Egophobia

Leaden treasure in the body,
Reasonable heart and medusa.

Bitterness flows out in crimson tears,
The eye its bleeding melancholy gives away,
From a ramified serpent, blue
Wailing to the sobbing beat
Of its heart, spitting.

Fierce assassinating disillusions,
Gun, dagger, vicious rope;
Sadness drowns in its incandescent flow
The spirit: pool of blood.
The body survives or does not...
The spirit... does not

The mirror scrutinises with hatred,
Hatred for the I who stands before,
Body and soul,
Ego... Phobia -- Egophobia
Longing for decay, for autodestruction.

Loving -- comitting suicide
Love is suicide
I am here I-dea--