It's all so confusing
Hard to understand
It happened so quickly
I can't comprehend
One minute you're here
Like you're supposed to be
But, in the blink of an eye
It's only me
I have all these feelings
Bottled up inside
They scare me a little
Because they're so hard to hide
They say it's best
To let the feelings go
"Get them out in the open"
It's not easy though.
Because our girls -For Them
I have to be strong
And to show thme my tears
I know would be wrong
But late at night
When the kids are in bed
And the dishes are done
And the cats' been fed
The worries and fears
And loneliness set in
The anger and resentment
Start to surface again
So here in the dark
I let loose the tears
And feels the arms of God
Draw especially near
He holds me and comforts me
And makes me feel safe
With Him I can cope
In Him I have faith
So honey, don't worry
We'll be alright
I'll take out the trash
And keep the weeds out of sight
The bills will get paid
The errands will be run
I'll make sure everything
You usually do gets done
Just know that we love you
And miss you more each day
And in our hearts and our minds
You're never far away.
By Mary Braaten
