metropolitan area too, so getting to the venue itself was
more complicated than I liked it. I was supposed to hook up with my
friend Jane who was Canadian, a Scorpio (oops remember what I said
about Scorpios?) Yep she had the same idea as Lisa, only was much
more subtle, and I think much more determined thereby.
Jane always knew where the Moodies were staying. And she stayed
there too, and used the gyms. She was cute as a bug’s ear. I never
found out if she scored with her Favorite Moody, but she dropped out
of sight long ago in the fan club, and I suppose the whole thing is
sort of silly to bring up now. But she was nice, and even though she
used me like she was using all her Moody friends for her ultimate
goal of Canal Knowledge of A Moody, she was still sorta fun to hang
out with.
On to the show! For the life of me I do not remember an orchestra
at this show, but I think there must have been, because Larry Baird
wrote about it later in the fan club newsletter. The stage was up
kinda high, and I think the orchestra was like back in the back, and
I was up front, so I never saw them much. And I remember them
rehearsing the orchestra in the lobby of the stadium, right next to
the popcorn machine (Nat Bailey). I lurked around outside listening
and peeking in at the grubby concession area full of orchestral bits
and bobs.
Then since I couldn’t find Jane (she was off with some other
friends stalking the boys, no doubt) I went to a rose garden nearby.
If it hadn’t been so rainy and overcast, and if I had a better
attitude it might have even been a lovely city. I remember a hot dog
stand called "Mr. Tube Steak" that was pretty funny. It finally got
close to curtain time, Jane showed up with her friends, we all hung
outside talking.
Jane the stalker had found Justin in a gym somewhere, and being
pretty, she managed to draw him out in a conversation. His new album
(The View from the Hill) was ready to release, but the backers
had pulled out at the last minute. "And our dressing rooms are full
of water" Justin had added in a disgruntled tone. (The album was
finally released later that year in October, I think Justin finally
went with BMG, don‘t quote me on that).
I’m pretty sure I saw Marie Hayward go into this show. She had her
hair in a pony tail and flashed a backstage pass on a lanyard,
wearing hat, raincoat etc like a cowboy in a duster. The funny thing
is, she did something with her ponytail, flipping it that reminded me
exactly of a horse’s non-verbal language. Marie has caught a lot of
flak from the fan club over the years, unto death threats (no
kidding) but in that moment she struck me as a rather cool, funny
person. Someone you could cuss around, you know?
As Larry Baird put it " like a fairy tale, the rain stopped so the
show could happen" it did, we all saw it. And it happened again the
next night at the Gorge too.
Highlight of the show: The rain had dropped in buckets all day. It
finally cleared up just in time, the sun came out, the band began.
After a few songs, down the front aisle came this guy with a beard,
long hair, flowers in his hair, beads and bells swinging, in a
genuine kilt, and dancing and twirling in some sort of Highland
Fling. He did his thing across the front, then proceeded up the
center aisle, right in front of Justin. Up to this point Justin has
kept his usual "poker face" (still grumpy about his soggy dressing
room, no doubt), but I swear he cracked a grin like the sun coming
out at this, and gave a hearty chuckle. And then Justin kept right on
singing, while the other band members stared slack jawed in
disbelief. Thank you Moody Elf, wherever you are, you made it a
wonderful show.
After the show, Jane talked me into coming back to the hotel (I
gave her a lift actually) and it timed just so that the Moody Blues
actually arrived at the same time. I was mentally out in left field
by this time, after my flight experiences, talking to Jane, (the
Moody Elf didn’t help any!) I was questioning my sanity at all of it.
Somehow we wound up entangled in the Moody entourage, on the same
escalator (Jane was maneuvering all this I’m sure, though maybe it
was not ALL her doing come to think of it………. I was just going with
the flow, honest!) John got onto one elevator, he looked exhausted.
Paul went on the other one, Jane and I followed Paul, and JUSTIN
FOLLOWED US.
No one would believe me if I told in detail what happened on that
elevator, so I most certainly WON’T, but I was pretty shocked at the
time, and still don’t believe it. WHINNeey!!!!! (tail toss). Jane and
I threw an I Ching when we got to her room, and got the first
hexagram "Dragons rising" so it was all pretty weird.
Jane and I went for some coffee after that and chatted a bit, and
then I drove BACK down the road, to where I don’t know, but I do know
I did the Gorge the next day. I must have slept somewhere, and it may
have been in the back of my truck in a sleeping bag, for all I know.
The Gorge: no surprise, I have little to no memory of this
show, and it must have been orchestral too, with the Spokane
symphony. I think I got there quite early in the day, camped on the
hill over the stage, enjoying the Sun and listened to meadow lark
music intertwined with Moody rehearsal notes. It really was a
wonderful day, I remember that. You should always listen to Moodies
music in the middle of a pasture with wild flowers all around.
Nida was there for sure, got some great photos. I think Justin had
a bad arm this tour, and he came out with wet hair, reports were
there was a hot tub back stage and he had been in it. His hair is
fantastic, it fluffs out on its own, and does not need a blow dry to
look the way it does, I know that from watching it dry on stage that
night! The Gorge itself is really beautiful, one of the hidden
wonders of the world, a huge canyon of the Columbia River.
The same three gals Jane had been running with in Vancouver showed
up for these shows, so that was pretty fun. We wound up partying with
them under the stars, after the show in the camp grounds, Nida and I.
And the next night at the Rose Quarter I also have no memory of.
Remind me not to do Moody Blues shows when I am so damn tired will
you? It’s a waste of time!
I was really glad to get home after all this. Looking back on it,
I can think of two people in easy arms’ reach that should have been
whacked for their schemes and TEASING, since they were both married.
And I was fond of them both too, but what was going ON??? And
thinking about aircrew and how they all headed for the bar the moment
those planes had been chocked (and I knew most of them were married
too). It’s no wonder I’ve had relationship after relationship fall
with a flop with my attitude. Call me old fashioned and silly, but I
still believe in love and faithfulness, and finding out your best
friend might like to get naked with you and maybe that will be the
only one forever. I can’t help it (nor do I understand it) when
people find excuses to wriggle out of intimacy. Why is bed hopping
such a damn SPORT all the sudden?
Having the CNO die in political insanity that weekend was just
icing on the cake of my depression and malaise..